I Never Knew What to Say

~Frank~
I’m worried sick… what if he dies… again? I hear my phone ringing so I rush downstairs to answer.
“Hello?”
“Frank hey, it’s Mikey”
“Is he okay?”
“Yeah I think they will let him out soon… I hope”
“Good to hear Mikey, go back to him”
“See ya!” before I can say bye he puts the phone down. I think about all the times me and Gerard have gone to the comic shop and we go to the same section or the music shop and admire the same guitar, not on purpose we just like the same stuff. He would always shake his head when we watched scary movies and I would hide, a grin on his face when I’d scream. To think I have been living with him for four years and we have only spoken now… I go in the shower, thinking while I am in there, how friendly Gerard was without touching or speaking to me, just by being there and smiling. I throw some pyjama bottoms on and wander into the kitchen to stick the kettle on. I hear a knock on the door. I open it up to see Gerard and Mikey outside just as Mikey’s anger explodes “You can NOT be in love with my best friend!” Gerard turns bright red.
“Hello to you too Mikey” he walks past me and heads to the kitchen.
“Sorry he’ll be…”
“… angrily making coffee” I finish for Gerard and he looks at me smiling. We head to the kitchen too and Mikey was scowling over his coffee. I giggle “Lucky you have it black Mikey because you could curdle milk with an expression like that” I hear Gerard laugh behind me.
“Oh yeah very funny, you two are thick as thieves, like a proper couple aren’t you?” this is not like Mikey at all, he seems more angry than he would normally be.
“Mikey what’s up? Why are you angry at me? I am your best friend!”
“The best friend who is trying to get into my brothers pants”
“Mikey?” Gerard places a coffee in front of me and I smile at him
“Come on! That smile! You fancy my brother!” I look over to Gerard, I always thought he was attractive but he was always unreachable because he was a ghost… until he tried to touch me for the first time… “See?! You can’t answer!”
“I’ve been thinking” Gerard pipes up “I’m sorry Mikey but it has been four years and I was with Frank the whole time so yeah… I think I do have feelings for him…” he looks at the table smiling as I blush. “I never thought anything could come of it, I didn’t even know he could see me…”
“I have been able to see you the whole time, I thought I was going insane” I place my hand on his, his skin smooth and warm under my touch and he looks up to smile at me.
“Damn you Gerard! I’m going home!” he storms off to the door
“Mikey wait!” I stop him and look at him “Think about it, when you were sad he tried to hug you but his hands went through and he lost his balance. He goes to hug me and he turns solid?!”
“I was stuck haunting him, he was the only one who could see me… there is one factor in all of this”
“Me…”
“You think you are connected to my brother somehow?” He is calmer and confused at least now… I think I see where Gerard is going with this…
“I think me and your best friend are soul mates Mikes” okay I thought he was going to say I was some sort of mutant…
“Mum hated you because you were gay Gerard… after you killed yourself I thought you went to hell… It hurt me Gerard”
“I didn’t go to hell mikes I just ended up here instead…”
“When you reappeared I hoped you’d learned your lesson, now I see you are still a sinner”
“Mikes!”
“No Gerard, you and Frank will never see me again!”
“I never noticed he was still religious… did you Frank?”
“No, he told me he refused to be Christian because your mum went crazy with the anti-gay stuff”
“I know I was there I just hoped I had heard wrongly…”
“Come on we need to sort a bed out for you” we headed upstairs to make the bed, I think there is more to what Mikey just did than we realise but I don’t think we will find out.

Notes

tra la la enjoy!
~frankieroisasnowflake