The World Is Ugly But You're Beautiful To Me

Sarah's POV


Its been two days since I've seen the guys. I still kept Gerard's number. My mind has been buzzing whether I should call him. My birthday is tomorrow so that will give an excuse to see them again.
I groan and get up from bed.
"Come on you can do it Sarah just call him," I motivate myself. I finally pick up my phone. I slowly unlock it and start pressing his number into my phone. I press call.

ringgg ringgg

My palms begin to sweat. I know I'm so stupid. It's just that I have a fear of rejection.

"hello?" I hear Gerard's voice on the other line.

"Uh hey it's um Sarah," I sound so stupid.

"Hey! What have you been up to?"

"Nothing I guess, so Gerard I was wondering if... you and the guys might want to meet up with me for my birthday tomorrow? I mean like I understand if you don't want to hang out with me-"

"That sounds awesome!!! Where do you want to go?"

"Oh really well um maybe we could go to Antidote you know the coffee shop on 22nd street?" There is a small pause and some muffling.

"Hell yeah that sounds awesome I will let the guys know what time?"

"Is seven okay?"

"Sounds good to me! See you then!"

I laugh a little. "Okay bye"

"Bye Sarah" I quickly hang up the phone and throw myself on my bed. I grab my black butler pillow and scream into. I let out a satisfy sigh and get up to make coffee. Yes! I'm so excited!!! I begin to pour some leftover coffee from this morning into my batman mug.
I look over at the oven for the time. 8:24. Hm I guess I still have time to shop for clothes. The mall doesn't close till midnight.I grab my keys slip on a beat up pair of converse and head out.

----------the mall

I yank out my keys from the ignition and get out. I kick a pebble as I walk towards the mall entrance. Let's see. I locate a mall map. Hot Topic is upstairs. I run up the stairs once I reach the top of the flight of stairs I'm gasping for air. I really need to exercise. It's not that I'm fat I'm just unhealthy bleh whatever.

"Hello welcome to Hot Topic all shirts are buy one get one half off!" a girl says with neon pink hair.
"Thank you," I mutter. I run straight to the dresses.I at least want to look a little formal.

I spot a couple dresses that I like. I search for my size and grab them.

"Can I try these on?" I ask timidly to one of the workers.

"Sure follow me!" god they are so perky.
He gestures me to go inside the dark empty dressing room. "Here you go," he says.
"Thanks," is say while closing the door in his face. I slip on the first dress. It has black skulls with a white background. It looks okay but it's not me. After so many dresses I slip on the last one. It is a short black sailor style dress. It looks...good on me! I bet it's expensive for some reason I never bother to look at the price tag until later. It says $28.65. Not bad. I put my old clothes back on and head to the register to purchase the dress. I give the cashier the money as he hands me the bag with my new dress.

---------time lapse the next day

Why do I have to play world of warcraft till 2:00 in the afternoon. Yes I know that's a long time!!!! I just sometimes get caught up and it pays off because I'm a level 70 night elf woooo! But for real I passed out and it's now 6:42 asdfghjkl. I need to hurry I have to take shower do my makeup and all that shit!! That's what you get Sarah. Shut up brain...Ugh!! I quickly jump in the shower taking like literally two seconds in there and running to my room and get dress. I rip off the tag on my dress and pull on fishnets and my doc martens.
" Back to the bathroom away!!" I scream. Yes sometimes I scream when I'm by myself..
I slap on some heavy eyeliner I usually put on a lot of makeup because my eyes are a greenish hazel and it contrasts a lot so yeah it looks pretty c: I check my phone

Gerard- Hey we are here are you on your way? ~xoxo g

me- yeah just running late be there in a sec~ s

I do a quick mirror check. I grab my sailor moon purse and slam the door on the way out.


I drive like a freaking maniac. I even almost ran a red light oh god. I need to chill out...
I blast on Blink 182 to calm myself.
"all the small things mmm," I sing/hum to the song. I finally reach the coffee shop. I park the car and look in the rear view mirror to do the final touches to me. I comb my hair with a random brush I find in the backseat and smear red lipstick on my lips. I get out and go inside the shop. I quickly scan the shop to try to find them. Then I see a group of guys waving their arms. I smile and sigh of relief. I sit myself next to Ray in the booth.

"Sorry I'm late I just well um I just woke up" I give a nervous laugh.

"Nah it's fine" Gerard says and waves his hand.

"Thanks for calling us! We were kind of worried we won't see you again!" Frank says and pushes Ray to give me a hug.

"Well I'm going to get some coffee you guys want something?" I say grabbing my purse and getting up. They all shake their heads and show me they already bought coffee.

"I'll go with you!" Frank says while getting up and shoving Ray against the wall. Poor Ray I guess that's what happens when you sit next to Frank in a booth. I laugh at him as he gets up. I look at Gerard and there is a scowl on his face. I wonder what is wrong with him?
"Mother fucker.." Gerard mutters under his breathe with some more cursing. I shrug it off maybe he's just having a bad day. Frank and I walk together to the register. we stand in line next to each other

"You look beautiful.." Frank says to me with a silky voice. I feel myself blushing. He looks into my eyes. His deep hazel eyes...

"T-t-thank you no one has ever told me that," i say the last part really quietly so he won't hear buy it is true no one has ever told me that. Everybody just spits and sneers at me. They gave me a pet name in high school oh god it was "emo scene queen" it wasn't ever original and creative! If you are going to insult me at least do it right with some creativity! Frank cuts off my thoughts.

"How is that possible I think you are really gorgeous... Any guy can see that," He trails off. "Can I ask you something?" he says and looks at the floor and shuffles his feet.

"Yeah," my heart begins to pound...

"Do you have a boyfriend?" he says quickly.

"No, why?"

"Well because..because I know this guy and um he like um you-"

"May I take your order?" a guy says with black whoosh hair and a sleeve tattoo asks.

"J-just a french vanilla mocha," I say to him.

"Sure thing cutie," he says with a wink and heads off to make it. Frank steps a little closer to me.

"We should hurry the guys are waiting," Frank says into my ear.

"Here you go, so what's your name?" he asks handing the cup to me.

"Uh Sarah," I take the cup.

"Jacob," he says shaking my hand. "the coffee is on the house don't worry about it darling" he says rejecting the cash I was trying to hand to him. Frank tugs on my arm and he takes me back to the table. I look back to take one last look at Jacob he winks again at me and I mouth 'thank you'.

We sit back down.

"So Sarah we want to know more about you!" Mikey says and sips his coffee.

"Let's see where to begin.. I love bands like Black Flag, Misfits, Iron Maiden, Green Day, and Blink-182 bands like that," their eyes grow wide. Mikey and Gerard run and squeezes in the same seat as Ray Frank and I. I don't know how but they manage to fit. All four of them throw their arms and hug me.

"WE LOVE THEM TOO LIKE SOOOOO MUCH!!" They all scream in my ear. I giggle as they pull away.

Throughout the night we just talk about bands and stuff we like. I found out their roles in the band and that Gerard is and artist! That is so cool he says that he is in the making of one comic book.

I take out my phone to check the time 10:00 already?! "Well it's has been awesome guys," I say getting up.

"You are leaving already?!" They all say.

"Yeah it's getting late guys plus you know how NJ gets at night!" I say.

"True that!" Gerard says.

"Why won't you spend the night at our place?" Mikey says and cocks his head.

I do trust after all these hours it feels like I've been knowing them forever...What's the harm i have my phone so... Whatever I'm going.

"That sounds awesome I just need to swing by my place and grab some stuff you guys can follow me."

"Okay," Gerard says.

"I WANT TO RIDE WITH YOU SARAH BEARA!!" Frank says jumping up and clapping his hands.

"Dude just ride with us I mean you probably get on her nerves and-" Gerard says.

"It's fine" I say.

"If you say so," Gerard says scratching his neck.

"YAY" Frank says and sticks out his tongue at Gerard.

"Come on Fwankie let's go" I say giggling. We both skip to my car with arms link together. I wave the Gerard and step into my car.

"To my bat cave!!" I say and shove the keys and turn on my car. "Pick out a cd," I say to Frank and take out my cd case. He flips through it quickly and picks out one out of the second page. He places the cd in the cd playing thingy. And we head off.

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