The World Is Ugly But You're Beautiful To Me

Sarah's POV
I wake up and walk over to Gerard. He is passed out on the couch. His black dyed hair is sprawled over his face. I smile and go to the kitchen. I take out two bowls and pour some cereal. I make some coffee and pour it in two mugs. I take the mug over to Gerard. I bend down and poke his face. I rock him back and forth to wake him up. He stirs a little.
"Coffee Gee," I say. His eyes flutter open. He sits up and grabs the mug.
"Thanks Sarah. " I nod and get our cereal.
"Tired ?" I ask.
"Yeah," he says and stares at his coffee. "This is really good. "
"Thanks," I smile. "So are you ready to go back home. Not that u don't want you here but Im just wondering how long you are going to stay so I can fix things up here. "
"Maybe a week..or two. " he says. He sniffs a little.
"Gee, we at least need to do something so you can forget about her. "
"It's not that easy!" He shouts. I flinch. I put down my stuff on the kitchen counter.
"I understand that but you really don't need to shout. Just try to cool down. " I say and walk back to my room. I don't want to fight with him and he'll get more upset. I close the door and plop myself on the bed. I pick up my guitar and strum a little. I remember the song that I wrote. I go to my desk and find it. I tape it to my wall and strum along to what I wrote. I sing softly to the lyrics I made up. I hear a soft knock. I place my guitar on my bed and open the door. Gerard's eyes are red and puffy once again. I hug him.
"It's okay. " I whisper.
"I-I just wanted to apologize for shouting. I shouldn't get mad at you you're helping me. Please don't be mad. "
"I'm not mad. I just had to leave because I was pretty sure if I kept talking it would upset you more. "
"No. " he simply says.
"Come in. " I say. He sits on my bed and I sit next to him.
"What were you playing?"
"Nothing, just random. " I say. I don't want to play my song for him yet. It's still under process. He raises an eyebrow. "Okay I'm working on a song. I'll show you once I'm done with it. " I say and smile.
"Awesome. " he chuckles. He clears his throat. "Sarah?"
"Yeah?" He looks into my eyes. His eyes look so hollow and sad.
"Well um I -" someone knocks on the door.
"Hold that thought." I say and run to the door. I open it to see Jacob.
"Hey Jacob what are you doing here?" I ask. He moves his hair to the side.
"Remember you wanted to hang out today?" I face palm mentally.
"Oh my god yes. I'm so sorry. Come in. "
"Thanks," he says. I look at him. He has his gages on and he is wearing black head to toe. He's so cute. Wait what... I run back to my room.
"Gerard?" I ask.
"Over here. " I see him looking through my CDs. "Who was that?" He asks.
"Oh my friend I totally forgot that he wanted to hang out today and you're here " I bite my lip.
"Go ahead and go. " he says with a hint of sadness.
" I don't have to go. " I say.
"Go have fun. " he says with a fake smile.
"Did you want to come?"
"Nah I'll just take a nap while you're gone or something. "
"Well why don't you meet him at least ?" He sighs.
"Sure. " he gets up and follows me to the living room.
"Jacob this is Gerard," I say.
"What's up," Jacob puts out his hand and gerard shakes it awkwardly.
"I'm going to get ready you two have fun. " I call out and go back to my room. I slip on black leggings and a green day shirt. I put on some converse and brush my hair. I quickly apply some eyeliner. I walk back to the living room and see Jacob and Gerard sitting awkwardly on the couch. Gerard looks pretty pissed. I feel pretty bad to leave him. Gerard gets up and goes to the bathroom.
"Bye Gee," I say. He doesn't answer.
"Ready?" He asks. I nod.
"I'll get back early. I left a spare key so you can leave if you want to leave. Food is in the fridge help yourself. " Jacob rolls his eyes and laughs a little.
"He's not a baby he can take care of himself. "
"Jacob maybe we can hang out another time. "
"I'm sure he's fine hun. Lets go I'm sure you're dying to get out of the house. " I nod hesitantly. He grabs my hand. I get into his car and we drive off.
"Gerard is weird. You guys make an awkward couple. " he says.
"Gerard and I aren't a couple. " I say and laugh.
"Oh." He rubs his neck. "So where did you want to go. " I shrug.
"Maybe to a music store." He nods. We arrive to one ten minutes later. We hop out of the car. We run inside. I directly go to the rock section and jacob goes to the metal section. I grab four different CDs. I see one from the corner of my eye. It's mcr's. I smile and pick it up.
"What do you have?" He asks holding a cd.
"Um Lest We Forget Manson's greatest hits, OK computer by Radiohead, Dookie by Green Day, and Weezer's blue album. Oh and also Mcr's album. " I say and look at the cover. "I Brought You My Bullets You Brought Me Your Love. " I nod.
"Cool. I got Mechanical Animals by Marilyn Manson. "
"Awesome ! Lets go pay. " I take out my wallet and hand the CDs to the employee.
"I got it sugar. " he winks and hands his cd and pays.
"You didn't have to. " I say and get my bag of CDs.
"Nah it's no problem I wanted to. " he says and waves his hand.
"Thanks. " I says an smile.
"You're welcome. So you wanna grab a bite to eat. " I nod. We drive over to a coffee shop that he works at. "Wait here I'll get us some food and coffee. " I nod and sit in a booth. He comes back with two sandwiches and two coffees.
"Thanks Jacob. " I smile.
"Welcome. So you don't have a boyfriend?"
"No. " I take a bite of my sandwich.
"Ah. "
"Do you?" He nods no.
"So what's your favorite band?"
"Crap well I will say now it is Green Day. " I say and sip my coffee. "You?"
"Hm maybe Blink-182 right now. " he shrugs and continues to eat his sandwich. We finished eating and he drives me back to my house.
"Here we are. " he says. He yanks his keys from the ignition and walks me to my door.
"This was really fun. " I say and smile. He smiles back. He then leans in and kisses me quickly.
"Bye Sarah. " he takes off. I stand there and try to figure what just happened. I shake my head and walk in the house. I see gerard drawing on his sketchbook on the couch.
"Hey. " I kick off my shoes and sit next to him. He stays silent. He looks pissed still. "Gerard you okay?"
"Just peachy. " I roll my eyes by his sarcasm.
"Come on what's up. " I say and nudge him.
"I don't like this Jacob guy. "
"What do you mean?"
"Well he threaten me that's one thing. "
"He what?!" Okay so now I'm mad at Jacob he wouldn't would he?
"Yeah. He said to back off or else he'll kick my ass. " he says in an annoyed voice.
"What the fuck? I can't believe he would do that!"
"Yup. " he says.
"Wait so why did he say 'back off' you weren't even doing anything. "
"He thinks we are together. " he says without looking up from sketching.
"Oh. Look Gee don't pay attention to him. He's pretty cool when you get to know him. I guess he's just protective. "
"Yeah defend your boyfriend. "
"Boyfriend?" I laugh a little.
"Well friends don't kiss. " he snaps back. I bite my lip.
"Gerard will you stop giving me a hard time!" I say a little too loud.
"Shut the hell up! He fucking threaten me and you defend him!"
"Why do you care so much?!"
"Shut up you whore!" Well that hurt. I walk away to my room and slam the door and lock it. I throw myself on my bed and start to cry. What happened to Gerard? The nice one. Not the one that yells and gets pissed over every little thing. I understand that his grandma died but I think I'm the problem here. I need to be more sensitive. I sigh and get up. I unlock the door and go to the living room.
"Gerard I'm sorry I really should have more sympathy. " I look up I see him still sketching.
"Yeah too late for that. You don't seem to understand. " he throws his sketchbook on the floor and goes to the kitchen. He picks up a glass. He throws it violently on the ground. "That's me! Say sorry and it won't get back together!" He shouts at the top of his lungs. I feel tears rolling down my cheek. "Stop crying you bitch!" I cry even more. I grab his shoulders.
"Why Gerard?" I ask. He starts to cry.
"I took them Sarah. " he says. "I'm sorry. "
"Took what?" He reaches in his pocket and grabs a handful of pills.
"I'm sorry. " he whispers.
Okay I kinda cried writing this. :/

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