Never Mind About The Shape I'm In

FRANK'S POV

Did he just say "yes"?!
Whatever. He was probably joking or maybe I imagined it.
I walked across the room to his closet where I begin the search for blankets. When I don't find any I get really confused because there's always enough for all the guys due to our regular sleepovers.
(Sleepovers? Is that manly?)

"Hey, Gee?" I turn to see him bundled up in bed already. "I can't find the blankets." I say quizzically. When he doesn't respond I stand awkwardly. Maybe he's asleep. I said I would stay so I can't just leave.

"I think Mikey put them in the washer."

This made since. I don't ever remember those blankies smelling particularly fresh.

"Oh." was all I said. What more was there to say? I would have to sleep on the floor without blankets and it was getting close to Christmas -which I hate- so it was especially cold.

I wish he wasn't dating Kellin. I would just hop in his bed. Friends can do that, right?

"You can sleep in my bed." Gerard offered. I thought about that and considered my hormones lately.Sure I liked him, but he didn't know that.
Actually, he didn't even know I was gay at all. If he ever found out it would probably be awkward. It would ruin what friendship we did have.

I'd only known him for about a month. The only reason I'm even at his house is because our moms hit it off really well and decided to go on a shopping trip.

(Not like a day-at-the-mall shopping trip. They would be gone for 2 more weeks.
My mom thought I should stay at their house while she was gone, so I had to keep running across the street to my house for all of the albums I have that Gee doesn't.)

This made Gerard in charge since Mikey was younger and I've never seen or heard of their dad. I just assumed it was a touchy subject since no one ever acknowledged his absence. Ever.
(Maybe they were conceived from some unknown sperm donor.)

"I don't bite." Gee said. I wish he would...... Why am I such a perv and how long have I been spaced out? I really want to bundle up in his warm bed, but I don't want to get all worked up.

"No, it's fine."

"It's not fine. You'll catch a cold or something." I just stared at him weighing the pros and cons. "I really don't mind." As he said this he made space for me on his bed.

More space than was necessary seeing as I haven't really grown since 8th grade and I'm kinda scrawny.( I don't know why. I eat more than Bob.) I was a junior and as much as it showed in my face, it didn't in my height.

"If you say so." I climbed in and starfished to claim even more unneeded space. It was in that moment that I realized Gerard was only in his boxers. I froze still laying out stretched on my back.

"G'night, Frankie." He mumbled facing his entire hot as fuck being toward me. I stared into his eyes for the second time tonight and prayed on my mother's (less-mesmerizing-than- Gerard's) eyes that he wouldn't belong to Kellin much longer and that he thought of me the same way. Gerard started blushing, but didn't break his gaze from mine. I realized I had been staring and blushed harder than I have in a long time.

"N-night Gerard" I stutter turning away from him.

All I could think as I laid there was that he would never be mine and I needed to find someone else.
Then I started thinking about what Mikey said earlier today:
"Gerard is a jealous person. If he likes you it wont be hard to get him jealous and he'll get really mad at whoever you were with."

I don't think I've ever made him jealous. Maybe I should give up. Maybe I should give Bob a chance. (He's great.)Maybe I should actually talk to Andy even though he's a lunatic.(Seriously kids got problems. He needs professional help from somewhere.)

Soon, my eyelids became too heavy to fight and I let sleep take over.
I dreamt of a happy ending to Frank Iero's Love Life.
But dreams are dreams and they rarely come true. I don't think I can prove statistics wrong.
Kellin has everything I don't. Sure we both have bands, but I'm no good. Not good enough for Gerard at least.

Yeah, I should give up.

Notes

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