What If They Find Out

"I...uh...yes?" I stuttered out. I could feel my face begin to burn.

When I looked at Gerard I could see the happiness in his eyes. But also the confusion of what to do, the worry of getting found out, and the fear that I was just lying to make him happy.

"Come on, let's take you home," he said grabbing a set of keys from his desk.

I followed him through the halls silently always keeping an eye on him.

As we neared his car he turned around and faced me, "Did you really mean what you said? Do you really feel that way?" Gerard said.

I paused for a second, just now realizing how much this is to him, "Yes."

Just as I said it he brought me into the tightest hug that I'm pretty sure existed. I could feel his arms wrapped around me. His warm body felt so amazing against mine. My head was resting on his chest and his head was on mine. We seemed to fit together perfectly.

When the hug ended he opened the door for me and went to the other side to get in. His car smelt like coffee and cigarettes. There was a small mouse head figurine hanging from the rear view mirror. His car was a Trans Am with weathered yellowish paint. It had leather seats and was probably one of the most strange vehicles I've seen a teacher have.

"Where do you live?" he asked

"2764 Springer Avenue" I answered. (I have no idea where he really lived, I just made stuff up)

And with that he pulled out of the parking lot to take me home.

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"Can I see your phone," he asked. "Uh, sure," I said and handed it to him.

A minute later he handed it back, "You have my number now."

We both grinned and I stepped out of the car.

It was only 3:05 so I was on time. I walked inside and dropped my bag on my bedroom floor. I had an idea of what I wanted to do so I told my dad that I would be outside.

When I got out there I headed straight for the old tree in the corner of our yard. I climbed the old ladder and up into the treehouse. The treehouse had been my mom's idea before she died.

It was dark and empty inside but it felt so good to be up here. I had no idea why I wanted to be up here. I guess I just felt like a lot had changed since my childhood and I just wanted some of it back.

I probably spent an hour up there tonight. Thinking about Gerard, my mom, my dad. Everything, everything and anything.

I loved being up there. It was so quiet and peaceful. I wish I could just stay up there forever.

Thinking about what I thought earlier about the changes made me wonder how much really was different.

My mom died

I became gay

My dad started abusing me

I lost all of my friends

Mikey and Gerard moved here

Mikey became my best friend

I started feeling affection to who back then I thought of as Mr. Way

I found out he liked me back

However my height sure didn't change much. I still represent the lollipop guild. Hehe I just made myself laugh.

Well now I was laying in my bed under the soft black covers. Thinking of all of the things had made me tired and my eyes began to flutter closed.

The last thing I thought of before I fell asleep was, tomorrow is going to be an interesting day.

Notes

Hey sorry I didn't update yesterday. I had state competition for cheerleading. We didn't make it to finals though. Anyway here you guys go, a nice longer chapter to make up for it. Love you guys :) P.S. if anyone is wondering the mouse figurine in Gerard's car is the mouse from the NaNaNa music video