What If They Find Out

"Where have you been!" my father yelled from his room. " At school, I had to talk to a teacher after class," I said trying to refrain from panicking. This is how it always started. He would yell and get angry, I would go to my room to text Mikey. So I decided that maybe if I answered him calmly he would leave me alone when I went to my room.

Slowly I crept down the hall, past his door, and into my room. I shut the door silently and pulled out my phone. As I unlocked it I got a call from Mikey. "Hey," he said. "Hey," I said trying to hide my fear of my Dad hearing me.

"Frank!" my father yelled in response to my thoughts. " Sorry Mikey, I've got to go," I whispered as my dad burst into the room. "Are you talking to your boyfriend Frank," he sneered. "N-n-n-no," I stuttered. Whack! He punched me in the face. "Wrong answer fag," he said and walked out of the room.

I sat there, still as stone and began to cry silently. Sniffling up my tears, I ran to my bathroom across the hall. I grabbed a razor from its hiding place in a box of tissues. Gently I pressed the blade to my arm sliding it slowly down towards my wrist. When I had repeated this three more times I set the blade down. I quickly rinsed my wrist and the razor in the sink. As soon as I placed the razor in its hiding spot again I ran back to my room.

I leaped onto my bed and picked up my phone. I'd gotten five texts from Mikey.

hey why did u have to go

hello?

frank r u ok

frank what happened

answer me

Its fine MIkey my dad just needed to talk to me, I sent to him so that he didn't think that I was in any real danger. I mean it wasn't that big of a deal. Simply my dad is right and I'm a worthless fag. I don't deserve to be loved by him and to prove this to myself, I cut. It is as simple as that.

Notes

I told you this one would be longer. It's still not very long, but it will get there. Thank you to those who have viewed this so far. I will try to update once a day. :) (This is me from the future, I am going through and correcting mistakes. It does get better and longer. It also doesn't move so ridiculously fast in the future.)