I am afraid to keep on living

(Esther’s pov)

Frank is going to come in two hours. I have to cook something, what would he like? Agh. I should have ask him what food he likes. I walked towards the freezer to see what food I have... well, fuck. I should have gone to the mall, here's nothing but hamburgers and there's no time to go to the mall. Well, I wish he likes hamburgers.

I took the hamburgers and put them on a pan. Mmm... maybe I can put some eggs and bacon on the hamburgers, it would make them taste better. I wish I have that. I searched and... hell yeah! I wish Frank likes this.

I went to the living room. I think I should clean the table. I cleaned the table and went back to the kitchen. I cooked the eggs and the bacon. When everything was ready I put them all together, yeah, the hamburgers are ready.

I put both of them on two plates and brought them to the living room. This looks pathetic. Maybe with a candle it would look better. I put the candle on the middle of the table. Wait... what if he thinks this is girly? Aghh. What should I do?

Suddenly someone knocked at the door. It might be Frank. Okay, the candle stays there. I looked in the mirror, I think I looked great. I walked towards the door and open it. There was Frank, dressed in a black shirt and jeans, smiling.

Without saying hi or anything like that, he ran inside the house saying "OMG Is hamburgers what I'm smelling?" I closed the door and walked to the living room when I discover Frank already sitting there waiting for me to sit with him.

I sat with him and said "Hey, by the way. " "Sorry... hey." He said looking down at the table. "Don't worry, Frank. " I said smiling and he smiled back. "Can I start eating now? " He asked with puppy eyes and I laughed. "Sure. " He bit the hamburger and then he looked at me. "This is fucking delicious." He said.

"By the way, I see you have put here a candle." He said. "Yep." I answered him. "Are you trying to be romantic by putting that candle? Are you thinking this is a date? Are you in love with me?" He suddenly said. How could he ask that? Why does he have to be that direct? But the most important, what the fuck should I answer to thag?

I didn't say anything but I felt that my face flushed. He laughed. "I'll translate that as a yes, to all the questions. I understand you, everybody loves me." He said and laughed again. "Can I ask you another question?" He said. I didn't say anything and he understood that as a yes. "Would you be my girlfriend?" OMG what should I say now?

"Come on, I want you to answer." He said. Come on, Esther, you can. "Yes." I said almost in a whisper but loud enough for him to hear it. "Yay!" He said and continued to eat the hamburger. “Wait, what? I just told you yes and you keep eating your hamburger? Now because of that I confiscate your hamburger.” I said. “No!” He yelled. Then he ran to me and… kissed me. OMFG He just kissed me.

Then like nothing have happened, he said “I want to watch TV.” He turned it on and sat again. On the TV were the news.

“...witnesses says that the girl came running and jumped of the bridge when a man tried to save her but end up falling with her. Both of them survived and the ambulance have already carried them to the closest hospital. The girl is 17 years old and was identified as Cassie White. The man is 24 old and identified as Gerard Way…”

Wait, aren’t them Frank’s friends? I turned back to see him but he wasn’t there. I looked through the window and saw Frank running direction to hospital. I stood up and ran towards the hospital too.

Notes

I'm so sorry, please don't kill me.

By the way, happy new year! :)