Mikey was smiling like an idiot the whole walk to to ray's house. I normally never let mikey go out with me in public because either I didn't want to know I drink and smoke, or I was scared that I'd want to kiss him and others would see.

As we approached rays you could smell the strong stench of weed. "God gee what's that smell?" Mikey asked covering his nose. For being fucked almost nightly he really doesn't know much about the drug and alcohol world.

"Mikey if you smell anyone that smells like what your smelling right now I want you to get the ficus away from them and come find me."

"Wait aren't we going to hang out together?" He asked sounding a little disappointed.

"Yes we will but not the whole time. It's pretty easy to get lost at ray's parties."

"Oh ok, but why should I stay away from people that smell like this?" He asked totally oblivious that he was basically second hand smoking weed.

"Mikey just trust me ok?"
"Ok gee."

We walked into rays And I instantly saw Bert. I wanted mikey to stay away from him because he was the weed supplier and I know he'd try to get mikey to buy some if he could. I tried to walk up to him as casual as possible and tell him to keep mikey away from the drugs.

"Gee who is that?" Mikey asked staring at Bert while I dragged him over with me. "Just stay away from him ok? I just need to tell him something real quick."

mikey nodded and I tapped Bert on the shoulder.
"Hey gerard come to get some-"
"Bert not right now." I said giving him a serious look.
"This is my brother. My younger brother. I don't want him involved in any of...you know what I mean. Ok?"

Bert stared at mikey a moment while mikey tried to hide behind his glasses and bangs. How cute. Damn gee stop it your in public no thinking of mikey like that.

"Uh yea I'll try and keep him away but no promises man."
"Thanks." I said and than began dragging mikey outside to the actual fire.

"Gee there drinking beer!" Mikey exclaimed in a loud whisper to me. He's never been around alcohol and I know for a fact that he'd never dare drink any. For me beer was a different story. When I first started feeling things for mikey when I was 15 and he was 13 I began to drink. It helped me forget my lust for my younger brother even if was only temporary.

"I know mikey. Touch any beer and I'll kill you." I said giving him a serious look.

"You knew there was be beer?" He asked sounding slightly scared that there were drunk older people around him.
"Yes I knew mikey." I said quietly. "Just stay away from the beer an the people who smell and you'll be fine."

After almost an hour I had managed to sneak a few bowls in and two cans of beer. Mikey had eventually found me though in the crowd of people after we had been seperated and made me come sit with him at the fire.

I hoped led I didn't smell to bad or else mikey would question me as to why I did smell. As we were sitting by the fire a random kid name jake I think asked of anyone would play truth or dare and of course everyone said yes.

after 10 minutes it had become a very sexual game of truth or dare and I knew mikey was uncomfortable. He was wrapped in a blanket and had his chair as close to me as possible and he was resting his head on my shoulder.

"Way it's your turn." Jacob called. "truth or dare?"
I thought for a second before my drunken brain decided it would be fun to pick dare.

"I dare you to kiss the kid next to you." Jake said pointing at mikey. I felt mikey stiffen immedietly but he didn't move since he was frozen in schock.

"Dude no way in fuck am I kissing him." I said stumbling over my words a little bit.
"Why not? You chicken?" Jake called back earning a bunch of people to make clicking noises at me.
"no man were related." I fought back.
"Fine then do truth."

"Fine truth." I breathed out.
"How many people have you fucked this year and who was last person you jacked off to." Jake said smirking. He always turned party games into sexual ones. They were normally fun but with mikey here I didn't want to answer.

Mikey removed hos his head from my shoulder and started at me with wide eyes. "Mikey cover your ears." I said knowing it was either answer the truth or do the dare.

He he is as I told him but still watched me intently. I knew he would still listen but I could at least pretend he wouldn't.

"I've fucked 7 people so far since the start of school...and the last person I jacked off to was probably A porn star." I answered. I couldn't think of anyone I had jacked off to besides mikey so I said porn star instead.

Jake seemed satisfied fief with my answer and moved on. I told miky he could uncover his ears now but they way he was staring at me I knew he had listened.

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around 2 am I was sitting in my room on my phone when mikey walked in wearing nothing but sweat pants. "Gee I don't feel good." He said clutching onto his stomach.

The way he was moving I could tell he was somewhat drunk. "Mikey what the hell did you drink at the party?!" I asked urgently.
"I only drank some type of water." He said honestly.
"Mikey was this water in a glass bottle?"
He nooded.

"shit mikey!" I groaned and began dragging him to my bathroom before he puked.
"what did I do?" He asked upset.

"mikey you drank vodka and how you got that mixed up with water I have no fucking idea."
"I'm sorry gerard." He said feeling bad.

right before we had reached the bathroom he threw up all over himself, and began to cry and mumble sorry gees.

"God mikey here let's get you clean." I said sittin him down on the toliet. I grabbed a washcloth and wiped his face for him then wiped off his chest and neck. "Mikey you need to shower." I said grabbing him a towel and turning the shower on. I was about to leave so he could wash but he stopped me.

"Gee I need help." He groaned pointing to his sweatpants. "I can't get them off."

I mumbled god mikey under my breath and removed his sweatpants for him. He sat in just his boxers. "Get showered." I said about to leave for the second time. "Gee I can't do it myself!" He whined. "I need help! Can...can you do it for me?"


"Mikey I'm not going to shower you!" I state back quickly. If I showered him id see him naked, and I haven't seen him naked since he was like twelve. If I saw him naked if get turned on and then I'd want to touch him. I couldn't do that to him. It was wrong and he'd be scared of me for life.

"Gee please! I need you too!" He whined and I noticed he was crying. This was his first time being drunk and I felt bad for him.

"Fine ill shower you but keep your boxers on." I ordered. He just nodded in his state of confusion.

I washed him and when I had finished and put his wear pants back on I just layed him in my bed, since he looked as though he may pass out any second.

I shut hit the lights off and went upstairs to him room. I layed on his bed and tried go to sleep. I was proud of myself for not letting my urges take over and touching him. I went to bed peacefully hoping mikey wouldn't remember the party and puking in the morning.

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