Give Me All Your Poison... Ummm No Thanks
Old Habits
I ran over to my mother who was passed out on the ground, knife in hand.
"Mom!" I screamed to her as I reached her and flipped her on her back.
"F-F-Frank?" She asked almost inaudible while staring at the air above me.
"Mom! Please, stay awake, stay with me!" I yell as the tears once brimming my eyes started to run. i reached into my pocket and dialled 911 and put it on speaker.
The operator went through the usual stuff and I sat there with my mother in my hand, crying over her fragile body.
"Frankie... " she whispered again in her raspy voice as we waited for the ambulance to arrive. "I-I love you."
"I love you too! I love you mom, that's why I need you to stay with me." I said as i heard the ambulance outside.
"I'm sorry. I-I'm sorry...." She said as her eyes shut and the knife slipped from her fingers and clanged into the hardwood floor.
"No, please, no! MOM!!! STAY WITH ME!!! I NEED YOU! PLEASE!" I scream to her. She might have treated me like shit, but I loved her.
The paramedics took her from me and put her on the stretcher.
"PLEASE MOM!!!" I said as the paramedic got into the ambulance with her. I jumped in with them.
"Oh God." He said as he ran to get the defibrillator.
"She has no pulse." He said as he looked at the other paramedic.
"OH GOD!" I said as they told me to stand back. i slumped my head into my hands as I sat with my knees to my chest.
As we reached the hospital and they rushed her into the emergency room after trying to revive her once in the hospital.
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"Frank Iero?" A doctor called from in front of the doors he just came from.
"Yes?" I asked as I got up from the chair I had been sitting on for the past hour as I sobbed quietly an walked to the doctor.
"We would regret to inform you that your mother passed away at 9:07. We did all we could, but she lost to much blood and her heart stopped. I am truly sorry." The doctor informed me as I held in more long due tears. He patted me on the back.
"Th-thank you. I know you tried all you could." I said as I walked away.
"I'm sorry." He said as I walked out of the hospital.
"FUCK!" I said as I sobbed loudly, earning me more then a few stares.
I decided to call Midnight. She was the only person I had left besides Gerard, who wouldn't be good with this situation.
"Hello?" I heard her answer.
"Midnight. I need you." I stated pathetically into the phone.
"Who's that?" I heard a male voice say in the back.
"Sh!" She said. "Okay, when will you be over?"
"In about five minutes." I said as I rounded onto our block.
"Okay, babe, I'll see you then. Love you." She said as I heard snickering in the background. Who the fuck is that?!
"Love you too." I said, ignoring the person I heard in the background since I was to upset to care anymore.
I jogged down the block since I wanted to grab something from my house before I went to Midnight's house.
What helps depression more then booze right?
I knocked on the door as I hid the beer, vodka, and whiskey in my backpack I had on my back.
"Hello? Frankie?" Mrs. Summers asked as she opened the door to me.
"Hi. May I go and see Midnight. I need her." I said, remembering I just stopped sobbing so loud I probably woke up every house I passed.
"Sure, but are you okay?" She asked as I headed towards the stairs.
"I need someone. My mom just died." I said as I held the tears until I noticed Mr. Summers wasn't in the room. I let a year drift down my cheek.
"I'm so sorry, Frankie." She said as she hugged me tightly. "Midnight's upstairs with one of her friends. I hope you feel better." She added as she kissed my cheek.
"Thank you." I said as I jogged up the stairs.
I opened the door to Midnight sitting on her bed with someone sitting by her desk. I stopped my tears quickly.
"Oh Frank, what wrong?!" She asked as she jumped from her place and ran to me before engulfing me in a huge hug.
"My mom just... She just died." I said as as I looked up the boy who was sitting there disappeared.
"Oh my God, I'm so so sorry baby." She said kissing me on the lips before breaking the kiss all to quickly and guiding me to sit on her bed with her.
"I brought booze to drown my sorrows in. That's all I need. Your gorgeous face and beer." i said as I opened my backpack and grabbed out a beer and opened it.
"Babe, is that such a good idea?" She asked as she lowered the drink from my lips.
"Yeah." I said as I took the biggest swig I could.
"Well, if that's how you deal with it. I guess it's better then coke or marijuana." She said as she stole one from my back pack.
I took it from her hands as she opened it. "No! Your only 18!" As I drank out of both.
"So?" She asked as she tried to grab it back.
"I'm 19. At least I'm legal to drink in Canada." I said as I raised the beer high above my head so it was just out of her reach. "Plus, if I get drunk you need to correct my behaviour. "
"Okay, but your no fun. Smart, but no fun!" She said as she sat on her bed and patted the space next to her so I would sit next to her.
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After 4 movies and 2 hours of YouTube it was about 3 and I had finished 7 beers, 3 bottles of vodka, and 2 of whiskey and I was now on my 3rd.
"Hun, I think that's good." She said.
"Hun? That's a new word." I said, knowing I was completely waisted.
"I know." She said as she took my bottle.
"You know I never noticed this freckle." I said as I poked the little freckle on her forehead.
"Oh really?" She giggled.
"Or that one, or that one, or that one." I said as I poked out the freckles on her face.
"Well, they are there." She said as she lowered my hand.
"Have you ever died your hair?" I asked, fluffing her purple hair.
"Yes dummy! Jeez, your a stupid drunk!" She said laughing.
"Sorry. I mean your mom could have really like skittles, but only the purple kind and she could have bought the whole company and ate ALLLLLLLLLL the purple ones as wanted your hair to be purple." I said as I stumbled around her room flailing my hands in weird motions to emphasize my points.
"Okay Frank, I think it's time for bed." She said as she pulled the covers over me.
"Why's it so cold?" I asked fake shivering.
"Oh, I don't know." She said as she laid down beside me.
"Can you sing?" I asked.
"Not good, but I can. "
"Can you sing to me?" I asked stupidly stumbling over my words. "Mom used to sing me to sleep when I was little. "
"Okay, how about... "Dormi-Dormi-Dormi"? " she asked.
"I like the word Dormi, but can you translate everything else?" I request stupidly.
"Sure." She said.
"Dormi, Dormi, Dormi, good night and sleep well, my love.
Dormi, Dormi, Dormi, angels are watching above.
Til' the dawn on tiptoe steals over your window sill.
May every bright star attend thee.
And befriend thee with its light.
This little song may I send thee.
Dormi, Dormi, Dormi, my love, good-night."
I fell asleep as she finished. I hated getting drunk in front of her but I thought it would be better then crying.
I love Midnight and I know that will never change.
Im im just scared of what lies ahead. Who will have to plan moms funeral? Me? I'm her only relative alive so I guess I would be getting all the money and possession and doing her funeral and memorial.
I'm just glad that she was rich before she died or else I wouldn't be able to afford a good service.
I'm gonna miss her.
"Mom!" I screamed to her as I reached her and flipped her on her back.
"F-F-Frank?" She asked almost inaudible while staring at the air above me.
"Mom! Please, stay awake, stay with me!" I yell as the tears once brimming my eyes started to run. i reached into my pocket and dialled 911 and put it on speaker.
The operator went through the usual stuff and I sat there with my mother in my hand, crying over her fragile body.
"Frankie... " she whispered again in her raspy voice as we waited for the ambulance to arrive. "I-I love you."
"I love you too! I love you mom, that's why I need you to stay with me." I said as i heard the ambulance outside.
"I'm sorry. I-I'm sorry...." She said as her eyes shut and the knife slipped from her fingers and clanged into the hardwood floor.
"No, please, no! MOM!!! STAY WITH ME!!! I NEED YOU! PLEASE!" I scream to her. She might have treated me like shit, but I loved her.
The paramedics took her from me and put her on the stretcher.
"PLEASE MOM!!!" I said as the paramedic got into the ambulance with her. I jumped in with them.
"Oh God." He said as he ran to get the defibrillator.
"She has no pulse." He said as he looked at the other paramedic.
"OH GOD!" I said as they told me to stand back. i slumped my head into my hands as I sat with my knees to my chest.
As we reached the hospital and they rushed her into the emergency room after trying to revive her once in the hospital.
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"Frank Iero?" A doctor called from in front of the doors he just came from.
"Yes?" I asked as I got up from the chair I had been sitting on for the past hour as I sobbed quietly an walked to the doctor.
"We would regret to inform you that your mother passed away at 9:07. We did all we could, but she lost to much blood and her heart stopped. I am truly sorry." The doctor informed me as I held in more long due tears. He patted me on the back.
"Th-thank you. I know you tried all you could." I said as I walked away.
"I'm sorry." He said as I walked out of the hospital.
"FUCK!" I said as I sobbed loudly, earning me more then a few stares.
I decided to call Midnight. She was the only person I had left besides Gerard, who wouldn't be good with this situation.
"Hello?" I heard her answer.
"Midnight. I need you." I stated pathetically into the phone.
"Who's that?" I heard a male voice say in the back.
"Sh!" She said. "Okay, when will you be over?"
"In about five minutes." I said as I rounded onto our block.
"Okay, babe, I'll see you then. Love you." She said as I heard snickering in the background. Who the fuck is that?!
"Love you too." I said, ignoring the person I heard in the background since I was to upset to care anymore.
I jogged down the block since I wanted to grab something from my house before I went to Midnight's house.
What helps depression more then booze right?
I knocked on the door as I hid the beer, vodka, and whiskey in my backpack I had on my back.
"Hello? Frankie?" Mrs. Summers asked as she opened the door to me.
"Hi. May I go and see Midnight. I need her." I said, remembering I just stopped sobbing so loud I probably woke up every house I passed.
"Sure, but are you okay?" She asked as I headed towards the stairs.
"I need someone. My mom just died." I said as I held the tears until I noticed Mr. Summers wasn't in the room. I let a year drift down my cheek.
"I'm so sorry, Frankie." She said as she hugged me tightly. "Midnight's upstairs with one of her friends. I hope you feel better." She added as she kissed my cheek.
"Thank you." I said as I jogged up the stairs.
I opened the door to Midnight sitting on her bed with someone sitting by her desk. I stopped my tears quickly.
"Oh Frank, what wrong?!" She asked as she jumped from her place and ran to me before engulfing me in a huge hug.
"My mom just... She just died." I said as as I looked up the boy who was sitting there disappeared.
"Oh my God, I'm so so sorry baby." She said kissing me on the lips before breaking the kiss all to quickly and guiding me to sit on her bed with her.
"I brought booze to drown my sorrows in. That's all I need. Your gorgeous face and beer." i said as I opened my backpack and grabbed out a beer and opened it.
"Babe, is that such a good idea?" She asked as she lowered the drink from my lips.
"Yeah." I said as I took the biggest swig I could.
"Well, if that's how you deal with it. I guess it's better then coke or marijuana." She said as she stole one from my back pack.
I took it from her hands as she opened it. "No! Your only 18!" As I drank out of both.
"So?" She asked as she tried to grab it back.
"I'm 19. At least I'm legal to drink in Canada." I said as I raised the beer high above my head so it was just out of her reach. "Plus, if I get drunk you need to correct my behaviour. "
"Okay, but your no fun. Smart, but no fun!" She said as she sat on her bed and patted the space next to her so I would sit next to her.
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After 4 movies and 2 hours of YouTube it was about 3 and I had finished 7 beers, 3 bottles of vodka, and 2 of whiskey and I was now on my 3rd.
"Hun, I think that's good." She said.
"Hun? That's a new word." I said, knowing I was completely waisted.
"I know." She said as she took my bottle.
"You know I never noticed this freckle." I said as I poked the little freckle on her forehead.
"Oh really?" She giggled.
"Or that one, or that one, or that one." I said as I poked out the freckles on her face.
"Well, they are there." She said as she lowered my hand.
"Have you ever died your hair?" I asked, fluffing her purple hair.
"Yes dummy! Jeez, your a stupid drunk!" She said laughing.
"Sorry. I mean your mom could have really like skittles, but only the purple kind and she could have bought the whole company and ate ALLLLLLLLLL the purple ones as wanted your hair to be purple." I said as I stumbled around her room flailing my hands in weird motions to emphasize my points.
"Okay Frank, I think it's time for bed." She said as she pulled the covers over me.
"Why's it so cold?" I asked fake shivering.
"Oh, I don't know." She said as she laid down beside me.
"Can you sing?" I asked.
"Not good, but I can. "
"Can you sing to me?" I asked stupidly stumbling over my words. "Mom used to sing me to sleep when I was little. "
"Okay, how about... "Dormi-Dormi-Dormi"? " she asked.
"I like the word Dormi, but can you translate everything else?" I request stupidly.
"Sure." She said.
"Dormi, Dormi, Dormi, good night and sleep well, my love.
Dormi, Dormi, Dormi, angels are watching above.
Til' the dawn on tiptoe steals over your window sill.
May every bright star attend thee.
And befriend thee with its light.
This little song may I send thee.
Dormi, Dormi, Dormi, my love, good-night."
I fell asleep as she finished. I hated getting drunk in front of her but I thought it would be better then crying.
I love Midnight and I know that will never change.
Im im just scared of what lies ahead. Who will have to plan moms funeral? Me? I'm her only relative alive so I guess I would be getting all the money and possession and doing her funeral and memorial.
I'm just glad that she was rich before she died or else I wouldn't be able to afford a good service.
I'm gonna miss her.
Notes
My poor Frankie.I can't believe I just did that.
Thanks for reading, love you all!!!!
~Anonymous
@xxstraightjacketxx
I'm sorry!!! Don't worry, I used to eat practically all divar when I was younger and I made it to 19 so far, so yeah!!! Haha, I hope you enjoy this update.
1/15/14