The Only Hope For Me Is You

(Jess’s P.O.V)

What did I do wrong? What did do to have him to have never loved me? I AM SO FUCKING GULIBLE! I knew no one would or could love me. I just couldn’t stop myself from crying.
“Did you ever love me?” my voice was quiet and full of hurt.
“No.” He says looking at the ground.
“O...ok…okay.” That’s all I say before running out crying.
I get outside and it’s raining. Really! I run to my tour bus and got to the bedroom. I open the night stand and pull out a razor blade. Haven’t seen you in a while. I sit at the foot of the bed and gently slide the cold metal to my wrist. Beads if blood form as I make 5 more cuts to each wrist. I gasp in pain but the relief feels so good. I know I deserve this….all this pain. I hear the door open and close. Ray comes in the room and looks at me with sad eyes. He quickly grabbed a first aid kit from my bathroom.
“Why did you do this Jess?” he said in a soft kind voice with a concern.
“He…I…just…just want to die.” I say started to cry again.

(Ray’s P.O.V)

Gerard, Mikey, Bob and I were standing outside drinking coffee and talking, standing under awning away from the rain. All of a sudden Jess runs out of the venue and goes to her bus and slams the door. We all look at each other wondering what just happened.
“Maybe I should go see what’s wrong.” Gerard said.
“No she won’t talk to either of us.” Mikey said sipping his coffee.
“I’ll go talk to her.” I say walking to her bus.
I walk inside and head towards the bedroom. As I enter the bedroom Jess is crying at the end of the bed with blood flowing from her wrists. I never knew Jess cut before. I run to the bathroom and grab a first aid kit. I open it and start to wrap both her wrists.
“Why did you do this Jess?” I say trying to stay calm.
“He…I…just…just want to die.” She stutters.
I don’t know how but I know who and what she is talking about. I quickly pull her into a hug and let her cry into my chest. She grips my shirt and I can feel my shirt getting moist with warm tears. I don’t care though I just need to comfort her, she is like my little sister. No she is my sister, I stroke her head and rub her back. I rest my head on hers and say “shh” and “it’s okay” but I know it’s not helping. After sitting there for about 2 hours she falls asleep in my arms. I gently set her in her bed and cover her up with her Adventure Time blanket. I walk outside and walk to the boys’ bus. How could Frank do that to her? I have to keep this a secret, but what will I tell Gerard and Mikey? Well I can worry about that tomorrow, all I know is I am going to bed. I walk inside and notice all of the guys are asleep, I get to my bunk and quickly fall asleep.

Notes

ok so there is a little bit of self harm in this, I'm sorry about that. Well I hope you enjoy the story, thank you. =)
-toxicfuture