(Jess’s P.O.V)
*Two Days Later*

I slowly open my eyes to a very bright white room, with beeping noises all around me. It smells so clean, I hate the smell of hospital. The hospital is a place where it brings life and death. I look around and see all of the boys, they all look like they have been crying. I look down to see I am in a hospital gown and an I.V in my arm.
“What happen?” I ask the boys but my voice is croaky. How long have I been out?
“Gee?” I ask a little louder and his head snaps up and he looks at me. He rushes over to the bed and hugs me so tightly. The rest of boys come over and hug me as well, including Frank. They all start cry all over again. I look at all of them with a confused look, what the hell is wrong with them.
“What’s wrong?” I ask looking at them.
“Jessica please never do that again.” Gerard said hugging me once more.
“Why do you care?” I ask very harshly. I just wanted to die and he ruined that for me.
“Jess I have and always will care about you. Never think that I don’t.” He says tears falling down my big brothers face.
“You’re the one that told me to do it.” I said in such a quiet voice.
“I never meant it one bit.” He says holding onto my shoulders.
“I meant all of it.” I said so coldly, but it was true I wanted to die I still do.
“You don’t mean that. Do you?” He asked his voice so small with tears streaming down his face.
“Every bit of it.” I say while looking directly at him.
I get up from the bed and see some of my clothes and a bag that the boys must have brought me, in a chair next to my bed. I pull some black skinny jeans on and the boys look at me confused as I continue to get dressed. I pull the I.V out of my arm which makes Gerard cringe, I put on an Adventure Time sweater, and put on fuzzy socks and pull my combat boots on. I walk into the bathroom and open the bag and pull out my tooth brush and tooth paste. I brush my teeth and my hair, I put a beanie on and put my bracelets on. I step out of the bathroom walking straight to the door to leave this place. Mikey grabs my arm and I wince at the pain the travels up my arm by his touch.
“Jess you can’t leave.” Mikey says to me.
“Yes I can, and I ‘am.” He just looks at me with hurt eyes.
“Jess please just stay until the doctor comes and checks on you.” Frank says as he walks up to me. I still love Frank so I go and sit back on the bed.
“Can you guys leave for a minute so Mikey and I can talk to her?” Gerard asks the boys.
“Yeah sure, common guys.” Ray says as he, Bob, and Frank leave the room and shut the door. Gerard and Mikey walk over to the bed and sit down and look at me.
“Jess why didn’t you tell us?” Gerard asks kind of hurt.
“I didn’t want you to worry and it was none of your business.” I say looking at my phone. I am not in the mood to really talk about it.
“Jessica I care about we both do, were your big brothers we are oppose to protect you fromthings like this.” Gerard says looking at me.
“I am 19 it’s not your job to watch after me. And honestly who or what are you protecting me from? Myself?” I say looking at my two and only siblings.
“I was dating Frank.” I say bluntly. Mikey and Gerard look at me I just look back.
“What do you mean ‘was’?” Mikey asked me.
“He broke up with me a while ago.” I say tears pinching the back of my eyes.
“Gerard you need to tell her.” Mikey says looking at the ground in a disappointed way.
“Tell me what?” I say looking at Gerard.
“Jess I don’t think now is a good time to tell you.” He says calmly but it looks like he is about to cry.
“Really Gerard? Honestly you told me to die, you can’t possibly can tell me much worse.” I say which was mean but true.
“Gerard she deserves to know.” Mikey says looking at him.
“Jessica I-I don’t think now-. “ I cut him off.
“NO GERARD JUST TELL ME!” I say clenching my fists.
“I made Frank brake up with you…..” Gerard says in a whisper but loud enough for me to hear him.
I start crying and now was the time when I wanted and needed to cut the most. Right now I crave the feeling the sharp little object gives. I stand up and look at Gerard one more time before running out of that damned hospital room. Ray and Bob try to stop me but I get out of their grip and run outside of the hospital. It’s really gloomy and it looks like it’s gonna rain, I run down the street, I know my way around the town I mean its New Jersey my home. I run down to this park that I used to go to as a kid, nobody is there since it’s going to rain soon. I sit down on a bench and just cry. Why? Why couldn’t I just have died? I am tired of being lied to. I need someone, no I need him.

Notes

well here you go my lovely viewers hope you enjoy =)
-toxicfuture