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“We find Mr. Frank Anthony Iero Senior not guilty.”
Those words cut through me like a knife. Not guilty. They don’t think he needs to be locked up after what he did to me? I sat there speechless, while I felt my mom and gee both wrap an arm around me and pull us all into a hug. I felt the tears begin to flow down my cheeks. I honestly felt like I was about to die He’s not guilty, he’s free, he can hurt me.
“The custody of Franklin Iero junior since he is a minor will be decided by the court tonight. We will notify you once the jury has made a decision.”
If he gains any amount of custody I know what will happen. Im done for if I have to live with him. Bye bye gee and mom cause if he rapes me one more time I’m gone. I’m done I’m leaving this world, and he’s not gonna stop me.
I already know I’m going to cut tonight I can feel it. I need to cut I’ve been holding off too long for nothing. Absolutely nothing. I tried to stop for gee and my mom since they said id be safe now, but I don’t feel safe anymore. He’s a free man who can get his hands on me and abuse and rape me.
“The custody of Franklin Iero junior has been decided. The custody will be a 75% split. Weekdays with Mrs. Iero. Weekends with Mr. Iero”
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing this was complete and utter bull shit. I wasn’t about to be polite about it either. “You can’t do that to me!” I screamed standing up. Gee and my mom both tried to sit me back down but I wasn’t about to go down without a fight. “HE FUCKING RAPED ME! ARE YOU BEING SERIOUS? IF I HAVE TO LIVE WITH HIM AT ALL HE’S JUST GONNA DO IT AGAIN! PLEASE DON’T DO THIS TO ME YOU CAN’T!”
“Mr. Iero junior this is a court house you do not act out against the jury’s decision it is final.”
“Ya know what I’m fucking final.” I yelled out and then stormed out of the court house. I walked until I found a bridge. I was ending this right here right now.
I didn’t need this anymore I was done with everything around me.
“Frank stop!”
I turned to see Gerard walking slowly toward me looking terrified. “frank don’t do it.”
“why?”
“frank I know what the court did was stupid but ending your life isn’t going to fix anything.”
“Gerard it will fix everything. I can’t stand being raped every weekend until I’m eighteen. I know you wouldn’t know this but being raped hurts and I can’t take that pain anymore. I live everyday wanting to die. I tell myself things will get better but they never do! I’m already being abused by that fucking kid at school, and I don’t want to relive it with my dad on the weekends! Gerard I’m scared and this is the only solution.”
“frank I love you. If you jump off that bridge I’m going down with you. Either you jump and we both die or you live and we fight this together. I know you’re scared but if you end it now frank then you’re going to die being scared. Listen to me frank its not worth it.”
“Gerard if I jump you will not follow me-“
“then don’t jump.”
Those words cut through me like a knife. Not guilty. They don’t think he needs to be locked up after what he did to me? I sat there speechless, while I felt my mom and gee both wrap an arm around me and pull us all into a hug. I felt the tears begin to flow down my cheeks. I honestly felt like I was about to die He’s not guilty, he’s free, he can hurt me.
“The custody of Franklin Iero junior since he is a minor will be decided by the court tonight. We will notify you once the jury has made a decision.”
If he gains any amount of custody I know what will happen. Im done for if I have to live with him. Bye bye gee and mom cause if he rapes me one more time I’m gone. I’m done I’m leaving this world, and he’s not gonna stop me.
I already know I’m going to cut tonight I can feel it. I need to cut I’ve been holding off too long for nothing. Absolutely nothing. I tried to stop for gee and my mom since they said id be safe now, but I don’t feel safe anymore. He’s a free man who can get his hands on me and abuse and rape me.
“The custody of Franklin Iero junior has been decided. The custody will be a 75% split. Weekdays with Mrs. Iero. Weekends with Mr. Iero”
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing this was complete and utter bull shit. I wasn’t about to be polite about it either. “You can’t do that to me!” I screamed standing up. Gee and my mom both tried to sit me back down but I wasn’t about to go down without a fight. “HE FUCKING RAPED ME! ARE YOU BEING SERIOUS? IF I HAVE TO LIVE WITH HIM AT ALL HE’S JUST GONNA DO IT AGAIN! PLEASE DON’T DO THIS TO ME YOU CAN’T!”
“Mr. Iero junior this is a court house you do not act out against the jury’s decision it is final.”
“Ya know what I’m fucking final.” I yelled out and then stormed out of the court house. I walked until I found a bridge. I was ending this right here right now.
I didn’t need this anymore I was done with everything around me.
“Frank stop!”
I turned to see Gerard walking slowly toward me looking terrified. “frank don’t do it.”
“why?”
“frank I know what the court did was stupid but ending your life isn’t going to fix anything.”
“Gerard it will fix everything. I can’t stand being raped every weekend until I’m eighteen. I know you wouldn’t know this but being raped hurts and I can’t take that pain anymore. I live everyday wanting to die. I tell myself things will get better but they never do! I’m already being abused by that fucking kid at school, and I don’t want to relive it with my dad on the weekends! Gerard I’m scared and this is the only solution.”
“frank I love you. If you jump off that bridge I’m going down with you. Either you jump and we both die or you live and we fight this together. I know you’re scared but if you end it now frank then you’re going to die being scared. Listen to me frank its not worth it.”
“Gerard if I jump you will not follow me-“
“then don’t jump.”
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