New life same thoughts
Scream
"Oh my fucking god of course he's going to our school. Just what we need another faggot." Gerard said
im not gonna lie it hurt when he said that. I'm bi and yet I always get made of no matter what. I don't see the big deal I like dick too so what? It's not the end of the world.
even though I was hurt by what he said I responded with no hurt in my tone "you can kindly fuck off now."
"Oh look he's trying to stick up for himself" gerard said in a mocking tone.
I decided to leave before he could get to me even more. I walked out of my room but before I left I gave gerard and mikey the finger. I walked down the stairs and tried to leave through the back but my mom saw me. "Frank where do you think your going." She said kindly since she was still in the presence of mr. & mrs. Way.
"Out." and I left before she could stop me.
I kept walking and since I had no fucking idea where anything was I felt pretty lost. Eventually I ended up on what must be the Main Street in Belleville since it had a lot of little stores and the school. Of cousre my house had to be less than five minutes away from the school.
As as I was walking down the street a sign on one of the stores caught my eye. 'Bellevile theraputic offices doctor. Dean & dr. Ryan.'
Shit. This was my new therapy office. And doctor Ryan was my therapist. Why did it have to be so close to the school. There's now way that I could go there after school everyday without someone noticing me.
Id id be an even bigger freak if people new I was going to therapy.
Suddenly someone grabbed my shoulder and covered my eyes. I screamed as loud as I could. I was honestly terrified. I already have social anexity and being mugged wasn't going to help me in any way.
Then I heard it. I heard laughing. The arm covering my eyes was removed and when I turned I saw gerard doubled over in laughter and mikey awkwardly standing behind him looking like he felt bad that gerard had just done that to me.
"Oh my god." Gerard breathed out between laughs "you screamed like were going to be raped or something."
Raped. Rape. Sexually being assaulted. That happened to me before. That's one of the many reasons I'm the way I am. When gerard made the statement that I screamed like I was going to raped and then laughed it made me feel bad because he was attacking me personally.
I felt the the tears welling up in my eyes as I remembered the many horrific nights that occurred when I was younger. "you fucking asshole that not funny." I said trying to hold the tears back.
"Awwww look mikey he's gonna cry. What's wrong emo? Someone not like being scared. "
"gee back off he seriously looks freaked out." Mikey cut in.
"Shut up mikey." He snapped back at his brother.
"come on let's go home. Our parents made us come find you, since you just decided to leave. I don't see why we had to find you it's not like bellevilles that big, but your mom was freaking out for some reason."
I knew new my mom was worried that I'd go and do something stupid, and by stupid I mean that she was worried that I'd kill myself.
Yea im suicidal but I'm not just going to leave and kill myself. I've been doing better lately though. My mom doesn't know about my cutting and I intend to keep it that way. I don't want anyone to know about my cutting and unless someone sees me without my clothes on no one is going to know.
"Well are you coming or not faggot?"
Gerard's voice snapped me out of my thoughts. "Yes I'm coming you douche." I sneered back.
"what did you call me?!"
"Well you called me a faggot which technically I am, so I called you a douche since that's what you are." I smirked at my comeback, which I thought was pretty good, but apparently geard didn't think so because the next thing I knew his fist collided with my face.
"Fuck!" I gasped clutching the side of my face where his fist hit me.
"That should shut you up now let's get back home."
"I can find my own way home without you!" I snapped and ran off without them.
im not gonna lie it hurt when he said that. I'm bi and yet I always get made of no matter what. I don't see the big deal I like dick too so what? It's not the end of the world.
even though I was hurt by what he said I responded with no hurt in my tone "you can kindly fuck off now."
"Oh look he's trying to stick up for himself" gerard said in a mocking tone.
I decided to leave before he could get to me even more. I walked out of my room but before I left I gave gerard and mikey the finger. I walked down the stairs and tried to leave through the back but my mom saw me. "Frank where do you think your going." She said kindly since she was still in the presence of mr. & mrs. Way.
"Out." and I left before she could stop me.
I kept walking and since I had no fucking idea where anything was I felt pretty lost. Eventually I ended up on what must be the Main Street in Belleville since it had a lot of little stores and the school. Of cousre my house had to be less than five minutes away from the school.
As as I was walking down the street a sign on one of the stores caught my eye. 'Bellevile theraputic offices doctor. Dean & dr. Ryan.'
Shit. This was my new therapy office. And doctor Ryan was my therapist. Why did it have to be so close to the school. There's now way that I could go there after school everyday without someone noticing me.
Id id be an even bigger freak if people new I was going to therapy.
Suddenly someone grabbed my shoulder and covered my eyes. I screamed as loud as I could. I was honestly terrified. I already have social anexity and being mugged wasn't going to help me in any way.
Then I heard it. I heard laughing. The arm covering my eyes was removed and when I turned I saw gerard doubled over in laughter and mikey awkwardly standing behind him looking like he felt bad that gerard had just done that to me.
"Oh my god." Gerard breathed out between laughs "you screamed like were going to be raped or something."
Raped. Rape. Sexually being assaulted. That happened to me before. That's one of the many reasons I'm the way I am. When gerard made the statement that I screamed like I was going to raped and then laughed it made me feel bad because he was attacking me personally.
I felt the the tears welling up in my eyes as I remembered the many horrific nights that occurred when I was younger. "you fucking asshole that not funny." I said trying to hold the tears back.
"Awwww look mikey he's gonna cry. What's wrong emo? Someone not like being scared. "
"gee back off he seriously looks freaked out." Mikey cut in.
"Shut up mikey." He snapped back at his brother.
"come on let's go home. Our parents made us come find you, since you just decided to leave. I don't see why we had to find you it's not like bellevilles that big, but your mom was freaking out for some reason."
I knew new my mom was worried that I'd go and do something stupid, and by stupid I mean that she was worried that I'd kill myself.
Yea im suicidal but I'm not just going to leave and kill myself. I've been doing better lately though. My mom doesn't know about my cutting and I intend to keep it that way. I don't want anyone to know about my cutting and unless someone sees me without my clothes on no one is going to know.
"Well are you coming or not faggot?"
Gerard's voice snapped me out of my thoughts. "Yes I'm coming you douche." I sneered back.
"what did you call me?!"
"Well you called me a faggot which technically I am, so I called you a douche since that's what you are." I smirked at my comeback, which I thought was pretty good, but apparently geard didn't think so because the next thing I knew his fist collided with my face.
"Fuck!" I gasped clutching the side of my face where his fist hit me.
"That should shut you up now let's get back home."
"I can find my own way home without you!" I snapped and ran off without them.
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