New life same thoughts
Understand this!
I stood there frozen in place. I couldn't kiss back. I didn't want him kissing me in the first place. He pulled back and looked at me with fear in his eyes as he realized what he had just done.
He backed away from me and being the coward he was ran. He left.
He kissed me after I showed him my scars and he just fucking runs.
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the next day at school I avoid not just gerard but everyone. I keep my head down and my hood up as I walk from class to class. I was being so paranoid that gerard was going to tell people we kissed but when I thought about it and his reputation as a homophobic cunt, I decided that he probably wouldn't tell anyone.
being in almost every class with him made my day about ten times worse. He didn't speak to me and I didn't look at him, but I could feel him watching me throughout most of the day.
he was probably paranoid that I'd tell someone he'd kissed me. If I had one friend besides Alex who lived almost four hours away from me now then I probably would've told them but it's just me and my mind now.
During my last class of the day which was calculus I was just sitting in the back working on the problems assigned and enjoying that I didn't have Gerard in this class when my teacher calls my name.
I look to the front of the room and see the devil himself standing next to my calc teacher. "Mr.Iero please go with Gerard. Your science teacher needs to borrow you for a moment." He said dully and shooing gem out of the room withGerard no questions asked.
Maas soon as we were out the door I tried to run but a firm grasp on my wrist stopped me. "Gerard let me go!" I snapped.
"No we need to talk!" He said sounding pissed off.
"No we don't!"
"yes we do now SHUT THE FUCK UP!" He yelled in my face causing me to cower away from him.
he dragged me into the empty gym and pulled me under the bleachers on the far side of the gym.
"did you tell anyone?" Was his first question.
"Who the fuck would I tell?" I shot back.
"Frank I'm being serious! You didn't tell any friends or anything?"
I began feeling weak but was still pissed off. "If I had friends I wouldn't tell them anyway......bastard" I said mumbling the last part.
"What?" He said and he seemed taken aback but I wasn't sure why.
"No Gerard I didn't tell anyone." I repeated.
"Why'd you say you didn't have any friends?" He asked.
I wasn't expecting that to come out of his mouth but it did and I was kind if surprised that he even payed attention to what I had been saying.
"Because i don't." I answered bluntly.
"Why cause your a faggot?" He said with his normal dick personality coming back. I hated it because it was just a front he used to cover something else inside but I wasn't sure what he was covering yet.
"YOU KISSED ME GERARD!"
he he slapped his hand over my mouth and shushed me.
"keep it down!"
"Well you did!" I fought back angrily.
"God...I know I'm sorry it just I don't understand...."
"understand what?" I asked awkwardly
"can you show me them again....the cuts...."
"No."
"Why not?" He retorted
"why should I?" I shot back just as fast.
"Frank just show me....I'm really confused so just help me understand."
I thought for a moment before letting a bitchy comeback out. "No your just a fucking prick. I'm not going to give you the privilege of seeing what you've done to me. So understand this faggot!" I yelled and flipped him off walking out of the gym.
He backed away from me and being the coward he was ran. He left.
He kissed me after I showed him my scars and he just fucking runs.
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the next day at school I avoid not just gerard but everyone. I keep my head down and my hood up as I walk from class to class. I was being so paranoid that gerard was going to tell people we kissed but when I thought about it and his reputation as a homophobic cunt, I decided that he probably wouldn't tell anyone.
being in almost every class with him made my day about ten times worse. He didn't speak to me and I didn't look at him, but I could feel him watching me throughout most of the day.
he was probably paranoid that I'd tell someone he'd kissed me. If I had one friend besides Alex who lived almost four hours away from me now then I probably would've told them but it's just me and my mind now.
During my last class of the day which was calculus I was just sitting in the back working on the problems assigned and enjoying that I didn't have Gerard in this class when my teacher calls my name.
I look to the front of the room and see the devil himself standing next to my calc teacher. "Mr.Iero please go with Gerard. Your science teacher needs to borrow you for a moment." He said dully and shooing gem out of the room withGerard no questions asked.
Maas soon as we were out the door I tried to run but a firm grasp on my wrist stopped me. "Gerard let me go!" I snapped.
"No we need to talk!" He said sounding pissed off.
"No we don't!"
"yes we do now SHUT THE FUCK UP!" He yelled in my face causing me to cower away from him.
he dragged me into the empty gym and pulled me under the bleachers on the far side of the gym.
"did you tell anyone?" Was his first question.
"Who the fuck would I tell?" I shot back.
"Frank I'm being serious! You didn't tell any friends or anything?"
I began feeling weak but was still pissed off. "If I had friends I wouldn't tell them anyway......bastard" I said mumbling the last part.
"What?" He said and he seemed taken aback but I wasn't sure why.
"No Gerard I didn't tell anyone." I repeated.
"Why'd you say you didn't have any friends?" He asked.
I wasn't expecting that to come out of his mouth but it did and I was kind if surprised that he even payed attention to what I had been saying.
"Because i don't." I answered bluntly.
"Why cause your a faggot?" He said with his normal dick personality coming back. I hated it because it was just a front he used to cover something else inside but I wasn't sure what he was covering yet.
"YOU KISSED ME GERARD!"
he he slapped his hand over my mouth and shushed me.
"keep it down!"
"Well you did!" I fought back angrily.
"God...I know I'm sorry it just I don't understand...."
"understand what?" I asked awkwardly
"can you show me them again....the cuts...."
"No."
"Why not?" He retorted
"why should I?" I shot back just as fast.
"Frank just show me....I'm really confused so just help me understand."
I thought for a moment before letting a bitchy comeback out. "No your just a fucking prick. I'm not going to give you the privilege of seeing what you've done to me. So understand this faggot!" I yelled and flipped him off walking out of the gym.
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