Fight for it
3
I basically just laid on my bed for an hour until I was motivated enough to move. I didn't feel like eating even though I didnt eat lunch, but I wanted to do something.
I walked over to my nightstand and pulled out a pack of cigarets and lit one up. As I sat smoking I grabbed my laptop and went on Facebook out of pure boredom.
I saw I had 5 notifactions. Four were from the guys all just messaging me and seeing how I was doing, but the fifth notifaction was a friend request from gerard.
I clicked on his name and creeped on his account. He didn't really post much and only had three photos on his page. They were all of paintings I think, and then one photo of him that was his profile picture. He obviously hadn't updated his page in a while since in the photo of him he had long black hair. Now I recognized him from last year.
he was normally alone, but I always remembered his hair because he was probably the only other kid in our school that had hair as long as mine beside ray.
Weird that I didn't recognize him this year though.
I decided to accept his friend request since my page was private, and I wanted him to see all the photos of me and Ryan so he could see how happy I was with him and he'd leave me alone.
About five minutes after I accepted his request my computer beeped and I saw I had a message from him in my chat box.
Text me ;)
-no
why not:(
-I don't want you to have my number
why not?:/
-because I have a fucking boyfriend and you'll probably just fucking hit on me and send me pics of you I don't want!
you know I have some class. I wouldn't send you a photo of my dick unless you wanted me to;)
-god! Just stop I have a boyfriend!
and? I mean it's not like your happy with him anyway
-excuse me!
Well it's true your never smiling or anything around him, and you guys only talk to each other when in your in your little group . Just saying
-fuck you
then I shut my computer off. How dare he say that to me! I mean I smile around him...right? And i do talk to him, I talked to him today when we walked to school together..sorta. I mean we were both listening to music but still we held hands.
Fuck you gerard. Now your fucking just messing with me. I love Ryan or else I would t be dating him. Plus even if I liked gerard he's a whole year older than me which isn't much but still. he could date any junior but no he goes after me the sophomore.
I decided to prove gerard wrong so I called Ryan and asked him to come over. If your wondering yes I'm still a virgin and I know I've been with Ryan for a while now but I'm just not ready to give it up, and Ryan being the wonderful boyfriend he is doesn't get upset when I tell him I'm not ready.
He he showed up about ten minutes later. It was only 1:30 so all the others were still in school. He walked in and gave me a kiss. "Feeling better?"
"Ya I just I don't know didn't feel myself today ya'know?"
"ya it's fine I'm happy you feel better though." He said giving me another kiss.
We were cuddled on couch watching the nightmare before Christmas, and Ryan had his arms wrapped around me, and my head was on his chest. He kissed my head and then began talking again. "How come you didn't feel yourself? Was something bugging you?"
"I mean I guess it's fine though I feel fine now that your here." I said stretching my neck so I could kiss him.
i feel asleep about halfway through the movie and when I woke up I was wrapped in blankets and there was a cup of coffee on the ground near me. I smiled and grabbed the coffee.
I looked into the kitchen where Ryan was eating a sandwich. "thanks for the coffee." I said smiling at him. He turned when I spoke and smiled back when he saw I was awake. "I have to leave in about ten minutes though." He said making a pouty face. "Why? I want you to stay!" I said whining like a baby.
"I have to go home and make dinner for Brooke since my dads not home." Brooke is Ryan's little sister. She's like seven I think. either way she's adorable and really funny, and she always loves to hang out with me and Ryan. Ryan only has a dad since his parents split after Brooke was born, but he still sees her.
I nodded since I knew he had to leave for Brooke. He gave me a kiss and then left to start his walk home. I went upstairs and grabbed my phone and then returned to my couch. I went back on Facebook and saw that I had two notifications. I clicked on the first one that said I was tagged in a photo. It was photo of me asleep on Ryan's chest while he was kissing my head and the caption he put underneath was 'my sleeping beauty' I liked the photo and commented a love you too babe on it.
I went back to my notifications and saw it was another message from Gerard.
Hey :)
-what?!
god what's up your ass
-my boyfriend now what the hell do you want?
god calm down I just wanted to talk
-about what?
you;)
-your disgusting
come on just talk to me! Please????
-fine. What about me?
your really fucking hot :/
-and taken. so if you want to talk change the subject got it?
but your fun to talk about:3 and I mean it your like gorgeous I'd bet your 'boyfriend' loves to just stare at you;)
-gerard I'm warning you back the fuck off or I'm leaving this conversation
fine ill back off for now;)
-fucking perv
Hey wait!!! Don't leave the conversation I'm sorry!!
-your getting really fucking annoying and I'm really starting to hate you
aww don't hate me cause that means you won't give me a chance:(
-WHY WOULD I GIVE YOU A CHANCE?!? IM TAKEN AND YOU FUCKING VIOLATED ME TODAY IN THE BATHROOM!
first off you should always give someone a chance
and second I didn't violate you I did grind on you but that's it.
I became frustrated trying to talk to him so I just shut my computer down. I was way to confused to even think about talking to him. I decided to just go to sleep, and forget about it.
I walked over to my nightstand and pulled out a pack of cigarets and lit one up. As I sat smoking I grabbed my laptop and went on Facebook out of pure boredom.
I saw I had 5 notifactions. Four were from the guys all just messaging me and seeing how I was doing, but the fifth notifaction was a friend request from gerard.
I clicked on his name and creeped on his account. He didn't really post much and only had three photos on his page. They were all of paintings I think, and then one photo of him that was his profile picture. He obviously hadn't updated his page in a while since in the photo of him he had long black hair. Now I recognized him from last year.
he was normally alone, but I always remembered his hair because he was probably the only other kid in our school that had hair as long as mine beside ray.
Weird that I didn't recognize him this year though.
I decided to accept his friend request since my page was private, and I wanted him to see all the photos of me and Ryan so he could see how happy I was with him and he'd leave me alone.
About five minutes after I accepted his request my computer beeped and I saw I had a message from him in my chat box.
Text me ;)
-no
why not:(
-I don't want you to have my number
why not?:/
-because I have a fucking boyfriend and you'll probably just fucking hit on me and send me pics of you I don't want!
you know I have some class. I wouldn't send you a photo of my dick unless you wanted me to;)
-god! Just stop I have a boyfriend!
and? I mean it's not like your happy with him anyway
-excuse me!
Well it's true your never smiling or anything around him, and you guys only talk to each other when in your in your little group . Just saying
-fuck you
then I shut my computer off. How dare he say that to me! I mean I smile around him...right? And i do talk to him, I talked to him today when we walked to school together..sorta. I mean we were both listening to music but still we held hands.
Fuck you gerard. Now your fucking just messing with me. I love Ryan or else I would t be dating him. Plus even if I liked gerard he's a whole year older than me which isn't much but still. he could date any junior but no he goes after me the sophomore.
I decided to prove gerard wrong so I called Ryan and asked him to come over. If your wondering yes I'm still a virgin and I know I've been with Ryan for a while now but I'm just not ready to give it up, and Ryan being the wonderful boyfriend he is doesn't get upset when I tell him I'm not ready.
He he showed up about ten minutes later. It was only 1:30 so all the others were still in school. He walked in and gave me a kiss. "Feeling better?"
"Ya I just I don't know didn't feel myself today ya'know?"
"ya it's fine I'm happy you feel better though." He said giving me another kiss.
We were cuddled on couch watching the nightmare before Christmas, and Ryan had his arms wrapped around me, and my head was on his chest. He kissed my head and then began talking again. "How come you didn't feel yourself? Was something bugging you?"
"I mean I guess it's fine though I feel fine now that your here." I said stretching my neck so I could kiss him.
i feel asleep about halfway through the movie and when I woke up I was wrapped in blankets and there was a cup of coffee on the ground near me. I smiled and grabbed the coffee.
I looked into the kitchen where Ryan was eating a sandwich. "thanks for the coffee." I said smiling at him. He turned when I spoke and smiled back when he saw I was awake. "I have to leave in about ten minutes though." He said making a pouty face. "Why? I want you to stay!" I said whining like a baby.
"I have to go home and make dinner for Brooke since my dads not home." Brooke is Ryan's little sister. She's like seven I think. either way she's adorable and really funny, and she always loves to hang out with me and Ryan. Ryan only has a dad since his parents split after Brooke was born, but he still sees her.
I nodded since I knew he had to leave for Brooke. He gave me a kiss and then left to start his walk home. I went upstairs and grabbed my phone and then returned to my couch. I went back on Facebook and saw that I had two notifications. I clicked on the first one that said I was tagged in a photo. It was photo of me asleep on Ryan's chest while he was kissing my head and the caption he put underneath was 'my sleeping beauty' I liked the photo and commented a love you too babe on it.
I went back to my notifications and saw it was another message from Gerard.
Hey :)
-what?!
god what's up your ass
-my boyfriend now what the hell do you want?
god calm down I just wanted to talk
-about what?
you;)
-your disgusting
come on just talk to me! Please????
-fine. What about me?
your really fucking hot :/
-and taken. so if you want to talk change the subject got it?
but your fun to talk about:3 and I mean it your like gorgeous I'd bet your 'boyfriend' loves to just stare at you;)
-gerard I'm warning you back the fuck off or I'm leaving this conversation
fine ill back off for now;)
-fucking perv
Hey wait!!! Don't leave the conversation I'm sorry!!
-your getting really fucking annoying and I'm really starting to hate you
aww don't hate me cause that means you won't give me a chance:(
-WHY WOULD I GIVE YOU A CHANCE?!? IM TAKEN AND YOU FUCKING VIOLATED ME TODAY IN THE BATHROOM!
first off you should always give someone a chance
and second I didn't violate you I did grind on you but that's it.
I became frustrated trying to talk to him so I just shut my computer down. I was way to confused to even think about talking to him. I decided to just go to sleep, and forget about it.
Update??
8/10/14