"If we go hide under the bleachers now do you think anyone would miss us" Gerard turned to ask his friends and younger brother.
Frank plucked his cigarette from between his fingers and took a puff, blowing the smoke out right in Gerard's face, he would be a liar if he'd say that move wasn't insanely hot and he fidgeted with the hem of his too thight school blazer.
"Shut up, you and Toro only have a year left in this shithole, Mikey, Bob and me pulled the short straw for this one" Frank said, stomping out the cigarette.
Ray patted Gerard's back "not our fault that we were born a year earlier short stuff, now let's go I'm not gonna be late on the first day of the year".

Their small group of friends followed Ray towards the school steps and though he contemplated about a hundred different ways and reasons to skip today he knew that it would only bring him more trouble.
Besides what was one more year when he had a whole life to live after that, far away from school uniforms and getting shoved against walls.
He sighed and ran a hand through his greasy hair, kicked at a rock but finally decided that if he wasn't gonna skip school he wouldn't want to end up with dentention either and ran up the few stairs that led to the school's entrance, he was lucky that his homeroom was on the first floor.
Despite the short distance he still ended up barging into the classroom just before the bell rang, sweaty and panting.
He ignored the stares people gave him and even managed to step over the leg someone had held out to trip him.
In the right back corner of the room Ray was already waiting for him and he silently thanked his friend for saving up seat.

After the tedious task of filling out forms about his interests and expectations for the year for not only his English class but also Math and Spanish it was finally time for their lunchbreak.
Since the weather was still nice and the majority of them smoked, or rather bummed their cigarettes off of Gerard they sat outside under a big oak tree.
He sat down against it and pulled out his sunglasses and a cigarette, his sandwich or whatever his mom had packed for today would have to wait, besides his craving for nicotine overpowered his craving for food.
Him and Ray's class were allowed to leave as soon as they'd filled out the form and since Ray had forgotten his lunch he had headed to the cafeteria.
"Hey gorgeous" he heard as Frank sat down next to him, a bit too close for Gerard's comfort and again snatching away his cigarette.
"Damn it Frank, just ask if you want one. You don't see Bob going around pulling them right from my fucking mouth" he said sounding more annoyed than he actually was.
Frank looked up at him and blinked a few times as he sucked in the smoke, like earlier blowing it out in Gerard's face "but I like them better when they've been between your lips".
He could swear that his brother's best friend was flirting with him, just these little moments where annoying little Frank Iero turned into sweet and sexy Frank Iero were enough to keep him up at night.

Not that he would tell anyone, ever.
"Geraaaaard" he was snapped out of his thoughts by Frank waving his hand infront of his face in an attempt to grasp his attention.
"Ehm yeah, sorry what were you saying" he muttered and retrieved the pack of cigarettes from his pocket, once again sticking one between his lips and lighting it.
Frank sighed "I was telling you that Mikey asked me to sleep over at yours this friday so we can catch up and that my cousin bought me a bottle of vodka when I was staying at my aunt's two weeks ago, so y'know we can get wasted and watch movies or some shit".
Gerard nodded appreciatively, him and Mikey had spent the summer working crappy jobs at the local supermarket while all their friends were out of town visiting family.
Besides the rare beer they'd steal from the fridge every now and then neither had access to alcohol and getting drunk with his brother and Frank sounded like the best way to spend his friday night.
"Awesome, speaking of Mikey, don't you, him and Bob have the same classes" he asked.
Frank grinned proudly "yeah but I got kicked out so I figured I'd go to lunch earlier" Gerard smiled, he admired Frank's sense of rebellion.
He playfully shoved his friend, who in turn tackled Gerard and him being even closer made Gerard feel even more uncomfortable because Frank fucking Iero was now full on stradling him and pinning him down.
Alright he thought, rotting fish, smelly socks, touching gum underneath your desk by accident, it was his attempt to stop blood rushing from the last place he wanted it.
"Faggots!" some jock yelled and Frank finally got up "yeah, that's not what your mom said last night fucktard" he yelled back, luckily only getting flipped off by the jock in reply.

"What the hell was that about" Bob said, suddenly standing next to them with Mikey and Ray right behind him.
"That overgrown shithead called me and Gerard faggots" Frank said while him and the rest sat back down to unpack their lunch.
Ray took a bite from his apple "so you did the mature thing and insinuated that you screwed his mom?" he asked.
Frank shrugged "well I'm a junior what do you expect" and again Gerard smiled at Frank's attitude, he even caught himself staring at his friend so instead he turned to Mikey.
"What did mom make you for lunch" he asked, trading the brown paper bag with his name on it for his brother's.

His brother snatched his own bag back "yeah you can keep the tuna sandwich dude" he said when he saw what their mom had packed Gerard for lunch.
"But Mikey can you atleast share yours, come on you don't even like peanut butter and jelly that much, please I can't smell like fish all day, what if I run into someone cute, like my soulmate or somethinig" Gerard whined and Mikey rolled his eyes but still tore his sandwich in two halves, giving his brother the bigger one.
Bob chuckled "yeah as if, sorry dude but the only girls in your year are called for by either the football, hockey or lacrosse team so good luck with that".
Gerard flipped him off, he could totally score one of the preppy girls if he wanted to, he was pretty sure that Melissa from his Spanish class smiled at him when he let her borrow a pencil.
The thing was that besides the fact that girls like that weren't his type, he already had someone else screwing with his mind all day and even after spending the whole summer trying to forget about the person in question those feelings were ignited the second him and Mikey met up with Frank this morning in the parking lot.

It wasn't like he was in love with his friend, but there was certainly something going on, something that caused him to toss and turn in bed late at night and to dream off when he was supposed to participate in conversation like now.
"Gerard for fuck's sake" he was pulled from his thoughts by Mikey shaking him and practically yelling in his ear
"Yeah, jesus, chill out I was just thinking about something" he said, when he looked at his friends he noticed someone was missing "hey where is Frank" he asked.
"He said something about this hot chick in our English class that he's trying to bang" Bob shrugged, taking a gulp of his soda.
"Well, is she hot" Ray asked, Gerard didn't really need to know that but instead of turning the volume from his iPod up he paused the current song and even put it away.
"If you like huge boobs, blue eyes and long dark hair, then yeah she's pretty smoking hot" Mikey explained and Gerard couldn't deny the slight pang of jealousy he felt.
Lunch wasn't over for another 10 minutes but his next class was art and he figured he'd get there a little earlier "ehm, I'm gonna head to class, see you guys later yeah?" it was more of a statement than a question that didn't receive any reply since Bob, Mikey and Ray were talking about some new band.

He packed his stuff and walked towards the building, since he was alone again he grabbed his iPod and started the song he'd paused only a few minutes earlier.
He wasn't really paying attention walking through the school hallway until he felt something colliding with him that knocked him down to the ground with the other person falling on top of him.
"Damn it Frank" he groaned while his friend giggled and pulled him up "sorry Gee didn't see you there, but hey guess what" he said exitedly.
Gerard sighed and Frank didn't even wait for a reply "this girl in my English class, Angela, she's really fucking gorgeous, so I walked up to her, y'know talked for a little bit and bam, couple of minutes later we're making out under the stairs" he said proudly.
All he could do was let out a small hmpf sound, staring at the ground, Frank didn't notice this and continued his story "seriously dude she even let me feel her up for a second".
"Yeah, awesome, but I kinda wanted to get to art class early, so yeah, think I'm gonna go now" he muttered before he walked away, not looking back and not seeing that Frank looked confused.
Of all people he could've run into, he of course had to run into the one person that was the least available to him.
This put him in a foul mood for the rest of the day, he didn't even acknowledge Frank when he called his name from across the parking lot and didn't answer when Mikey ran up to him after saying goodbye to Frank to ask why he had ignored his friend.

At home he went straight down to his room, sulked a little but managed to smile when Mikey came down with both their dinners.
"Thanks" he said while his little brother sat down next to him on his bed.
"Yeah, don't worry about it, so what the hell crawled up your ass and died" Mikey said calmly while eating a bite of his lasagna.
Gerard moved his food around on his plate a little and muttered a very quiet 'nothing'.
"Bullshit, come on, we always tell eachother everything, I even let you see me cry when Megan broke up with me remember" Gerard remembered all too well how torn up his brother was about it, the girl had been his first girlfriend and it broke his heart to see his brother crying his eyes out about her.
He sighed "alright, it isn't anything special, but there is this person and I think I like them but they would never see me that way and are currently flirting with someone who I think they'll end up dating".

Mikey smiled at him "hey, anyone would be lucky to have a person as awesome as you, and if that person can't see that it's their loss, you'll find someone".
He leaned over to hug his brother "thanks" he whispered "now let's finish dinner, we still have to play that game of Halo you owe me after you won cheating" he said when they let go.
Mikey snorted "it's not my fault you suck, but we'll see, I'll even take the crappy controller" they bickered on like this throughout their meal and for a while Gerard forgot about Frank.
After Mikey beat him 3 times it was getting late and he went up to his own room, Gerard packed the books he needed the next day and decided that the shirt he'd worn today would still smell decent enough to be worn tomorrow before he threw it on the chair to join his slacks and blazer.
He really hated their school uniform.

He flicked off his bedside lamp but wasn't even tired yet, he'd always been more of an evening person and was happy with the small distraction when he heard his phone buzz.
It was a text from Frank

R u angry with me? Srry if I did somethin :( xo Frank

Gerard sighed, just when he wasn't thinking about him and what he did and didn't feel Frank was right there to pull him back in those thoughts.
He couldn't let his possible feelings get in the way of the great friendship they had and he couldn't be angry at Frank for pursuing a relationship with a girl, they weren't together, hell Frank didn't even know that one of his best friend had a crush on him.
For a second he wondered how Frank would react if he just came clean but he quickly shrugged that idea off when he remembered how Frank had reacted to them being called faggots, how disgusted he looked at the idea.

Nah, I was jst tired, c u 2morrow :) x G

He got a reply back almost immediately

Yaay! Can't wait til friday dude!:D xo Frank

He put his phone on his bedside table and lay on his back staring at the ceiling, he needed to get Frank out of his system.
Maybe he could go out on friday, meet a nice girl, or guy, he still wasn't sure about that one and he hadn't been since he'd kissed some dude name Brian back at summercamp when he was 15.
Not that he'd ever told anybody, not even Mikey who had known that he was bi himself since he was 13, their parents hadn't really cared and it didn't matter to Gerard either.
After discovering those things about himself how could it without making him a hypocrite.
Frank was straight as an arrow though, eversince sleeping with a girl for the first time when he was 14 and not shutting up about it for three weeks he'd been the womanizer in their group.
Eventhough he was the youngest he was the first one to lose his virginity and the only one to be actually popular among girls in their school with his piercings and the tattoos on his back and stomach that he actually was too young for.
Gerard had girlfriends every now and then before being dumped for some guy who drove a nicer car and more often because he was too shy even after a few weeks of dating.

His alarm clock showed that it was midnight now but he was still wondering why only one of the four girlfriend's he'd had actually mattered to him and why Frank's name kept ringing in the back of his mind when he tried so desperately to forget about him.
He'd never want Gerard, besides the obvious that Gerard had a dick and no tits he also wasn't good looking enough to be with Frank.
Frank with his gorgeous hazel eyes, pink lips that parted a little when he was concentrating and playing his guitar, his hair that was shaved on the sides, Frank with the piercings.
Frank the badboy like they show them in tv shows, rough on the edges but with a heart of gold.

Gerard was pale, chubby and could never get his hair quite right.
Finally his eyes were getting a little heavier but he couldn't helpt but think about Frank and that Angela girl and how he would never get that chance with Frank as he drifted off into sleep.