On Saturday Gerard has stayed up the whole night pondering on what had happened with frank. He didn't sleep at all, and at 9 in the morning he trudged downstairs to make himself coffee. He brought it upstairs and lay in his bed, but instead of drinking it he put it on the side and fell asleep.

"Gerard,baby" he whispered, a menacing look in his eyes.
"G-go away bert." Gerard stuttered, barely able to breathe.
"No, I won't go away, now do as I say otherwise.." He trailed off, leaving Gerard to think of all the possibilities.
"Stop!" Gerard screamed but his words failed him. He couldn't speak. Soon, bert was gone and he breathed a sigh of relief. But that was when he realised everything was gone. The darkness stretched everywhere around him, a claustrophobic black hole that he couldn't escape from. He couldn't breathe. He was drowning in emptiness, the darkness was swallowing him up and destroying every piece of hope he had. The silence hurt. Then berts words started to repeat in his mind. Every moment Gerard and bert had spent together flashed in Gerard's brain. From the start, when bert was sweet, innocent and kind. Right up till the end, when bert would constantly hit him.
"I hate you! You stupid fucking whore!!! Nobody wants you, you're a pathetic, useless brat and I want you dead!!" He screamed as his belt lashed out and struck Gerard's thigh. He called out but nobody helped him. Nobody cared.


"Gerard!" Mikey screamed at him, waking him up from his dream.
"Mmm?" He mumbled, still half asleep.
"Dude it's 10 at night, you er fell asleep." Mikey informed him, looking slightly concerned.
"Okay.." Gerard blinked, still not fully awake.
"Are you okay..?" Gerard's younger sibling asked him, worry evident on his face.
"Yeah" was all Gerard said before falling asleep for the second time that day. When he woke again, at 7 in the morning on Monday he decided to get some coffee. After drinking 3 cups, he walked upstairs and got a shower. When he had done that he decided what to wear. He quickly pulled out a plain Black top, Green Day hoodie and black skinnys. He then put on his converse and began his journey to school. He was excited. He desperately wanted to see Frank and...kiss him. Gerard hated to admit it, but kissing him was the best feeling he had ever felt. he sound turned the corner and found himself at the school. He saw frank in the corner and he started to walk over to him. It was only when he got quite close to frank though, that he noticed he was talking to his girlfriend. His fucking barbie doll girlfriend. He didn't wait for frank to explain, he shot him a dirty look and stormed out the school, and towards the gates. He could hear frank call after him, but he couldn't care less. He started to cry then. Frank didn't want him. And he was having the nightmares again. He was a fat, ugly mess.

"I want to die" he told himself.
"Either that or bert could kill me." He weighed out his options. He never wanted to see bert again. He wandered into a nearby park and sat on a bench, worry clouding his thoughts.

"I'm going to die. He's going to kill me. Frank hates me. He just used me. He's straight. I'm a fat ugly gay pathetic nothing. I should die. I deserve to. Everyone hates me." He muttered to himself. He tucked his knees below his chin and wrapped his arms around himself. He was shivering beneath his green day hoodie. He saw a figure then, creeping up to the neighbouring bench. Gerard started to worry, his eyes growing wide and his shivering increasing.
"Bert?" He barely whispered, but the man appeared to hear him, because he turned his head so he was facing Gerard.
"Sorry, I'm not bert." He smiled gently, and his expression looked kind. Gerard felt embarrassed. Soon, he was going to be known for the scary boy who calls everyone bert. He almost laughed at himself, he was being too paranoid.
The man sat down besides Gerard.
"Hello" Gerard nodded at him, shy but curious to know who the man that sat before him was.
"Morning." The man nodded at him.
"May I ask your name?" The man enquired. Gerard nodded his head.
"Gerard."
"Nice to meet you Gerard. I'm Anthony." He smiled at Gerard and they began a conversation. Gerard had soon came to the conclusion that Anthony was a very interesting man. He had lived there a while ago and moved to Europe, leaving his wife and son behind. Soon it was getting dark, so Gerard said goodbye to Anthony and walked home. It was only on his journey towards his house when the realisation hit him. Those eyes, he had seen them before. He knew he had. But he couldn't quite figure out who. He was so deep in thought that he didn't think once about frank or bert once as he walked home. But when he got back to his room he saw the shredded pieces of paper, and he remembered.
"Fuck you." He glared at the small pieces that were once a beautiful drawing. He sighed, got into bed and tried to sleep. Even then, bert was in his dreams.

Notes

okay, I have things to say about this update

1- sorry it's rushed and shit. Sorrysorrysorry
2- two new characters! Both of them are based on real people, but I had to change one of their names, because they have the same name as a main character in the story. Yep.
3- sorry it took ages to update I tried to do it sooner but I lost my iPad and that's what I keep all my fanfiction on >.< sorryvmejdjdejsjsjsn

life update: I just watched in time omfg that's one of my favourite films. Along with all the LOTR, Harry Potters, Ghost, and anything Tim Burton. Hehe. Gdhhshdhdbdbdbxbxbdbdxdgebrebehehdbdh I'm bored