The Light Behind Your Eyes
The Light Behind Your Eyes.
I sighed. I didn't know how I was going to cope without Lyn-Z. We had got divorced, and I had never felt more alone. I picked up my phone and scrolled through my contacts, finally landing on the person that I really wanted right now. Frank. I waited patiently and after 4 rings he finally picked up.
"Hey Gerard, I was just about to call you. You want me to come over?"
"Thank you" I said and hung up. 15 minutes later I opened my front door, letting Frank inside. He hugged me as soon as I shut the door, reminding me of the days when we'd kiss all the time on stage,and offstage sometimes,before the argument. Before Lyn-Z. Before bandit. Before i broke his heart. A single tear rolled down my cheek and Frank wiped it away.
"It breaks my heart to see you upset." He said softly, staring into my eyes deeply.
"You too." I smiled down at the smaller man and he returned it with one of his warming smiles,making my heart melt.
"I thought you'd be upset so I brought DVDs to cheer you up." He bit his lip nervously. I gently traced my finger across his lip to stop him and he looked startled for a moment, but he grinned a massive smile. He was adorable.
"Thank you. What have you got?" I asked, hoping he'd brought Lord Of The Rings. He grinned as if he knew what I was thinking and pulled out The Fellowship Of The Ring. I chuckled.
"Where do you want to watch it?" I asked him, looking around the house.
"Uh I don't mind. Where's comfiest?" He asked, and I nodded towards my bedroom.
"My room?" I offered and he nodded, looking pleased. I put on the DVD and cuddled up to Frank. We just got to the end, when frank suddenly turned towards me with tears in his eyes.
"Why did you and Lyn-Z get a divorce?" He asked curiously,sounding upset too. There was a reason I didn't want to tell him though. It would fuck everything up.
"She erm, heard me um confessing to mikey that err... That I liked you..more than a friend.." I said nervously, watching his face carefully for any signs of disapproval. Instead, he pulled me towards him and kissed me on the lips. Kissing him back, I pulled my hands through his hair and he grabbed my neck, pulling us as close as possible. He started to undo his zip for his jeans when I stopped him.
"I'm sorry. I'm just not ready for that. I just got out of a relationship and I want to take things slowly Frankie" I told him, watching him look hurt and sad as soon as I said it.
"Sorry. It's better if I go.." He said and Began to crawl out of the bed. I held his arm tightly though, stopping him from walking away any further. I pulled him back into the bed and onto my lap. I started stroking his hair gently.
"I love you." I whispered into his ear and he started to cry.
"I love you too... So much!" He said,making my heart melt again for the second time that night.
"Please don't cry" I whispered and I began to sing "the light behind your eyes" to him.
And if I was with you tonight,
i would sing you to sleep,
Never let them take the light behind your eyes.
He began to snore softly, so I laid him down onto the bed and curled up beside him, feeling the happiest I had ever felt in years.
"Hey Gerard, I was just about to call you. You want me to come over?"
"Thank you" I said and hung up. 15 minutes later I opened my front door, letting Frank inside. He hugged me as soon as I shut the door, reminding me of the days when we'd kiss all the time on stage,and offstage sometimes,before the argument. Before Lyn-Z. Before bandit. Before i broke his heart. A single tear rolled down my cheek and Frank wiped it away.
"It breaks my heart to see you upset." He said softly, staring into my eyes deeply.
"You too." I smiled down at the smaller man and he returned it with one of his warming smiles,making my heart melt.
"I thought you'd be upset so I brought DVDs to cheer you up." He bit his lip nervously. I gently traced my finger across his lip to stop him and he looked startled for a moment, but he grinned a massive smile. He was adorable.
"Thank you. What have you got?" I asked, hoping he'd brought Lord Of The Rings. He grinned as if he knew what I was thinking and pulled out The Fellowship Of The Ring. I chuckled.
"Where do you want to watch it?" I asked him, looking around the house.
"Uh I don't mind. Where's comfiest?" He asked, and I nodded towards my bedroom.
"My room?" I offered and he nodded, looking pleased. I put on the DVD and cuddled up to Frank. We just got to the end, when frank suddenly turned towards me with tears in his eyes.
"Why did you and Lyn-Z get a divorce?" He asked curiously,sounding upset too. There was a reason I didn't want to tell him though. It would fuck everything up.
"She erm, heard me um confessing to mikey that err... That I liked you..more than a friend.." I said nervously, watching his face carefully for any signs of disapproval. Instead, he pulled me towards him and kissed me on the lips. Kissing him back, I pulled my hands through his hair and he grabbed my neck, pulling us as close as possible. He started to undo his zip for his jeans when I stopped him.
"I'm sorry. I'm just not ready for that. I just got out of a relationship and I want to take things slowly Frankie" I told him, watching him look hurt and sad as soon as I said it.
"Sorry. It's better if I go.." He said and Began to crawl out of the bed. I held his arm tightly though, stopping him from walking away any further. I pulled him back into the bed and onto my lap. I started stroking his hair gently.
"I love you." I whispered into his ear and he started to cry.
"I love you too... So much!" He said,making my heart melt again for the second time that night.
"Please don't cry" I whispered and I began to sing "the light behind your eyes" to him.
And if I was with you tonight,
i would sing you to sleep,
Never let them take the light behind your eyes.
He began to snore softly, so I laid him down onto the bed and curled up beside him, feeling the happiest I had ever felt in years.
