Can I be the only hope for you?

“Okay, I get it. Well, I don’t mind if you don’t want to tell me about you and Gerard, but I’m telling you, he’s totally into you. I can see it through his eyes.” Jane doesn’t give up and keep asking me about Gerard even I already explain that nothing is going on between me and Gerard. Now, she came out with a stupid idea about Gerard likes me. I don’t say anything back to Jane and lazily lying on my bed, giving Jane a sign that I don’t want to talk anymore.

“Oh, dear! Probably you’ll get a text later.” Jane winked at me and disappeared behind my door, and I swear that I can hear she’s laughing outside. What does she mean by that? Suddenly my phone buzzed. A text from unknown number.

Thanks for tonight. Meet me tomorrow morning at usual place! xoxo -g-

My eyes widely opened after reading the text. Is this a joke? G? Is it Gerard?! Wait, how can he have my number? Oh, no! It’s Jane! I quickly rushed to Jane’s room.

“Jane! Why the hell you gave Gerard my number?” I can feel my anger boiled inside me.

“He texted you? Seriously? Oh, that’s perfect! Isn’t it good for you?”

“No! Jane, listen! I don’t like him, no, I hate him! You can’t do this to me. For God sake, you do not have the right to determine my life!” I shouted at Jane. I don’t know why I am getting so angry at her. All this because of Gerard.

“Arianna! Would you stop being a fucking bitch?! I know I don’t have any right in your life, but please give yourself a space! You need to move on. Leo won’t be here anymore for you! Wake up!!” Jane shakes my shoulder and I realized she’s crying. All of this time, she tries to make me happy, but I kept pushing all her offers aside. She’s right. I hugged Jane tightly and we both cried.

“You should see him. Give him and yourself a chance to know each other. Gerard is a good boy. I can assure you that.” I told Jane about the text that Gerard gave me after both of us calmed down. We lie on Jane’s bed thinking of what should I do with Gerard. Obviously she wants me to meet Gerard and be friend with him, but do I want to?

Gerard. He seems nice. The way he’s talking, his gestures, his beautiful hazel eyes surely will make other girls fall for him. His smile! Yes, his smile somehow comforts me. I always hate the way he is smiling because deep in my heart, I think I start to like his smile. Suddenly, I remembered how close we are in my room. He’s so close and my heart beating so fast. I don’t know why I have that kind of feeling. I never feel so nervous like when I’m with Gerard. Not even when I’m with Leo. Gerard, he gave me this weird feeling. I thought it was because I hate him, but this feeling is not hate. What is it? I keep thinking about Gerard and this feeling that I have
until I fall asleep.

“Rise and shine sweetheart! Someone needs to get ready for a date!!” Jane shouted in my ears.

“Fuck! Leave me alone, Jane!” I muttered as my eyes hurt because of the sunlight.

“ I can leave you alone only if you leave my bed and my room alone with me. Now, get your big ass out of my bed. I need to go to work now. See you later.”

I was still on the bed after Jane left and still confused. I try to remember what had happened last night with Gerard and Jane. Yeah, Gerard in my room, Gerard’s text, Jane’s shout. Now I remembered. I was about to get up when my phone buzzed. It was Jane.

Must meet Gerard! Don’t forget!

I look at the clock. It’s nearly noon. Gerard probably have got back home. I don’t care much because I don’t even agree to meet him. I lazily get up and have my shower. Looking at my scar made me remember Leo. I gasped. I didn’t dream about Leo last night. I looked myself in the mirror. I don’t even remember if I heard Leo’s voice while I’m sleeping. Maybe I’m just too tired last night.

I walk into the coffee shop and order my favorite. As I turn to find a place to sit, my eyes caught Gerard’s figure. He’s still here! I sighed and slowly walked towards him.

“What are you doing here?” What kind of question is that, Arianna? See, here comes the nervous feeling. Make me look stupid in front him.

“Seems like someone had a good sleep until late for her date.” He said and smile beautifully.

“It’s not a date. I don’t even agree to meet you”

“ But you’re here”

“I need my coffee”

“Then, you decided to meet me. Here. Sitting with me”

“Gerard, what is actually do you want from me?” I tried to control my nerves.

“Arianna, I don’t know why it is so hard to be friend with you. I want to know you from the first time I saw you. Can you at least give me a chance to know you?”

“ I don’t want to know you.”

I sighed. Gerard’s face turns red. I know he’s angry and honestly, I don’t know why I said that. It’s not that I really don’t want to know him, but I’m afraid.

“Fine!” Gerard’s angry voice filling the whole café and drastically stormed out from the café.

I was shocked by his action. I never see that will come from Gerard. He always looks calm even when dealing with my shit attitudes. This time I’d cross the line. He’ll probably hate me. Oh, God! What’s wrong with me?! If Jane knows about this, she’ll be furious. Probably I should go home. I can still hear other’s whispering about what just happen between Gerard and me. Maybe they’ll think that us having a lover’s fight. Tears start to fall down from my eyes and I quickly wiped it. I don’t know why am I crying. I feel so bad for what I did to Gerard, and I’m so fucked up. I need to get out from here. I don’t want to create another drama for today. I’m so pathetic!

I walked out from the café when I heard a voice.

“So, you decided to go home without actually going out with me?”

I stopped. I know this voice! As I turned, Gerard is there, leaning against the café’s wall. How long has he been there? Is he waiting for me? I can’t describe my feeling when I saw him there. Without thinking, I run towards him.

And I hugged him.

Notes

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