I'll Take What I Want From Your Heart

MIKEY'S POV
I trudged along the pavement slowly, head bowed low, hands shoved in my pockets and headphones plugged into my ears, blasting out Mettalica. The icy wind whipped around my lanky legs as I slowly walked up the garden path. I reached the front door and pulled my keys from my jeans pocket. I twisted the key in the lock, cursing at its initial struggle to open.

Once inside I jumped onto the sofa, hating myself. Wow. How much of an idiot. I know that I shouldn't have let myself fall so hard, but I did. Whatever confidence I once had (and I can tell you that it was little) had been torn to shreads. The tears were cascading down my face leaving small circles on my skinny jeans. I can't get over it. I won't. I suddenly heard Gerard's key in the front door. Shit! Quickly, I begin attacking my eyes with the sleeves of my hoody. I hope Gerard didn't see me crying. I must look pathetic right now. Slowly I lift my gaze to see an alarmed Gerard starring directly into my eyes-he looked seriously worried . Gerard pulled me into a huge bear hug and then whispered into my ear

"Whats up Mikey, you know I hate seeing you sad."

I shifted my weight nervously, my eyes glued to the floor.

"Well....there is this guy"

I glanced at Gerard-even though he is comftable with my sexuality I still felt really embarrased talking about it.

"Go on."

" His name is Frank, Frank Iero and well you know we've been talking for a while now-he's a senior like you- I have been crushing on him for about two months. Well, w-we have become really close, I poured my heart to him telling him my deepest, darkest secrets that I have only ever told you Gee. I mean although he held back fro talking about hiself, he is an amazing listener. Anyway, so today I finally asked him out and he regected me. I really thought he liked me too. Ha! No way! Don't get me wrong, he was really polite about it, and I know that he's definately gay so that isn't it. I know why. It's because I a ugly and pathetic and useless..."

Gee cut me off suddenly.

"No Mikes, we both know that isn't true. Don't put yourself down little bro."

He said rubbing circles on my back soothingly.

"Thanks Gee it's just.... it really hurt."

I was crying again now and I could feel a blush creeping up my neck.