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Bury me in all my favorite colors

An understatement

'Why didn't you tell me?' I asked. We were back at her place, lying in bed and Lana looked at me as if she didn't know what I was talking about. 'That it was your...umm...first time.'

She blushed and turned away but I pulled her closer, kissing her shoulder, trying my best to let her know that it was nothing to be ashamed of. On the contrary.

'I didn't want it to be awkward.'

'But I could have been more careful. And made it more special.' now I was the one blushing. Fuck, it felt like I had just lost my virginity with her.

So what, I had started early, simply because I had been bored and thought I had to take the chance since I hadn't been exactly the most popular boy in school. Not that I had had any idea about what I was doing. I was glad that changed over the years. And that I was now able to...well, know what I was doing. No need to brag but the best feeling ever was knowing she had enjoyed it. That I had been good. That it was a good first experience for her. I blushed even more at my thoughts, feeling like a loser.

'It was perfect, Gerard. Don't worry. For someone who used to be scared of dying as a virgin, I'm incredibly lucky.' she smiled, still looking up at the ceiling. 'You probably think it's weird. I had a boyfriend, you know? Back in Paris. But I wanted to wait. And then I got sick. And he dumped me.'

'What an asshole.' I said, shaking my head angrily.

'Well, I didn't blame him. We had only been together for a few months. The first thought when I was diagnosed was 'Oh great, who's gonna want to fuck me now?' Isn't that funny? I get told that I will most likely die and I worry about that.'

'Hmm. You didn't die though, thank God. And you lost your virginity.' she finally turned to face me again, putting her arms around my neck and I stole a kiss from her, a cheeky smirk on my face. 'And just for the record, I will always want to fuck you.'

Lana glared at me before giggling, hugging me tighter. There was this new feeling that I never thought I could feel. Carefreeness. I had to enjoy it as much as possible.

'I'm glad it was you.' she whispered in my ear, her lips brushing my skin, giving me goosebumps.

That night, I slept like a baby without any nightmares waking me.

*

'Lana! Lana, what is going on here!' I forced my eyes open, trying to sit up which was impossible when I realized that Gerard was holding me in a tight hug, his head resting on my chest. 'LANA!'

Shit. That was my mom's voice. My mom's very loud, very angry voice.

'What the fuck?' Gerard mumbled as I finally managed to push him off me, sitting up. Yes, my mother was in my bedroom, staring at me, staring at Gerard and me, in shock.

'Mom, what are you doing here?!' I wrapped the blankets around me tighter, feeling sick to my stomach as I noticed our clothes were scattered all over the bedroom floor.

Gerard started laughing like a maniac and I gave him an angry look which made him laugh even more.

'I don't really know what's so funny about that, young man. Lana, what is going on?' she asked again. I raised my brows at her now, had she just called Gerard 'young man'? We were grownups, not 14 year olds.

'Yeah what IS going on? What are you doing here?' I got up, still with a blanket wrapped around me, pushing her out of the room and grabbing my robe on the way out.

'I was worried about you! You didn't answer your phone! I thought something happened to you! Was that Elena's grandson? Lana, are you sleeping with him?'

I couldn't believe this. Now she cared? NOW?

'I'm fine, mom. We went to Coney Island yesterday and I left my phone at home. And I was too tired to check my messages when we got back.' that was kind of the truth. Also, I had been too occupied with Gerard to care about anything except getting him naked for round two. 'And his name is Gerard, mom. He's been staying here.' I ignored the 'are you sleeping with him?' part of the question since it was none of her business.

'Shouldn't you be resting? And why is he staying here? Lana, I don't think it's good for you to be hanging out with this boy.'

'Mom, you gotta calm down. I mean, listen to yourself. I'm an adult. He's an adult. What does it even matter to you? And just for the record, I'm doing fine. As a matter of fact, I just saw Dr Miller the day before yesterday and he said my labs were better than ever. It's a bit late for you to become all controlling.'

She was about to start again when I heard the bedroom door open behind me. Gerard emerged, fully dressed.

'It was my fault, not Lana's.' he said, giving her the puppy eyes. I couldn't believe he was trying that trick on my mom. 'I made her leave her phone at home and I'm truly sorry that you got worried but I can ensure you that she's safe with me. I would never let anything happen to your daughter.'

*

'Gerard, you don't have to -'

'Oh it's okay.' Lana's mom suddenly had a smile on her face and her voice was soft. I knew instantly that I had successfully worked my charm. 'I...I'm sorry I bursted in here like that. I'm gonna leave you two to it. Honey, call me when you get a chance, yes? Maybe you and Gerard can have lunch with me and Greg sometime?' she kissed Lana's cheek and fluttered her lashes at me. I smirked.

'I would love that, Mrs Thompson.'

'Oh please, call me Marie.' she said and Lana's eyes widened. She grabbed her mother and pulled her with her, giving me the evil eye over her shoulder. I couldn't help but chuckle.

'Bye mom!' Lana said, gently shoving her out the door.

'What the hell was that? Did you just flirt with my mother?' she said, clearly shocked.

'It worked, didn't it? I can play the innocent little boy pretty well if I want to.' I felt slightly proud of myself.

She stepped closer, shaking her head at me. 'You didn't play the innocent little boy very well last night.'

'That's 'cause I didn't want to.' I teased, grabbing her. 'And correct me if I'm wrong but it seemed you didn't want me to either.' I gave her a shifty look, wriggling my brows and she chuckled, pushing me away playfully.

Jeez, could I make it any more obvious how much I wanted her? How crazy I was about her? As if I hadn't made it clear enough last night, I felt the urge to show her, again and again, constantly. There was no way on earth I could ever stop. So I pulled her close once more and this time, her hands were on me without hesitation as I kissed her, grabbing the hem of my shirt, eager to tear it off. As much as I wanted to just give in and let the ridiculous, blinding desire take over, I didn't. I slowed down the kiss until my lips were merely brushing hers like a feather. Lana groaned with frustration but I didn't let her throw me off course as I continued and eventually she loosened her grasp on me, her hands now softly running up and down my chest and back. Soon enough, she sighed happily and I picked her up, letting her wrap her legs around my waist.

'Are you gonna take me back to bed?' she whispered, nudging my nose with hers.

'You bet your sweet ass I am.' I grinned, carrying her into the bedroom, the excitement in her eyes as I put her down on the bed making me feel all loopy. God, she was beautiful.

I kissed her again, deeply, my tongue finding hers and I couldn't hold back a moan, the feeling so intense that it made me feel as though I had never done this properly and always for the wrong reasons. This was as right as it could get. I almost feared the consequences of falling for her as hard as I did. But in this moment, I couldn't think about it. In this moment, I had to try my best to come as close as possible to stopping time.

*

After we kissed for what seemed like an eternity but still not long enough, his lips left my mouth, traveling up my jaw to my temple, pressing against my skin gently. I had never been kissed like this before and I could already feel that familiar heat spreading throughout my whole body, making my skin tingle. He found a sensitive spot right under my ear now and he kissed me there and I could feel him smile against my skin when I whispered his name with a shaky voice.

'May I?' he asked, withdrawing his lips for a second and looking at me, playing with the belt of my robe. All I could do was nod, taking a deep breath as he removed the fabric, completely exposing my naked body to him.

It didn't feel as uncomfortable as I expected it to feel. No, it wasn't the first time I was naked in front of him but last night, in the dark and under the covers, I had felt more confident. We hadn't had the time nor the patience to really explore each other, having only the one thing in mind. But no, I wasn't scared, his loving eyes calming me down as he looked at me, smiling. He found his trail on my skin again, continuing to caress it with his lips and tongue, one hand cupping my cheek, the other now leading the way for his mouth. A shiver had my body trembling, giving me goosebumps and he giggled as his lips softly closed around a hardened nipple, making my back arch in pleasure. Fuck. I wasn't sure whether I had actually muttered the word, my mind was now only able to focus on the sensation of his touches. And even that I couldn't make sense of. How, after so long, after seeing my body as my own worst enemy, he worshipped it with such passion and love.

'Ugh, I want you.' I muttered but he seemed to ignore me as his tongue tickled my belly, making me giggle and moan at the same time.

'Patience.' Gerard replied, not making a move to stop or hurry. The worst thing was the fact that he was still fully dressed in his shirt and jeans while I was completely naked and on the brink of crying, that's how good he made me feel.

'Was never my strongest virtue.' I replied. 'Can you at least take your shirt off?'

He laughed at my request but obliged and I managed to bring his lips to mine for a quick kiss before he once again decided to tease me, returning them to my breasts, lingering there for a moment. His hand traveled even further down, gliding over my thigh and soon his mouth followed. Oh dear, I thought, hoping that he would finally realize just how desperate I really was and just get on with it. And too late, I figured out what his actual plan was. He got down on his knees at the edge of the bed, grabbing me hard and pulling me towards him until my legs were resting on his shoulders.

'Gerard what- oh shit!' I gasped as I felt his tongue between my legs, a low laugh rumbling in his throat as I raised my head, looking at him in shock.

Once again, his tongue stroked me there, making me incapable of protesting. Did I even want to? It felt amazing and the cheeky smile he gave me as he looked up at me made me writhe under his touch. He grasped my thighs, holding me steady while licking me again, sucking my clit softly. I gave up. There was no point in holding anything back anymore. What he was doing was incredible and it had only one purpose. Showing me how much he adored me and how much he wanted to make me feel good. Good. An understatement. I fell back on the bed, closing my eyes as he applied more pressure, burying his head between my thighs.

'You taste so good.' he whispered, releasing another wave of pleasure. Good God.

He knew exactly what he was doing, stroking softly in some places while pressing down in others, somehow managing to take care of all of it at once, his whole mouth embracing me. I reached down, my hand tangling in his hair while the other one clenched the sheet as I realized how quickly I was approaching the edge. Damn you, Gerard, I thought. How dare you make me feel this way when I don't even know how to return the favor. He was oblivious to my silent pleas, too occupied and amused by my fruitless attempts to keep my whimpering and moaning under control. I could feel his tongue thrusting into me and his hand searched for mine, grabbing it when he realized how close I was.

I loved him, I thought, as I came and it was as clear as nothing else in that moment.

Notes

more smut because...why not

Comments

So good!!!

Jackie Jackie
4/10/18
@Nichole Unfiltered
thank you so much! :) I'm glad you liked it, your feedback means a lot.
the_girl the_girl
10/21/13
All I can say is wow, this story was truly AMAZING! You're such a creative and talented writer, and I can't wait to read the sequel!
@thisbitchcray:P
enjoy it while you can
the_girl the_girl
10/13/13
We shall thank the Gods for this plentiful amount of smut
Funghoul'sGirl Funghoul'sGirl
10/13/13