Don't let go of Us

When I woke up the next morning , it was because Gerard. He was sitting on my feet throwing something at me. I opened my eyes just in time for a popcorn kernell to come flying at me. "What the hell are you doing?" I ask throwing it back at him. "Waiting for you to wake up." He responds looking around me. I looked around and half of my hair was filled with popcorn. "You ass." I mutter sitting up and shaking the popcorn from my hair. "I have to take a shower now to get butter out of my hair. "I say looking over at it. I had to shower anyway. Now I have an excuse. "I can join if you want." He says winking. Same old Gerard. Always a perv. Nothing's changed. "Sure..." I say sarcastically going to my bathroom. "Haha so funny." He says.

"So what are we doing today?" I ask. “We’re going to fix the barn up. Me and Jessie had it fixed up really nice but it’s just kind of lost itself over the years.” He responds looking down. “I know you’re sad about the whole Jessie thing.” I say touching his cheek. He looks up and I felt as if I should withdraw my hand but I don’t. I lean in and let my lips touch his cheek gently before pulling away and going into the bathroom as fast as I could. I shut the door and leaned against it.

Did I really just do that?! I never do things like that. Now he’s going to think I’m some creep or something for kissing him like that on what ? 4 days of knowing me?! I slid against the door and put my head in my hands. “God you’re such an idiot Jess.” I mutter shaking my head. On the other side of the door I heard a low chuckle and then his voice came through the door. “I enjoyed it.” My head shot up and I quickly went to the shower turning it on and not bothering to wait until it heated up. I should want to wait and not want to see him but I want to see him. Maybe if I was lucky he would pretend that it didn’t happen.

I got in and let the cold water run down my body sending goosebumps down my skin. I washed my hair quickly using the shampoo I knew was Gerard’s favorite. I remembered after all these years. I washed my body quickly and then got out drying myself off and then freezing once I looked towards the counter. I didn’t bring clothes with me. I mentally cursed myself out and then looked towards the door. Maybe Gerard was gone and doing something in his room. Maybe he was getting dressed. I opened the door and stepped out and realized that nope. Gerard was still here and sitting on my bed.

I turned away from him and went to my dresser. I didn’t dare look at his reflection in the mirror. Even if I wasn’t looking I felt his eyes trailing up and down my wet legs. Thankfully most of my body was covered by the white towel I brought with me. “Stop it you perv.” I say turning to him. I blushed once I realized Mikey was in the room also. I could handle Gerard since I’ve known him so long and he’s my best friend but not Mikey.. I wasn’t that close to him so this made things very awkward. “Excuse me but you were the one that walked out in a towel. Excuse me for looking at a naked girl with water running down her legs.”Gerard says coming up to me.

“Stay away from me.” I say holding out my free arm. “You could just ditch the towel.” He says. Mikey walks away and shuts the door giving me sorrowful look. Only Mikey could tell when I was feeling awkward. I made a mental note to myself about cursing him out later for just leaving me like that. I grabbed some clothes from my dresser and ran off to the bathroom. I heard Gerard laugh from the other side before I saw the doorknob twirl. “I know for a fact there isn’t a lock on this door.” He says. “Why are you so set on seeing me naked!?” I ask shaking my head. “You left me with a teasing kiss that’s why.” I stood there still but still pushing my entire wait against the door. He liked it? The door stopped and I slowly stopped leaning against it quickly throwing on my clothes and then brushing my teeth and blow drying my hair. I threw it up quickly before walking out. I regretted it only seconds later when I felt someone’s body being thrown into the side of mine. I swear sometimes Gerard is really a 6 year old. “Get off me.” I say looking at him. “Nope.” He says holding my wrists down with his knee’s . “I don’t want your dick in my face!” I say trying to free my wrists.

“You know you like it.” He says shaking his hips. “No! Get off me.” I say laughing. He gets off and pulls me up. “Let’s go!” Gerard says pulling me up and out the door. I run to follow after him as he runs off the porch and starts towards the barn. Once we make it up to the barn I see that he’s already got things set up.

We- well , Jessie and Gerard started putting lights up but over the years they had burned out. I had gotten new ice lights and I thought we should use them. I got onto a chair earning some attention from Gerard. “Be careful!” He warns coming over. “I know not to trip on a chair now Gerard.” I say shaking my head and putting the first set up. His hands go to my hops and I look down at him. He wears a smirk that if it had gotten just a bit bigger would be just like the cheshire cat. “Don’t be so smug about it.” I growl rolling my eyes.

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