Frank’s POV
“It’s gonna be fin Gee. Umm, Ray can you make a coffee run?” “Sure, what do ya want, are you still in love with vinti carmel?” “Chh! You bet. Umm id don’t know what gee wants, and could you take like a half an hour or so?”Ray smiled weakly at me. “So you don’t want anything?....ooookay I’ll just get me a biscuit or something.” He joked half-heatedly before firmly gripping Gerard’s shoulder and leaving. I looked at Gerard with concern. For over two hours now he’s only blinked like 3 times tops. He just sat there, pale-looking and staring at the wall infront of us. I tried getting him to talk, shaking him, nothing really worked. He was really starting to frighten me. I got up and squatted in front of him, my eyes directly in line with his, but his gaze was still distant, as if his soul was not here, but somewhere alse, like in that room with Mikey.
I gently kissed both his eyelids closed and hugged him. No words. No tears. Just a hug. After about thirty seconds of this uncomfortable position, Gerard grabbed me around the waist and held me tightly, he was actually trembling but ever so slightly you wouldn’t even notice. “Oh Gee you’re cold!” He loosened his grip and resumed looking at the wall or whatever distant sight. I quickly shed the jacket I had on and draped it over him. It almost fit. It was actually Mikey’s jacket, a huge sportsy, race-car driver kinda jacket. Gee’s head slowly turned to his body and his eyes flew open. I didn’t understand what was wrong with it. It was warm and comfy.
Gerard grabbed the jacket off his body and bawled into it, his howls resounding through the corridors. I was heartbroken just at the sound. I heard the pain in his sobs as he held the jacket and let tears flow into it. I held him once more and allowed him to cry into my chest through the jacket. This must be so tough on him, yet I could see he was fighting the tears, trying to hold himself up only to fall back into my arms. “Shh shh shh. It’s okay Gee my dear. Everything’s gonna work out fine. Just hang in there.” I cooed to him. It was about 30 minutes of him crying, calming down and struggling with words before breaking down into tears again. Ray had returned and sat on the floor next to Gerard’s feet.
He finally calmed down, and I told him not to speak but just take deep breaths. I handed him the coffee and he sipped it slowly. The poor thing hadn’t eaten properly in almost 2 days. The only thing keeping him from joining Mikes in there was the occasional water and or snack that Dr. Lebanon would bring for us.
“Frank I’m sorry.” I wasn’t expecting that. Ray looked at me quizzically to which I just shrugged and shook my head. I had not the slightest idea what he was talking about. “It’s okay…but what fo…” “Remember that time we went grocery shopping? “I nodded. “I said I had to tell you something, but instead I just kina hit you…” Ray’s eyes flew to Gerard. “It’s okay Ray, it wasn’t a hit hit…more like a nudge to be honest.” I told him which seemed to relax him a bit. “I really did have something to tell you, but I just…I couldn’t. It was kina personal and didn’t feel like the right time. And to be honest I don’t think any time would be the right time.” He paused to sip from his coffee.
“You panicked at the speed I drove off with…” oh that. yeh I remember that. “I was a prodigy. Racecars were my shit. I was a professional champion.” Once again…I wasn’t expecting that. “Mikey was my biggest fan. He’d been to every competition I entered. I won most of my competitions because I wasn’t doing it alone. I drove for him, and for our dream. For my dream, that one day he’d surpass me.” He sniffed. ”I gave Mikey this jacket. He loved the track as much as I did.” He was smiling as he spoke, relaxing a lot. ‘keep it up gee’.“I was sixteen and my name stared spreading, made a few papers n stuff. It was great. The event was huge. I was racing against real champs who’ve been doing that shit for years, so I had a lot of people rooting for me and gradma insisted that she came.
He chuckled. “Mikey gave her this very same jacket to wear because she was cold, then she kept complaining it was too hot. She wasn’t a troublesome person but it was hilarious. We’d usually do Mikey a few pranks and stuff. Her name was Elena, but her friends called her Helen, and me and Mikey just rested on call her Helena when we were bored.” He smiled.” Annyways, the last stretch was down the highway and 3 laps around the track, and damn it was tight. My car was more built for the traks, ya know, the acceleration was sweet. It handled like a babe on those sharp turns and drifts. I guy that came second had beat me on the freeway. Everybody though he was gonna win cuz he made like half lap before I even entered the tracks, but his car wasn’t much of a match one I entered my terrain, my kingdom. You should’ve seen his face when I won.”
He finished he coffee in one go and continued. “As always Mikey ran onto the podium to join me and the other winners for the champaign celebration.” His voice caught in his throat and he looked like he was gonna throw up. I could tell something bad was coming...something really bad. Bad enough to make gee look this sick. Tears began welling up in his eyes. “She was always so independent . Mikes went for he, but she sent him back, insisted she wasn’t some old hag and she could cross the track on her own. Mikey and I stood to watch…worst decision ever.
Gerard began to cry silent tears while struggling to continue. “The man that pulled in last, after everything. The prizes were shared out,that party was starting, some people even left, but he still wanted to give it his all.. He c..” Gerard grabbed his throat and gagged. “It’s….you don’t have to finish Gee.” I had an idea where this was going, but Ray was clueless. After all the time I’ve spent with him I couldn’t help but notice that every time Mikey crosses the road he stops to watch, and when Mikeys safe, he goes along his way. “He camae in at about 192 mph and ran her over…dragging her bo…her bo-bod…” Ray had the best reflexes ever. He grabbed the empty coffee cup and held it to Gerard’s mouth just as the puke came pitching out.
I rubbed gee’s back and passed me hand through his tangled, messy silver hair as he threw up. That must’ve been really gruesome. Tear were already growing in my eyes and I hadn’t even notice until they started falling. Gerard sat up and slouched back into the chair with his head against the wall and his legs spread open, breathing heavily through his mouth. I kissed his cheek. “You don’t have to fini-“ “He dragged her body along under the car.”
I gasped and so did Ray. “Just..blood….everywhere.”nRay and I covered our mouths in a desperate attempt to keep the content of our stomach down. “Mikey saw it. He saw it all. At 14 he witnesses that!” Gerard chocked on his tears and I pulled him into a hug. “She didn’t even die on the spot. She was in hospital for about an hour or half of, then died, holding our hand on either side of her.” There was a long silence as everyone soaked in what was just said. Ray spoke up. “Look, don’t get mad, but Frank and I were bored so we kind of listened in on you and Mikey.” Gerard looked at me and I looked away. “Anyway, we heard something about him visiting you? What’s that about.” Gee shrugged. “You might as well know. Three months after the funeral, Mikey and I decided not to give up. We’d drive and race for Helena. Oh yeh Ray, Mikey may never tell you this, but he started off in the tracks too, but not competitions yet though, just me. We’d race each other n stuff. He beat me a few time though, so I knew he had a lot of potential. Anyway there was another competition. I ‘d missed a few and this one was also big.”
“A lot of people became drawn by the fact that I’d still drive after something like that and once again I had a lot of people rooting for me. I was in the lead for most of the race, well it was between me and some other guy. He’d pull forward the I would. *sigh*but in the last lap I managed to pull up a good time and as I said my acceleration was sweet just as I crossed the line….i saw her. I saw my grandmother crossing the track. She looked up at me, dead in the eye. Of course she wasn’t there, but I still panicked and….i don’t even know what I did. All I remember was the track tuning into the sky and feeling the car flip in slow motion. I watched as the sky and pitch alternated like strobe lights. I woke up in a hospital bed and holding Mikeys hand. He’d practically lived here until I got better. He never really drove after that except for getting his license.”
Gerard hung his head low. “I can’t afford to loose him.” “It’s okay Gerard.” I cooed. “it’s gonna be fine.” Just then a nurse walked up to us holding a file. She looked old, like about 5o years at least. I mean her hair wasn’t gray so I’d definitely say early fifties. I’ve never seen her attend to Mikey though. “Umm…Gerard, doctor Fidel…Findel Lebanon gave this, to speak to you.” She had one heavy Russian accent and over rolled her r’s and pronounced many vowels in her native tongue, so Findell sounded like Feendael and Gerard sounded like Jaerrad.
“Michal, results….she passes away. The heart was affected and we weren’t able to do anything. I’m sorry for your loss.” My heart literally sunk. I looked at gee who was pale as fuck and then at Ray who was equally as pale. They both froze and I didn’t know what to do. This wasn’t supposed to happen. Mikey…okay he’s not a she, but the damn lady can’t speak English properly, she must be talking shit, but the file he had…I could’ve only saw ‘Way’, and the ‘Mic’ in his first name. “Oh Mikey” I said crying. The nurse walked away.
I looked down the hallway at nothing, Gerard wasn’t moving while Ray on the other hand had gotten up and starting pacing, habit that had the power to make me nervous for no reason, since middle school. He was holding his head and pressing his hands against his face in frustration. Poor Ray, I knew that I’d never feel the loss at badly as Gerard and Ray, but he was a really close friend to me as well. Mikey was my boyfriend’s brother and my best friend’s boyfriend. And he was one of my best friends. I looked up at the hallway once again to see Findell walking up to us with a broad smile. “Why the long faces guys, aren’t you ganna help him pack up his stuff?” All of us went still and silent.
“I sent Nurse Barrettawith the file to let you know that he’ll be ok soo…” He looked down at the folder in his hand. “Shit!” Gerard and Ray stared at him with tears stain eyes, begging for hope. “I’m EXTREMELY sorry about this. I have Mikey’s file here.” He said, handing it to me. “That was a Michelle Way who passed a while ago. Michael Way is fine and he’s being allowed to go home.” I felt relief strike me as I looked through the file in my hands. “I did not want to have to deliver such a contrast of news so I sent the nurse to you guys as it would be better for me to explain a death and as you can tell she can’t speak English very well. She got the wrong file apparently and being the dear that she was picked up on my ‘slack’.”
I looked at Gerard and Ray again. Ray loosened up a lot but gee looked like he saw a ghost. “Uhh frank?” “Yeh d…Findell.” “Room 330 take em there.” “Okay.” I handed him the file and pulled Gerard up to his feet. We walked slowly, looking like if we were following in a funeral procession as we made our way to the room. We approached the door and I was about to open it, but stopped myself when I saw Gerard’s right arm raise slowly and form a fist. He looked nervous and shocked. Poor thing. *knock knock knock* We waited in silence for about a few moments which felt like forever. Just as I was beginning to get worried, the door flew open and we came face to face with Mickey Way.
“Gee!” he squealed. “I’m out!” and witht hat he engulfed Gerard in a big hug. Ray and I moved closer together with huge grins as we watched the brothers reunite. “You think he’ll be okay?” Ray asked, referring to Gerard. I smiled as tears of joy rolled down my face. “Yeh he’ll be fine.” He seemed to still be in shock. I just really hope all this wasn’t too much for him. “Hey Ray?” “Yeh Frankster?” “Where’s my fucking coffee?”

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