What wouldn't I do for you?
I'm Not Okay (I Promise)
Gerard [P.O.V.]
The pain in my nads is what hurt the most. I could deal with my stomach and face. Two days in a row my balls couldn't take it. I sighed looking at the small tv in my hospital room. My body was all wrapped up in bandages and I had this weird little strip across my nose sense it was broken. My left middle finger was broken as well. I hated that Zayn kid. I hope he gets expelled. My mind whispered "How is Frank doing?" I wanted to know if he was alright. When I was torn from him he was crying over me which is wrong. Mikey was surly still in class perfectly fine. It was now 3:45 though and they were out of school. Would they come see me? Grandma couldn't she was bed ridden for the next two weeks after having a stroke. I heard a small knock on my door. "Come in." I watched the door open ever so slowly. I wanted nothing more than to see a smiling face of one of my friends. I smiled when Frank's head came into the room. He walked in calmly with his hand behind his back. I whispered "Thank God someone cares about me." He smiled at me softly
"Hi Gee. Are you alright?" I nodded to him. I whispered
"Sit down Frankie. I promise not to bite." He giggled as he sat on the edge of the hospital bed. Every nerve in my body screamed "Kiss him you fool." I knew it was just my hormones. Frank looked at the ground. He was so quiet. "Frank, this is not your fault."
"Yes it is!" he sobbed.
"No, I refuse to blame you for this." He looked up at me. I smiled at him even if it was fake to reassure him. I felt the bed spread shift as he whispered
"I brought something for you." I glanced at him nervously.
"What is it Frankie?" He pulled out a small box of crayons behind his back. I gave a quizzical look to him.
"Open it up Gee." I did as Frank commanded to find the most beautiful thing anyone ever had given me. Inside was all black crayons. I felt a tear rush down my smiling face. Frank brushed it away. "I know it is stupid but..." I cut him off
"No Frankie it is wonderful. I love it so much." He beamed and whispered
"Really?"
"Yes how did you know?" Frank confessed
"Mikey told me." I laughed as my little brother walked in. I felt wonderful and elated as Mikey leaned down and hugged me. Frank looked at Mikey and he whispered something to Frank. I sighed
"Well, can I know what is so secretive?" They both shook their heads. I sighed again this time rolling over able to look out the window. I was late October now all the leaves were falling. I shivered "Why are hospitals so damn cold?" Frank cooed
"Here." as he lie his sweatshirt onto me and I put it on. He smiled at me so innocently. I lost my breathing for a moment. I smiled back at him. Something about Frank made me want to open up and confess about every awful secret I have to him. He was just so warm and inviting. Mikey whispered
"I'm gonna go get some coffee." As he said that Mikey ran out of the room. I looked at Frank desperately trying to read his blank stare. I felt Frank's hand on my back lightly rubbing it. He then whispered
"Gee, can I tell you something?"
I smiled "Anything Frankie."
"Gee, I just want to you to know how safe and secure you make me feel. I always feel like I am able to be myself. You give me confidence. I know two days is far from forever but the happiness I have felt in these two days could have lasted me a life time." I smiled at what Frank had confessed to me. He was perfect but couldn't see it. I sighed
"You are so perfect. How did I ever meet anyone like you? I am nothing." He looked appalled
"You are far from nothing Gerard Way. You are a beautiful man with a beautiful mind full of wonder and whimsy." Gerard just looked at his lap "I vow to make you understand how truly special you are Gerard." As I said that Mikey walked back in with a coffee in his hands.
"Hey guys so, how is it going? Is everything chill?" As Mikey talked Gerard pointed at his coffee. "Oh you want some?" Mikey smiled. Gerard grinned like a five year old and nodded his head rapidly. Mikey hand Gee the hot beverage as he began to drink it. I giggled at how cute Gerard was sometimes. He smirked
"Frankie, don't laugh at me. You are exactly where I like you, you know." I smiled at him as sweetly as I could stealing his coffee and taking a gulp. Mikey snickered as Gee pouted. Mikey kissed his cheek and whispered
"My big brother is so cute. AWWWWW!" He used his best baby voice to mock Gerard who gave me puppy dog eyes. I whispered
"Not even fair Gee. I can't resist puppy eyes." Gee laughed
"Who can?" Mikey chimed in
"Heartless people." We all laughed slightly. Gee whispered
"When do I get out?" Mikey smiled
"Tomorrow the 29th." I smiled widely remembering my up coming birthday.
"Well, what are we gonna do on Halloween Mikey?" Gerard questioned.
"That is my birthday." I chimed in. Gerard smiled
"Then we shall party and by party I mean watch horror movies at your house." I laughed at his answer. He grabbed my hand "I want to make you feel special because you are special."
The pain in my nads is what hurt the most. I could deal with my stomach and face. Two days in a row my balls couldn't take it. I sighed looking at the small tv in my hospital room. My body was all wrapped up in bandages and I had this weird little strip across my nose sense it was broken. My left middle finger was broken as well. I hated that Zayn kid. I hope he gets expelled. My mind whispered "How is Frank doing?" I wanted to know if he was alright. When I was torn from him he was crying over me which is wrong. Mikey was surly still in class perfectly fine. It was now 3:45 though and they were out of school. Would they come see me? Grandma couldn't she was bed ridden for the next two weeks after having a stroke. I heard a small knock on my door. "Come in." I watched the door open ever so slowly. I wanted nothing more than to see a smiling face of one of my friends. I smiled when Frank's head came into the room. He walked in calmly with his hand behind his back. I whispered "Thank God someone cares about me." He smiled at me softly
"Hi Gee. Are you alright?" I nodded to him. I whispered
"Sit down Frankie. I promise not to bite." He giggled as he sat on the edge of the hospital bed. Every nerve in my body screamed "Kiss him you fool." I knew it was just my hormones. Frank looked at the ground. He was so quiet. "Frank, this is not your fault."
"Yes it is!" he sobbed.
"No, I refuse to blame you for this." He looked up at me. I smiled at him even if it was fake to reassure him. I felt the bed spread shift as he whispered
"I brought something for you." I glanced at him nervously.
"What is it Frankie?" He pulled out a small box of crayons behind his back. I gave a quizzical look to him.
"Open it up Gee." I did as Frank commanded to find the most beautiful thing anyone ever had given me. Inside was all black crayons. I felt a tear rush down my smiling face. Frank brushed it away. "I know it is stupid but..." I cut him off
"No Frankie it is wonderful. I love it so much." He beamed and whispered
"Really?"
"Yes how did you know?" Frank confessed
"Mikey told me." I laughed as my little brother walked in. I felt wonderful and elated as Mikey leaned down and hugged me. Frank looked at Mikey and he whispered something to Frank. I sighed
"Well, can I know what is so secretive?" They both shook their heads. I sighed again this time rolling over able to look out the window. I was late October now all the leaves were falling. I shivered "Why are hospitals so damn cold?" Frank cooed
"Here." as he lie his sweatshirt onto me and I put it on. He smiled at me so innocently. I lost my breathing for a moment. I smiled back at him. Something about Frank made me want to open up and confess about every awful secret I have to him. He was just so warm and inviting. Mikey whispered
"I'm gonna go get some coffee." As he said that Mikey ran out of the room. I looked at Frank desperately trying to read his blank stare. I felt Frank's hand on my back lightly rubbing it. He then whispered
"Gee, can I tell you something?"
I smiled "Anything Frankie."
"Gee, I just want to you to know how safe and secure you make me feel. I always feel like I am able to be myself. You give me confidence. I know two days is far from forever but the happiness I have felt in these two days could have lasted me a life time." I smiled at what Frank had confessed to me. He was perfect but couldn't see it. I sighed
"You are so perfect. How did I ever meet anyone like you? I am nothing." He looked appalled
"You are far from nothing Gerard Way. You are a beautiful man with a beautiful mind full of wonder and whimsy." Gerard just looked at his lap "I vow to make you understand how truly special you are Gerard." As I said that Mikey walked back in with a coffee in his hands.
"Hey guys so, how is it going? Is everything chill?" As Mikey talked Gerard pointed at his coffee. "Oh you want some?" Mikey smiled. Gerard grinned like a five year old and nodded his head rapidly. Mikey hand Gee the hot beverage as he began to drink it. I giggled at how cute Gerard was sometimes. He smirked
"Frankie, don't laugh at me. You are exactly where I like you, you know." I smiled at him as sweetly as I could stealing his coffee and taking a gulp. Mikey snickered as Gee pouted. Mikey kissed his cheek and whispered
"My big brother is so cute. AWWWWW!" He used his best baby voice to mock Gerard who gave me puppy dog eyes. I whispered
"Not even fair Gee. I can't resist puppy eyes." Gee laughed
"Who can?" Mikey chimed in
"Heartless people." We all laughed slightly. Gee whispered
"When do I get out?" Mikey smiled
"Tomorrow the 29th." I smiled widely remembering my up coming birthday.
"Well, what are we gonna do on Halloween Mikey?" Gerard questioned.
"That is my birthday." I chimed in. Gerard smiled
"Then we shall party and by party I mean watch horror movies at your house." I laughed at his answer. He grabbed my hand "I want to make you feel special because you are special."
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I actually have another story in the process. it isn't ferard but has some in it. it's called "life isn't fair" it's on here so if you wanna check it out.
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