What wouldn't I do for you?
Smells like teen spirit
Frank [P.O.V.]
I sat on the floor now. I had hurt Gee who was lying saying he was perfectly fine. Worse than that I had royally fucked up! I was utterly useless. I hurt the guy I think I might have a crush on. Genius Frank really fucking intelligent of you. You really are unlovable. I sighed lightly looking at Gerard who smiled at me in a pained face. I knew he wasn't angry at me but that didn't stop me from being angry at myself. I looked at Mikey above me he whispered "Chill, Gee isn't upset." I closed my eyes and hoped to die. I now understood why I only had two friends. I just need to say sorry again.
"Gee, I'm really sorry!"
"Frank, calm down stop apologizing." I gave my pouty face and he laughed "I am not angry so why apologize? You didn't do it on purpose." I frowned. Why was he so understanding? Why had I been on his lap? Why am I so stupid?
"Can someone just put me out of my misery?" I muttered a little to loud. All four guys turned to me quizzically. "It is only an expression." Then I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was Brendon
"Frank, I love you. You're like my brother. Don't even joke. I know everything about you." Bren did know everything including my habits of self harm. I smiled at him. He sat next to Ryan and winked at him. I have to question them sometimes. I think they are together but I am never quite sure. I pipe up
"Ryan do you have a crush on Brendon?" Ryan goes white. I already know his answer. Brendon looks at Ryan. Ryan blushes lightly.
"That is quite the random question Frank. Why do you ask?"
"It is just the way you look at Brendon. I see that you want more than friendship, so why not just get it out in the open?" Ryan looked to Brendon who had exposed his large puppy dog eyes. Ryan whispered
"I have wanted to but not like this. Thanks a lot Frank." Ryan stood up to storm out but Brendon wrapped him in a strong hug that he just fell into. Ryan sobbed for a minute and Brendon whispered
"I am so glad to hear this. Ryan it is okay I feel the same." I looked to Gerard who sat cross legged on the bed but moved over by me.
"Way to make things kind of awkward Frank." He whispered. "I thought I was the only one who knew how to do that."
"Gee, nothing beats the time you walked in on me and Alicia. Just asked if we wanted waffles." Gerard blushed a bright fuchsia. I giggled
"Well, I don't even know how to top that."
"I honestly do the stupidest things some days. I imagine it will only get worse in the future." Gee mumbles. I push him lightly. He falls onto Mikey's leg.
"Gee, you fatty get off me!" Gee smiles. He stands up and sits on Mikey's lap
"Huh? Mikey I couldn't hear you." Mikey tried desperately to push off his brother, but failed so I helped. I got up and grabbed Gee's wrist and pulled. He was starting to budge though and I pulled one strong heave. As I did I stumbled backwards onto my bed. Gerard landed on top of me. I whispered
"Strange, this isn't where I parked my car." Mikey chimed in
"Would you like some waffles?" Gee got up embarrassed and whispered
"You too think you are so funny." I laughed with Mikey not noticing that Brendon and Ryan had left. I looked at my alarm clock that read 9:30. I yelled
"You may want to go home!"
"Shit, Gee look at the time!" They both yelled bye as they ran out the door. What a wonderful night. I lied down in bed drifting off to sleep in blissful silence just thinking of my new friends.
I sat on the floor now. I had hurt Gee who was lying saying he was perfectly fine. Worse than that I had royally fucked up! I was utterly useless. I hurt the guy I think I might have a crush on. Genius Frank really fucking intelligent of you. You really are unlovable. I sighed lightly looking at Gerard who smiled at me in a pained face. I knew he wasn't angry at me but that didn't stop me from being angry at myself. I looked at Mikey above me he whispered "Chill, Gee isn't upset." I closed my eyes and hoped to die. I now understood why I only had two friends. I just need to say sorry again.
"Gee, I'm really sorry!"
"Frank, calm down stop apologizing." I gave my pouty face and he laughed "I am not angry so why apologize? You didn't do it on purpose." I frowned. Why was he so understanding? Why had I been on his lap? Why am I so stupid?
"Can someone just put me out of my misery?" I muttered a little to loud. All four guys turned to me quizzically. "It is only an expression." Then I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was Brendon
"Frank, I love you. You're like my brother. Don't even joke. I know everything about you." Bren did know everything including my habits of self harm. I smiled at him. He sat next to Ryan and winked at him. I have to question them sometimes. I think they are together but I am never quite sure. I pipe up
"Ryan do you have a crush on Brendon?" Ryan goes white. I already know his answer. Brendon looks at Ryan. Ryan blushes lightly.
"That is quite the random question Frank. Why do you ask?"
"It is just the way you look at Brendon. I see that you want more than friendship, so why not just get it out in the open?" Ryan looked to Brendon who had exposed his large puppy dog eyes. Ryan whispered
"I have wanted to but not like this. Thanks a lot Frank." Ryan stood up to storm out but Brendon wrapped him in a strong hug that he just fell into. Ryan sobbed for a minute and Brendon whispered
"I am so glad to hear this. Ryan it is okay I feel the same." I looked to Gerard who sat cross legged on the bed but moved over by me.
"Way to make things kind of awkward Frank." He whispered. "I thought I was the only one who knew how to do that."
"Gee, nothing beats the time you walked in on me and Alicia. Just asked if we wanted waffles." Gerard blushed a bright fuchsia. I giggled
"Well, I don't even know how to top that."
"I honestly do the stupidest things some days. I imagine it will only get worse in the future." Gee mumbles. I push him lightly. He falls onto Mikey's leg.
"Gee, you fatty get off me!" Gee smiles. He stands up and sits on Mikey's lap
"Huh? Mikey I couldn't hear you." Mikey tried desperately to push off his brother, but failed so I helped. I got up and grabbed Gee's wrist and pulled. He was starting to budge though and I pulled one strong heave. As I did I stumbled backwards onto my bed. Gerard landed on top of me. I whispered
"Strange, this isn't where I parked my car." Mikey chimed in
"Would you like some waffles?" Gee got up embarrassed and whispered
"You too think you are so funny." I laughed with Mikey not noticing that Brendon and Ryan had left. I looked at my alarm clock that read 9:30. I yelled
"You may want to go home!"
"Shit, Gee look at the time!" They both yelled bye as they ran out the door. What a wonderful night. I lied down in bed drifting off to sleep in blissful silence just thinking of my new friends.
Notes
Well, another chapter!:) Do you like the song titles or are they too cliché? You tell me!Goodnight Lovlies <3
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I actually have another story in the process. it isn't ferard but has some in it. it's called "life isn't fair" it's on here so if you wanna check it out.
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