What wouldn't I do for you?
Camisado
Mikey [P.O.V.]
My body aches from what though. Light is harsh in this white room. I can hear some sort of mono-toned beeping. This damn pain in my head never ceasing. I can feel a hand I think. It could be. Did I fall asleep with someone else by me? Ray maybe... This was different though. In the time it takes my eyes to adjust to the bright light I can see them. The somber looks. The despair and disappointment. Ryan is cuddled into Brendon sobbing lightly. Brendon hums something but it clearly is to no avail. Gerard and Frank both trying to not look at me. They have red faces and eyes to match. They all have purple bags under their eyes. Finally I see Ray in the fetal position in the corner. His mouth moves slightly as though he were muttering something. I hear a voice whisper,
"Guys, his eyes are open. Some one call the doctor."
Gerard is out the door faster than I have ever seen his not-so-athletic body go. Frank is by my bed fast as well. He whispers,
"Oh my God I was so worried. I was so scared. I thought I hadn't found you in time."
Found me in time. The words don't register with me at first though. I can't place why he would say such a weird statement. Then my thoughts hit me. The bandages on my wrist give it all away. I feel tears in my eyes. I feel a hand on my forehead. It is Ryan as he whispers,
"Why?"
I honestly can't remember that night. I just though I was going to die alone, unloved like I had always imagined. I whisper,
"I just can't do this on my own. I can't handle it anymore."
I feel Ray grab my hand. He whispers,
"You were never alone. I am here, always, from now on."
My eyes water and Gerard comes back in with a doctor. Gerard tries to smile but it is ruined by his tear stained eyes. Tears he shed because of me, because he loves me. Tears they all shed because they love me. What more could I ask for than to be loved by my family. Gerard whispers,
"I know this isn't great time, but Grandma passed on. Sometime last week. She went in her sleep from pneumonia she caught after having a cold for so long."
I wasn't shocked in the slightest I saw this coming. So had everyone, but where did that leave us. I wondered if this meant going back to them? I surely hoped not. They aren't where I want to be. Gerard must see the worry in my eyes as he says,
"I know we can do this Mikey. We can handle this. I'm almost 18 after that we leave. Gone for good."
Ray gives me the most warm loving look I have ever received and for a moment everything feels as though it will be alright, even though I know it's not.
My body aches from what though. Light is harsh in this white room. I can hear some sort of mono-toned beeping. This damn pain in my head never ceasing. I can feel a hand I think. It could be. Did I fall asleep with someone else by me? Ray maybe... This was different though. In the time it takes my eyes to adjust to the bright light I can see them. The somber looks. The despair and disappointment. Ryan is cuddled into Brendon sobbing lightly. Brendon hums something but it clearly is to no avail. Gerard and Frank both trying to not look at me. They have red faces and eyes to match. They all have purple bags under their eyes. Finally I see Ray in the fetal position in the corner. His mouth moves slightly as though he were muttering something. I hear a voice whisper,
"Guys, his eyes are open. Some one call the doctor."
Gerard is out the door faster than I have ever seen his not-so-athletic body go. Frank is by my bed fast as well. He whispers,
"Oh my God I was so worried. I was so scared. I thought I hadn't found you in time."
Found me in time. The words don't register with me at first though. I can't place why he would say such a weird statement. Then my thoughts hit me. The bandages on my wrist give it all away. I feel tears in my eyes. I feel a hand on my forehead. It is Ryan as he whispers,
"Why?"
I honestly can't remember that night. I just though I was going to die alone, unloved like I had always imagined. I whisper,
"I just can't do this on my own. I can't handle it anymore."
I feel Ray grab my hand. He whispers,
"You were never alone. I am here, always, from now on."
My eyes water and Gerard comes back in with a doctor. Gerard tries to smile but it is ruined by his tear stained eyes. Tears he shed because of me, because he loves me. Tears they all shed because they love me. What more could I ask for than to be loved by my family. Gerard whispers,
"I know this isn't great time, but Grandma passed on. Sometime last week. She went in her sleep from pneumonia she caught after having a cold for so long."
I wasn't shocked in the slightest I saw this coming. So had everyone, but where did that leave us. I wondered if this meant going back to them? I surely hoped not. They aren't where I want to be. Gerard must see the worry in my eyes as he says,
"I know we can do this Mikey. We can handle this. I'm almost 18 after that we leave. Gone for good."
Ray gives me the most warm loving look I have ever received and for a moment everything feels as though it will be alright, even though I know it's not.
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I actually have another story in the process. it isn't ferard but has some in it. it's called "life isn't fair" it's on here so if you wanna check it out.
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