What wouldn't I do for you?
All by Myself
Mikey [P.O.V.]
I was intently listening to Ryan. He was so vulnerable then. I could see the truth in his eyes. He was hurting badly. Pete had caused him such emotional damage. How could the man I thought was so wonderful and sweet be that heartless toward one of my friends? I walked out of the room as noticeably as I could. I was going to get Pete's side of this tragic tale as well.
I was halfway up the front porch when Pete sauntered out in his black hoodie. He smiled at me so sweetly I wanted to melt then I thought of Ryan and his sad desperate eyes. I looked directly into Pete's dark eyes,
"What happened between you and Ryan?" He just smirked,
"Ryan was my first and I was his first. It was really awkward and ruined our friendship." I whispered,
"That isn't what I heard."
"What did you hear?" He questioned.
"I heard that you raped him that's why you aren't friends anymore." I sighed a little at the end. Pete's look changed from despair to realization to fear. He mumbled
"Oh my, I didn't did I? Was I wrong? Why am I such a monster?" I looked at him. He had a tear in his eye. "I need to talk to Ryan."
We got back to my house pretty fast. Pete lived fairly close anyways. I watched as Pete was shaking. I wondered if this was all just an act of his. A charade for the masses. I watched closely as Pete followed me into Gerard and Franks' room. Ryan saw him and hid behind Brendon more than usual. Pete sobbed,
"Ryan, I'm sorry. I didn't know you didn't want it."
"I yelled 'no' the entire time Pete! How could you not realize?" Ryan cried. Pete walked toward him and went to caress his face. Ryan backed off into Brendon's shoulder blade. Pete sighed,
"I am a pitiful excuse for a human being. I was a terrible friend."
"The worst part was you never apologized. You ignored me. You saw me sit alone all the time. I was so lonely. You watched as I faded to nothing. I had no friends and parents who could careless. You knew it all and never did a damn thing. I resent not only you for everything, but myself for ever being so weak. You are the reason I despise who I am now and who I was then. Brendon tries to help me, but he can only fix so much damage. I am beyond repair now. I am broken, and I never blamed you. I always blamed myself for being too damn weak to help myself in a time of need." Ryan sobbed out. I felt stunned as he showed us all who we are truly friends with. Gerard stood up tall,
"Guys, Ryan has shared now I would like to." My older brother took a deep inhale then exhale. "I am weak too. I have been abused by my parents for the last 17 years of my life. My father is a drug addicted crack dealer and my mother a drunk. They have been abusing Mikey and I for as long as I can remember. This year they finally kicked us out. We don't live with Grandma Daloris by choice but because no one else wanted us. I feel awful that she is so sick and we pester her with our minor indiscretions I feel like the worst person in the world because all Frank wants to do is make me happy and sometimes I feel as though I feel no emotion ever. I was born damaged and my heart has been shattered. Frank is the only guy who has ever wanted to put the pieces back together. I don't know why he does what he does but I love him for it."
"Gerard, you are worth every effort that I give. I love you too." Whispered Frank so soft and lovely. I felt a tear prick my eye. Pete whispered,
"I think I should leave. I don't belong here. I'm sorry." I tried to say something but he walked out the door too fast. I hoped he was okay but I was need here more than what he could ever need me.
I was intently listening to Ryan. He was so vulnerable then. I could see the truth in his eyes. He was hurting badly. Pete had caused him such emotional damage. How could the man I thought was so wonderful and sweet be that heartless toward one of my friends? I walked out of the room as noticeably as I could. I was going to get Pete's side of this tragic tale as well.
I was halfway up the front porch when Pete sauntered out in his black hoodie. He smiled at me so sweetly I wanted to melt then I thought of Ryan and his sad desperate eyes. I looked directly into Pete's dark eyes,
"What happened between you and Ryan?" He just smirked,
"Ryan was my first and I was his first. It was really awkward and ruined our friendship." I whispered,
"That isn't what I heard."
"What did you hear?" He questioned.
"I heard that you raped him that's why you aren't friends anymore." I sighed a little at the end. Pete's look changed from despair to realization to fear. He mumbled
"Oh my, I didn't did I? Was I wrong? Why am I such a monster?" I looked at him. He had a tear in his eye. "I need to talk to Ryan."
We got back to my house pretty fast. Pete lived fairly close anyways. I watched as Pete was shaking. I wondered if this was all just an act of his. A charade for the masses. I watched closely as Pete followed me into Gerard and Franks' room. Ryan saw him and hid behind Brendon more than usual. Pete sobbed,
"Ryan, I'm sorry. I didn't know you didn't want it."
"I yelled 'no' the entire time Pete! How could you not realize?" Ryan cried. Pete walked toward him and went to caress his face. Ryan backed off into Brendon's shoulder blade. Pete sighed,
"I am a pitiful excuse for a human being. I was a terrible friend."
"The worst part was you never apologized. You ignored me. You saw me sit alone all the time. I was so lonely. You watched as I faded to nothing. I had no friends and parents who could careless. You knew it all and never did a damn thing. I resent not only you for everything, but myself for ever being so weak. You are the reason I despise who I am now and who I was then. Brendon tries to help me, but he can only fix so much damage. I am beyond repair now. I am broken, and I never blamed you. I always blamed myself for being too damn weak to help myself in a time of need." Ryan sobbed out. I felt stunned as he showed us all who we are truly friends with. Gerard stood up tall,
"Guys, Ryan has shared now I would like to." My older brother took a deep inhale then exhale. "I am weak too. I have been abused by my parents for the last 17 years of my life. My father is a drug addicted crack dealer and my mother a drunk. They have been abusing Mikey and I for as long as I can remember. This year they finally kicked us out. We don't live with Grandma Daloris by choice but because no one else wanted us. I feel awful that she is so sick and we pester her with our minor indiscretions I feel like the worst person in the world because all Frank wants to do is make me happy and sometimes I feel as though I feel no emotion ever. I was born damaged and my heart has been shattered. Frank is the only guy who has ever wanted to put the pieces back together. I don't know why he does what he does but I love him for it."
"Gerard, you are worth every effort that I give. I love you too." Whispered Frank so soft and lovely. I felt a tear prick my eye. Pete whispered,
"I think I should leave. I don't belong here. I'm sorry." I tried to say something but he walked out the door too fast. I hoped he was okay but I was need here more than what he could ever need me.
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I actually have another story in the process. it isn't ferard but has some in it. it's called "life isn't fair" it's on here so if you wanna check it out.
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