Frank [P.O.V.]

The school was gloomy with the overcast weather. I felt the chill as I stepped onto the pavement. Gerard walked over and put an arm around my shivering shoulders. Brendon was standing alone by the steps. He starred furiously at the ground. I knew that Ryan wouldn't be in school today or maybe for a while. I sauntered to Brendon hoping to help. He looked at me and began to sob. He whispered
"Frank, he's in the hospital again. His depression isn't well enough under control. He is cutting again and the voices came back." I hushed my sad friend. He clung to my chest. Gerard mouthed 'what should I do?' I whispered
"Brendon, do you wanna skip today with Gerard, Mikey and, me?" Brendon sighed
"Please." I put an arm around his shoulders though I was sizable shorter than him. My position was awkward but important none the less. We got into Gee's vehicle and drove away. I was in the pasanger seat looking at my defeated friend
"Bren, what do you wanna do? Go visit Ryan, maybe take some ice cream to him like last time?" Bren smiled
"Can we? That made him so happy last time." Gerard smiled lightly
"Yes, we all want our little Ryro to feel better." I smiled and kissed Gerard's temple lightly.

We arrived at the hospital. A large black nurse lead us to Ryan's room. He sat in there with a small note book on his lap. He was in dark sweats and a loose t-shirt. He smiled as we walked in.
"Hey guys, I see you skipped school." Brendon walked over to him and kissed his forehead.
"Just for our little Ryro. I love you." Ryan smiled specially at Brendon. He mouthed 'love you too.' and blew and air kiss. Brendon sat down and put an arm around him. I stepped forward
"Ry, we brought you something wonderful." He smirked
"What is that Frank?" I giggled
"Um, fucking Rocky Road ice cream of course." Ryan smiled
"Many thanks. The food here sucks." I sat down on his other side. Both Way brothers stood awkwardly on the other side of the room. Before I could speak Ryan rose to his feet. He walked over and hugged Gerard tightly he whispered
"I'm sorry you had to see my like that." He then walked over to Mikey embraced him and whispered
"I heard about the bitch and I give you my sincerest apologies. I don't have many friends but I feel like all my friends are like my brothers and that includes you both. So if your hurt I am." Gerard whispered
"Trust me, the feeling is mutual." Ryan smiled
"Good then come get some fucking ice cream." We all sat down joking, laughing and eating ice cream. I smiled looking at my wonderful family. I loved them all so much. What would I do if I didn't have one of them. My world would shatter to pieces. Mikey smiled at us all
"Guys, good news. Last night I burned Alicia's picture. Geronimo watched it happen." Ryan whispered
"Who is Geronimo?" At the same time Gerard and I said
"Mikey's beloved puppy." Brendon snorted
"They are already like a married couple. Oh my fucking Jupiter." I looked at him quizzically
"Jupiter?" He smirked
"It's my nick name for Ryan's balls" Ryan yelled at his boyfriend
"It is not you liar." Brendon laughed
"I should be." Ryan went to retort but Brendon landed their lips together making Ryan's eyes flutter shut. I was so happy until that feeling came back. I had vomit in my throat and ran for the nearest toilet. Gerard followed my and rubbed my back as I expelled my stomach content. I looked at him desperately. Gerard whispered
"Frank, we should take you to see a doctor." I shook furiously.
"I hate doctors Gee. They always poke and prod at me. They scare me." Gerard rubbed my back again whispering in my ear
"I will be right there with you baby." I sighed as I had ruined yet another lovely moment. What was wrong with me?

Notes

So yes an update... Okay I need to speak seriously. Today I was informed by a classmate that if I had more happy music on my Ipod I would not be so negative and depressed all the time.
1) I am not now or have I ever suffered from depression.
2) It is not okay to judge me for the music I enjoy. I relate to the lyrics. Sorry I can't relate to chillen with hoes in a cheap motel room, though you can.
3) I would appreciate it if you kept your mouth shut. I don't need your overly optimistic view point skewing my realist views on the world.
4) It is not okay to say you hate being judged, then turn around and judge me because I am different.
5) No one should ever be aloud to judge you. If you have similar issues with being mocked or judged for what you enjoy tell me. I understand exactly where you are coming from. I am very liberal in a conservative country school.