What wouldn't I do for you?
Only Hope
Frank [P.O.V.]
The days events had been weighing on my mind all day. I sat in Gerard's bedroom which was also sort of mine for the time being. I mean I slept in his bed with him for a couple nights now because the couch was old and lumpy. His grandmother was so sweet. She was finally able to walk again a little after her stroke. The left side of her face was paralyzed but she had been starting to be able to move to her normal ability again.
Everything had been so fast paced today. The ceiling above me was a calming green color though and that made everything feel just a bit better. I watched as the lights danced. Gerard was in the kitchen doing God knows what. I wish he would sit by me. I need him for support. Was that a dependency? I really hope not because I was capable of living on my own, I would just prefer to be with him. I heard a small creek as the door came open. I looked to see Gerard standing in the door. He looked different though. His hair was brushed, he had on eyeliner, his shirt was just a bit undone with the top two buttons. His tie was loose around his neck. He looked to be the sexiest man I had ever seen. I mouthed 'wow' as I could already feel an erection coming on. Gerard swayed his hips as he walked over to me. He lightly kissed my lips once as I begged for more. He smirked at me and whispered
"I hear you had a rough day baby. Let me make it better." Gerard then starts to kiss my neck softly. He grazes his tongue over it. I moan a little. He sense an opportunity and lunges on me. He is straddling my waist. I looked into his longing gaze and whispered
"You already have baby." Gerard connected our lips with a hot passion. He was everything I wanted and I could feel the love rising in my throat. No that wasn't love. That was vomit. I pulled away and ran to the bathroom. I expelled my stomach content with a fury. I wish I could just die already. I fucked up everything. Can I do anything right. Gerard came in and he sat beside me rubbing my back lightly. I whispered
"I am so sorry Gee." He hushed me and cooed
"It's okay, I understand your sick baby. I'm sorry if you told me I would have stopped." I sobbed
"I wish I had known." He held me to his chest for a few minutes. He got up carrying me to our soft bed. He placed me in it gently. I watched as he left the room for a minute then came back with crackers and gingerale. He sat down next to me and whispered
"Drink this it will settle your stomach baby." I did as he told me. Gerard got into his pajamas and laid down next to me. He wrapped a strong arm around me. I snuggled in closer to his chest to try and feel better. He was warm and my body was shaking. I looked into his dark eyes and saw nothing but compassion and I felt nothing but loved as I fell asleep in my lovers arms.
Mikey [P.O.V.]
My heart ached as the I re-read the text from Alicia.
'Sorry this just isn't right.'
What wasn't right, me? Probably drove her away with my crazy ideas and nerdy ways. Everything I did was wrong. Maybe I was unlovable? Could I never find true happiness? I looked in the small mirror. I picked up a photo of her and my lighter. I burned the photo. He face was gone. I was able to be loved, she wasn't. I have friends, I have family, and I have someone special to me. I called to my small puppy Geronimo and he came bounding over. His black paws were too cute. I looked into his blueish eyes and felt loved. Even if I know longer hand Alicia, I had someone there for me and that is all I need.
The days events had been weighing on my mind all day. I sat in Gerard's bedroom which was also sort of mine for the time being. I mean I slept in his bed with him for a couple nights now because the couch was old and lumpy. His grandmother was so sweet. She was finally able to walk again a little after her stroke. The left side of her face was paralyzed but she had been starting to be able to move to her normal ability again.
Everything had been so fast paced today. The ceiling above me was a calming green color though and that made everything feel just a bit better. I watched as the lights danced. Gerard was in the kitchen doing God knows what. I wish he would sit by me. I need him for support. Was that a dependency? I really hope not because I was capable of living on my own, I would just prefer to be with him. I heard a small creek as the door came open. I looked to see Gerard standing in the door. He looked different though. His hair was brushed, he had on eyeliner, his shirt was just a bit undone with the top two buttons. His tie was loose around his neck. He looked to be the sexiest man I had ever seen. I mouthed 'wow' as I could already feel an erection coming on. Gerard swayed his hips as he walked over to me. He lightly kissed my lips once as I begged for more. He smirked at me and whispered
"I hear you had a rough day baby. Let me make it better." Gerard then starts to kiss my neck softly. He grazes his tongue over it. I moan a little. He sense an opportunity and lunges on me. He is straddling my waist. I looked into his longing gaze and whispered
"You already have baby." Gerard connected our lips with a hot passion. He was everything I wanted and I could feel the love rising in my throat. No that wasn't love. That was vomit. I pulled away and ran to the bathroom. I expelled my stomach content with a fury. I wish I could just die already. I fucked up everything. Can I do anything right. Gerard came in and he sat beside me rubbing my back lightly. I whispered
"I am so sorry Gee." He hushed me and cooed
"It's okay, I understand your sick baby. I'm sorry if you told me I would have stopped." I sobbed
"I wish I had known." He held me to his chest for a few minutes. He got up carrying me to our soft bed. He placed me in it gently. I watched as he left the room for a minute then came back with crackers and gingerale. He sat down next to me and whispered
"Drink this it will settle your stomach baby." I did as he told me. Gerard got into his pajamas and laid down next to me. He wrapped a strong arm around me. I snuggled in closer to his chest to try and feel better. He was warm and my body was shaking. I looked into his dark eyes and saw nothing but compassion and I felt nothing but loved as I fell asleep in my lovers arms.
Mikey [P.O.V.]
My heart ached as the I re-read the text from Alicia.
'Sorry this just isn't right.'
What wasn't right, me? Probably drove her away with my crazy ideas and nerdy ways. Everything I did was wrong. Maybe I was unlovable? Could I never find true happiness? I looked in the small mirror. I picked up a photo of her and my lighter. I burned the photo. He face was gone. I was able to be loved, she wasn't. I have friends, I have family, and I have someone special to me. I called to my small puppy Geronimo and he came bounding over. His black paws were too cute. I looked into his blueish eyes and felt loved. Even if I know longer hand Alicia, I had someone there for me and that is all I need.
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I actually have another story in the process. it isn't ferard but has some in it. it's called "life isn't fair" it's on here so if you wanna check it out.
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