What wouldn't I do for you?
The Best of You
Frank [P.O.V.]
My birthday was ruined. I hated my mother some days. I missed her being happy. Her warm inviting smile had faded to pure hatred when my father left and it was easier to find fault in me than herself. She had blamed me for my father's leaving. I was five how could it be my fault? I was always abused told to be worthless, unloved and ugly. I remembered the first day she had yelled I was an ugly little bastard and always would be. Now I lay on the couch in Gerard's room starring at the tiled ceiling. He was discussing something with his grandmother who coughed loudly every now and again. I felt bad because she was all Mikey and Gerard had. If she passed where would they go? A muffled noise sounded alerting me. I saw Gerard standing in the door way. He whispered
"There are ground rules but you are welcome to stay as long as you need to." I sighed
"Well, thank you what are the rules?" He sat down on his small bed and muttered
"No smoking in the house, no drugs, alcohol if its the weekend only, no sex in the house." I looked at him puzzled. He motioned for me to come over to him. I sat down next to him he pulled me onto his lap and whispered "It's better here for you I promise." I nuzzled my head into his shoulder. Gerard stroked my hair softly and hushed me as I sobbed a little. My entire heart felt like it had been ripped from my chest thrown on the ground and stomped on. I whispered
"Where will I be sleeping? I'm really tired." Gerard helped me stand up and followed my actions. He sighed a little
"I will take the couch you take my bed you need the rest more than I do right now." I softly said
"You are still hurt though I would feel awful if I took your bed." I saw Gerard's poker face faze for a moment. He whispered
"Frankie, you are too sweet for your own good." He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me in tightly. He kissed my forehead. I burried my face in his chest. whispering
"I don't wanna be alone." He sighed
"You won't be I'm here. Always here." I smiled a bit and pulled away taking his hand. I sat down on the bed and he laid down next to me. I laid down to match and rested my head softly on his chest. I listened to his heart beat and the rhythm of his breathing put me in a trance. Every nerve in my body felt like a live wire. I heard him speak softly "Frankie, you know I would never hurt you like she did right?" I knew Gerard wouldn't he was nothing like her. He was so calm, rational and understanding. I looked up with pleading eyes
"Gerard, please don't even think for the slightest amount of time that I would believe you are anything like her." His lips twitched for a smile. I moved down and softly kissed his lips. With gentle movements he kissed me back. I felt the perfection in the air around us. I pulled away to see hurt in his usually dull eyes. I smiled whispering into his lips
"You are so beautiful Gee. I feel complete with you here. Perfection." Gerard kissed me again this time with more passion and intensity. I smiled in the kiss making him hit my teeth. He smiled back softly. I looked into his gorgeous eyes. He put and arm around me to cuddle again. I whispered
"Can we watch another movie?" He giggled a little
"Yes my Frankie."
"Oh, I'm your Frankie now?"
"Well, I thought so but I would understand if your not."
"I want you too be mine Gerard, so I can be your Frankie." Gee looked down and smiled. I ran my hand through his blond hair that was getting a little longer. He looked so soft and delicate like this. For being so strong Gerard looked very feminine. I found it strangely attractive how enticed I was by the girly sway of his hips as he walked so effortless and gracefully around. I stifled a giggle as Gerard walked to the small TV in the room. He nearly fell on an extension cord. He turned to me
"Don't laugh at me. I'm special. You love it about me don't lie." I stood up and walked to Gerard hugging him tightly.
"Everything about you is special to me Gee. You are special to me." He smiled at me with a tear in the corner of his eye. I kissed it away and smiled "Can we watch the nightmare before Christmas?" He laughed at me light heartedly
"Anything for you my dear." We got the movie set up and re-positioned on the bed. I was safely placed in Gerard's warm embrace. I loved this movie but watching Gerard's face was much more fun. He smiled and frowned at times. I kissed his chin and he whispered
"What?"
"Nothing, you are just so cute." He chuckled at the thought and continued watching. Finally I felt my eyes growing heavier. I was so comfy with Gee it was hard to keep awake. I felt the blackness of sleep over take.
I awoke in Gerard's bed wrapped in his arms. We were spooning and I loved it. My entire body felt great. I didn't want to move and wake Gerard though. I looked at the clock which read 5:17 which was way too early. I closed my eyes trying to fall back to sleep which wasn't too difficult.
I woke with a sudden rush. I turned to find Gerard missing. I was panicking for a moment. I looked to the door way to see Gerard walking in with two coffee mugs. He whispered
"I was hoping to not have to wake you. You looked so angelic sleeping." I smiled seeing the beautiful brown nectar in the cups. Gerard handed me one and I sipped it. It burnt my tongue at first but I got used to it. I saw the clock said 7:30. I sighed
"School in 30 minutes?" Gee laughed
"We are so skipping." I smiled and whispered
"Then why are we up?" he came up to my face so sexually
"I couldn't wait any longer to see your sexy bed hair." I kissed him softly. He tasted like coffee and cigarettes. I whispered
"Can I bum a smoke?" Gee kissed me and smiled taking out his pack from his pajama pockets. He pulled out a cigarette and placed it in his mouth lightly then put in my mouth and handed me his lighter
"Outside Frankie. There is an ashtray on the porch." I walked out quietly. The cancer stick was so nice and relaxing. I had craved one so much. I stood there smoking until I felt a hand slip around my waist. A hushed voice said "Feeling better baby?" I nodded slightly smiling as Gerard nipped at my neck. I whispered
"What would the neighbors say?" He giggled
"Who cares?" I smiled turning to him. He took a puff of the stick and blew the smoke in my face. I laughed as he kissed my nose gently. Everything felt wonderful until none other than Zayn Malik walked by and yelled
"Faggots!" I sighed as Gerard petted my hair soothingly.
"We are better than him. He is a judgmental asshole." I whispered
"I know, it's just, why us?" He shrugged slightly. I kept my head in his chest for a minute or so. I was just going to have to make the best of this life and with Gerard there it would be. I whispered "Where would I be without you?" He smiled and kissed my lips gently. I mumbled "There is no where I would rather be than right here." He pulled away and whispered
"I know exactly how you feel."
My birthday was ruined. I hated my mother some days. I missed her being happy. Her warm inviting smile had faded to pure hatred when my father left and it was easier to find fault in me than herself. She had blamed me for my father's leaving. I was five how could it be my fault? I was always abused told to be worthless, unloved and ugly. I remembered the first day she had yelled I was an ugly little bastard and always would be. Now I lay on the couch in Gerard's room starring at the tiled ceiling. He was discussing something with his grandmother who coughed loudly every now and again. I felt bad because she was all Mikey and Gerard had. If she passed where would they go? A muffled noise sounded alerting me. I saw Gerard standing in the door way. He whispered
"There are ground rules but you are welcome to stay as long as you need to." I sighed
"Well, thank you what are the rules?" He sat down on his small bed and muttered
"No smoking in the house, no drugs, alcohol if its the weekend only, no sex in the house." I looked at him puzzled. He motioned for me to come over to him. I sat down next to him he pulled me onto his lap and whispered "It's better here for you I promise." I nuzzled my head into his shoulder. Gerard stroked my hair softly and hushed me as I sobbed a little. My entire heart felt like it had been ripped from my chest thrown on the ground and stomped on. I whispered
"Where will I be sleeping? I'm really tired." Gerard helped me stand up and followed my actions. He sighed a little
"I will take the couch you take my bed you need the rest more than I do right now." I softly said
"You are still hurt though I would feel awful if I took your bed." I saw Gerard's poker face faze for a moment. He whispered
"Frankie, you are too sweet for your own good." He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me in tightly. He kissed my forehead. I burried my face in his chest. whispering
"I don't wanna be alone." He sighed
"You won't be I'm here. Always here." I smiled a bit and pulled away taking his hand. I sat down on the bed and he laid down next to me. I laid down to match and rested my head softly on his chest. I listened to his heart beat and the rhythm of his breathing put me in a trance. Every nerve in my body felt like a live wire. I heard him speak softly "Frankie, you know I would never hurt you like she did right?" I knew Gerard wouldn't he was nothing like her. He was so calm, rational and understanding. I looked up with pleading eyes
"Gerard, please don't even think for the slightest amount of time that I would believe you are anything like her." His lips twitched for a smile. I moved down and softly kissed his lips. With gentle movements he kissed me back. I felt the perfection in the air around us. I pulled away to see hurt in his usually dull eyes. I smiled whispering into his lips
"You are so beautiful Gee. I feel complete with you here. Perfection." Gerard kissed me again this time with more passion and intensity. I smiled in the kiss making him hit my teeth. He smiled back softly. I looked into his gorgeous eyes. He put and arm around me to cuddle again. I whispered
"Can we watch another movie?" He giggled a little
"Yes my Frankie."
"Oh, I'm your Frankie now?"
"Well, I thought so but I would understand if your not."
"I want you too be mine Gerard, so I can be your Frankie." Gee looked down and smiled. I ran my hand through his blond hair that was getting a little longer. He looked so soft and delicate like this. For being so strong Gerard looked very feminine. I found it strangely attractive how enticed I was by the girly sway of his hips as he walked so effortless and gracefully around. I stifled a giggle as Gerard walked to the small TV in the room. He nearly fell on an extension cord. He turned to me
"Don't laugh at me. I'm special. You love it about me don't lie." I stood up and walked to Gerard hugging him tightly.
"Everything about you is special to me Gee. You are special to me." He smiled at me with a tear in the corner of his eye. I kissed it away and smiled "Can we watch the nightmare before Christmas?" He laughed at me light heartedly
"Anything for you my dear." We got the movie set up and re-positioned on the bed. I was safely placed in Gerard's warm embrace. I loved this movie but watching Gerard's face was much more fun. He smiled and frowned at times. I kissed his chin and he whispered
"What?"
"Nothing, you are just so cute." He chuckled at the thought and continued watching. Finally I felt my eyes growing heavier. I was so comfy with Gee it was hard to keep awake. I felt the blackness of sleep over take.
I awoke in Gerard's bed wrapped in his arms. We were spooning and I loved it. My entire body felt great. I didn't want to move and wake Gerard though. I looked at the clock which read 5:17 which was way too early. I closed my eyes trying to fall back to sleep which wasn't too difficult.
I woke with a sudden rush. I turned to find Gerard missing. I was panicking for a moment. I looked to the door way to see Gerard walking in with two coffee mugs. He whispered
"I was hoping to not have to wake you. You looked so angelic sleeping." I smiled seeing the beautiful brown nectar in the cups. Gerard handed me one and I sipped it. It burnt my tongue at first but I got used to it. I saw the clock said 7:30. I sighed
"School in 30 minutes?" Gee laughed
"We are so skipping." I smiled and whispered
"Then why are we up?" he came up to my face so sexually
"I couldn't wait any longer to see your sexy bed hair." I kissed him softly. He tasted like coffee and cigarettes. I whispered
"Can I bum a smoke?" Gee kissed me and smiled taking out his pack from his pajama pockets. He pulled out a cigarette and placed it in his mouth lightly then put in my mouth and handed me his lighter
"Outside Frankie. There is an ashtray on the porch." I walked out quietly. The cancer stick was so nice and relaxing. I had craved one so much. I stood there smoking until I felt a hand slip around my waist. A hushed voice said "Feeling better baby?" I nodded slightly smiling as Gerard nipped at my neck. I whispered
"What would the neighbors say?" He giggled
"Who cares?" I smiled turning to him. He took a puff of the stick and blew the smoke in my face. I laughed as he kissed my nose gently. Everything felt wonderful until none other than Zayn Malik walked by and yelled
"Faggots!" I sighed as Gerard petted my hair soothingly.
"We are better than him. He is a judgmental asshole." I whispered
"I know, it's just, why us?" He shrugged slightly. I kept my head in his chest for a minute or so. I was just going to have to make the best of this life and with Gerard there it would be. I whispered "Where would I be without you?" He smiled and kissed my lips gently. I mumbled "There is no where I would rather be than right here." He pulled away and whispered
"I know exactly how you feel."
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