Gerard P.O.V
I know I messed up, K? I don't think I need someone to remind me of my mistakes every five seconds of the day. But then, no one else but myself is reminding me.

I let him slip away, I didn't even try to hold him back. I was so sure I had him around my finger.
Oh god, I see him talking to the girl next to him, I see the way she smiles at him. Frank used to look at me with eyes like that..
Oh god I really messed up. I honestly didn't mean to hurt him. I mean, Bob was right fucking there. Like Bob was before Frank. Me and Bob have a bigger history.. but me and Frank have a stronger chemistry..

My thoughts lead on and on about Frank. Even more when the teacher shouts at him, telling him to pay attention. I just smirk at him. Oh Frank..

But I can't help but think about how I fucked shit up now. I didn't mean to! Okay?I don't do well under pressure. I mean, with someone with anxiety as bad as mine, you can't think straight. I was under so much pressure. And I fucked up. Plus I couldn't just leave Bob, I mean. He isn't the type to just end things till he's ready. I don't even want to get into detail, I don't even want to think about it.

Sure, I could always do something about my anxiety. Pshh, I have my ways to calm me down. Sure they're horrible. But they work. Sex can never fail and drinking and smoking just help me keep my mind off of things. Kinda the reason I'm such a whore. I'm an addict. I know.

But right when i think about that word... Sex and when I look to my left.. I see him. Frank. I instantly think of all the times I turned him on in the hallways. How he slammed me against the lockers. I forget that he hates me. I lean my head back and I just imagine me and him in bed together. I palm the clothed budlge in my pants. I whisper Frank's name. Just soft enough so no one hears..


I'm towering over Frank. Grinding myself on his tiny little waist. He moans my name with each trust. Tugging my hair. I bite his lip ring. Oh, the cool metal just turns me on even more. Sending chills down my spine.
I imagine my hands crawling down his sides. Rubbing his check. His hands lost in my hair. I think of that tattoo on his neck. I swirl my tongue around the cool ink, causing him to shiver. He just calls my name out more.. Gerard.... Gerardd..

"Gerard,.... MR. WAY, QUIT YOUR DAY DREAMING. AND PAY ATTENTION PLEASE." My eyes spring open. I quickly open to see the whole class staring at me. Even Frank who just stares at my jeans. I smirk at him. Only if he really new.

Notes

OKAY HERES THE SMUT. This is why it's the rating I gave it. Yeah Gerard is a perv anddddddd a slut. But do you start to forgive Gee for what he did. I think I do. but the heat is on and enjoyy
bye guys!