Did he seriously just do that?

Fuck.

My head was to the side because of the force of the punch.

Oh my god.

Gerard. My Gerard. My mate. Just hit me?

I touched the side of my mouth –which hurt the most- and saw that my fingers were covered in blood.

I whimpered and started to cry.

Because of the pain and the disappointment and the heartbreak.

I didn’t look at Gerard.

And I didn’t care how pathetic I looked while I cowered in a corner and cried.

Cried fucking hard.

I just sat there in the corner of the room and cried.

Why would he do that?

Didn’t he love me?

Didn’t he say he would always be there for me?

Did he seriously think I would do something like that with Mikey?!

I thought he loved me.

When I looked up I saw that Gerard wasn’t there anymore

He just left me here?

I cried even harder.

“Frank?” I heard Mikey ask as he entered the rom. “Oh my- fuck! What the fuck happened?!” he crouched next to me.

“He-he…why?!!” I whimpered

“What?! Was…was it Gerard?!” he asked looking alarmed.

“Y-y-yeah!” I answered

“Fuck” he murmured before pulling me up and laying me on the bed.

I curled up and sobbed in to his pillow

“I’ll be right back.” He said as he walked out of the room

I’m not sure for how long he was out but he came back with a cloth, a bowl of water and some other stuff.

He made me sit and started to clean my lip.

I would wince every once in a while and he would mutter a ‘sorry’ and try to be gentler.

I can’t believe Gerard would do this to me.

Once Mikey was done he left to put all the stuff back to wherever-the-fuck he had gotten them from.

When he came back I noticed how worried he looked, “What happened?”

“H-he was yelling at me…and he gra-bed my wrists-s an-and he pushed and pu-pulled me and…and…and he he-he hit me!” I explained between sobs.

Mikey looked as scared as I felt.

He sat down next to me, “I have no idea what to say.” He mumbled.

“Me neither” I hiccup, “Y’know? I actually thought he might really love me, that he might actually want to be with me and that we could just maybe be happy together.”

Mikey remained silent. That’s okay, though. What I need is for someone –anyone- to just shut p and listen to me.

“I wanted to give him a try! I do love him, y’know? And it hurts so very much to know that he would do this to me”

I paused, letting a couple more tears side down my cheeks, “He said he loved me…and I believed him”

I cried for another five minutes or so and then recomposed myself, “What the fuck do I do now? Am I supposed to just forget about him? Do I forgive him...does he want me to forgive him?”

This is so confusing.

What do I do now?

I had thought my life was going to get better.

That Gerard and I would live together and be happy and buy a puppy and just stay together.

But now?

Now what?!

“I think you should calm down, first. Cry it out. And then think about it. Actually analize everything, and then decide what you want” Mikey spoke.

I want Gerard.

I want him to hug me and tell me he loves me. I want him to take me to dinner. I want him to cook for me. I want to crawl under the covers with him and let the world disappear.

I want him to want me.

Notes

SOOOOOOO, next chapter!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah, have some of frankies mind!!!!


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title from green days 'wake me up when september ends'