Ray's POV
I was walking, but not entirely aware of where I was going. I tried to push thoughts of Mikey from my mind, but somehow they kept clawing their way back in. So eventually I gave up and let them in.
I thought about when I had asked him to be my boyfriend. We had just escaped from BL/ind and I had decided to just go for it. I had asked him straight out and he had smiled at me, pecked me on the lips and said, "Is that the answer you were hoping for?"
I thought about all the kisses and hugs we had shared between then and now. I remembered when Frank and Gerard had found out and how awkward he had been, and then how he had told me later that he was so relieved that they knew because he hated keeping things from all of us, especially Gerard.
I thought about that first night that he had slept in my bed with me. How he had snuggled up against me with his arms wrapped loosely around my waist and fallen asleep like that.
I thought about all the memories until I had run out of them and then my mind just went blank. The only I thought about was where I was putting my feet, and even that was so menial that it could hardly be called thinking. I wondered for a bit if this was how it was going to be from now on, feeling empty and out of it. I know that Mikey and I hadn't been together for very long, but in the short time that we had had, I had really and truly fallen in love with him, and one of the things that hurt the most was the fact that I didn't get more time with him. But I was happy for the time that we did have together. That was when I came to a realisation, it was pretty weak, but it was all I had at the moment. I would have try and carry on for Mikey.
Frank's POV
We were all deadly silent as we walked through Battery City in what I hoped was the direction of the car. I still couldn't process what had happened and I could tell that the others were still trying process it. Ray was obviously upset, he and Mikey hadn't been together long, but I knew that they were a perfect match. And Gerard… well I didn't know quite yet what his feelings were. I mean, of course he would be upset, but was he angry or sad, how was he dealing with his hurt? Me? Well I was still processing it, but I knew that Mikey was never coming back and it felt too different without him here. I thought of him as a brother, I had lost a brother.
I was so lost in my thoughts that I didn't notice when Gerard, who was walking a little bit in front of me stopped, and I kept on walking and bumped into his back. He didn't turn and acknowledge me or anything and when I came to my senses and looked around, I saw that Ray had stopped also and there were two cars in front of us, our car, and one I assumed to belong to Tumbleweed Trail and the others.
"I'll take that one, you and Frank take the Trans Am." Ray said, and he walked towards the other car.
I jumped in the passenger side and Gee got in the driver's seat and started up the car, and then we followed Ray out of Battery City. The car ride was quiet, I knew that both our thoughts were on Mikey. "Are you okay?" I asked Gee quietly.
"No." he replied so quietly I could barely hear him. "How about you?" he asked me.
"I don't think I'm ever gonna be okay again." I said, staring out the windscreen at the car Ray was driving, I could see his fro from here. "How do you think Ray's doing?"
"Not good, he and Mikey hadn't been together long, but I could tell that they really loved each other, even if he moves on one day, he'll never get over this. I know that I'll never get over this, and I know that you won't either."
I could feel tears start to fill my eyes and for the first time that day, I let them come out and just fall down my face, I looked over at Gee and through my now distorted vision I could tears starting to fall down his face. "Do you want me to drive over for a bit?" I asked him shakily, my voice cracking in places.
He just nodded and pulled over. Gerard climbed into the passenger seat and as I got out of the car, I saw Ray stop, but he continued when he figured out that we were switching. I restarted the car and started driving. I looked over briefly and saw that Gerard had his head in hands and I could hear him sniffling. I wish that I had tissues so that I could give him some, I think I needed some too. We would all need some. The tears kept sliding down my face and sometimes the road would become blurry and I would be forced to slow down, Gee and I couldn't get in a car crash and leave poor Ray all on his own, the thought just made more tears come. At sometime during the hours of driving back to the base, the tears stopped and the ones on my face dried out. I looked over for about the hundredth time and saw that Gee was now asleep with his head against the window, I knew that he needed that sleep, today had been exhausting.
When we arrived at the base, Ray was waiting next to the other car, his eyes were slightly red and he looked like he had really been crying, wow, I hadn't seen Ray this upset in years, nor Gerard, I had just realised how weird it was seeing them this upset. I woke Gerard,gave Ray a hug and he crushed me in a giant bear hug, then he opened one of his arms and Gee joined in, it was nice, but it almost felt wrong without Mikey.
The three of us walked into the base. Cola, Tumbleweed and Exploder were all sitting at the table talking about something and they all stopped when they saw us. Tumbleweed smiled, but immediately stopped when she realised that something wrong, then her face turned to horror as she realised we were missing someone. Exploder's face was unreadable and Cola looked distraught. The room was silent.
"Kobra didn't make it." Gee somehow managed to choke out.

Notes

Sorry if this chapter was too sad, I don't like upsetting you guys. But just a warning, it could get a bit more emotional from now on, but nothing too sad.
Now about my last chapter: In real life, there are things that happen for a reason, and in stories this is probably more so, as in order to have a story you need events to happen to lead up to the other events that happen. So all I can really say is that Mikey's death wasn't just wasted words or an attempt to be an asshole, it is a part of the story just like everything else. I know that I upset some of you and I'm really sorry about that. Also, the creation of that chapter changed a lot of things about where I want this story to go, which is hopefully in a good direction.
- Agent Hydrogen <4