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I Love All The Poison

Chapter Four

Gerard's car pulls to a stop in front of the familiar house. It feels empty to me now. It's not home; it's filled with complete strangers. Home is back in Belleville with my mom and Gerard, Mikey, and Ray. This? This is nothing but hell. I don't want to be here.
I feel Gerard's hand on mine. "It's gonna be okay," He promises. "As soon as your mom gets all this shit straightened out with court, you'll be able to move back with her. I can get transferred up to the University is Newark and everything will go back to normal."
I force myself to nod, hoping like hell he's right. I see my mom's car pull in behind us and climb out. I take a deep breathe and mentally push myself toward the door, calmed only slightly by the presence of my mother and Gerard behind me. I press my finger to the doorbell and wait until the door swings open. A woman, tall and blonde, stands there smiling warmly. I want to punch her. "You must be Frank," She says.
"Yep," I say dryly, adding silently, 'and you must be the home-wrecking bitch that's been sleeping with my dad'.
"I'm Bela," The woman says, then turns into the seemingly vacant house. "Franklin! Kids!" Only a moment later, my father appears behind her.
"Frank," He says, pulling me into a reluctant hug. "It's so great to see you again. You look.... different."
I want to tell him just how different I am, but I just say, "Yeah. Where can I put my stuff?"
"Oh, umm... Derek," My dad turns around and my eyes find a tall, toned and tan, boy. "Derek, would you mind showing Frank his room?"
I roll my eyes and follow the boy into the house. My father acts like I've never been here before. Is he forgetting that I've lived here for almost ten years? I grew up in this house. This was my house, until my dad kicked me and Mom out and brought in his new family. Derek leads me down the upstairs hallway, past my old room, toward the old study. It's got a bed set up for me, along with a dresser, TV, and desk but is otherwise empty.
My mom and Gerard follow me into the room, each carrying a box. I only have a few boxes and within a few minutes they're all piled in the corner of my new room and we're all standing awkwardly in the cramped space. "I'm sorry," My dad says, watching Gerard with a critical gaze. "I didn't catch your name."
"This is Gerard," I say and Gee smiles a little. "My... friend. From Belleville." His smile falters a little and I notice even my mother cocks an eyebrow in question. "Umm... I'm gonna start unpacking," I add quickly. "Gee, can you help me out?"
"Can I have a cup of coffee?" My mother speaks up. "The drive down here was exhausting."
"Of course," Bela smiles and they leave the room.
As soon as the door is shut, Gerard turns to me. "I'm your friend?" He asks, a hurt look flashing across his beautiful features.
"You are," I say quickly. "Besides Mikey, you're my best friend."
"I'm your boyfriend," Gerard says. He sighs. "I thought we were past this, Frankie. I don't wanna be your dirty little secret again."
I shake my head. "Gee, it's not like that." I fight to find the right words, letting my head drop. I sit down on the end of my bed and take a deep breath before looking up, my gaze meeting Gerard's. "My dad doesn't know I'm gay, okay? I don't want him to know because I don't want them to take you away from me."
Gerard is silent for a moment before sitting on the mattress next to me. He reaches into my lap, his fingers interlocking with mine. "If you don't want to tell them; fine. But I hate sneaking around."
I look up, grinning. "You mean you don't miss the secrets at all? The constant risk of being caught. The adrenaline. Sneaking in through my window. Blow jobs in a storage closet. Shower sex."
Gerard smirks, winking. "Who says shower sex has to be secret? We're doing that no matter who knows." I laugh and he presses his lips to mine. "I love you, Frankie." He says softly. "So much."
I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him closer to me. "I love you, too," I say into the soft skin of his neck before smirking and biting down.
"Fuck," Gerard moans, a chill running up his body.
I laugh and pull back, our eyes meeting. He smiles and pulls our mouths back together just as the door swings open. I pull away, standing up. "You could fucking knock." I turn toward the door to see my dad standing there.
"Watch your language, Frank," He says sternly. I simply roll my eyes but inside, my heart is beating like a machine gun. Did he see anything? It doesn't seem like it, but I can't be sure, so I just stand there, watching him, waiting for him to say more. "Your mother is leaving."
"Which mother?" I wonder. "The biological one I love dearly, or the home-wrecking bitch who I'm forced to call my new step-mother?"
My dad raises his eyebrows, his nostrils flaring in anger, and the imagery makes me think of a bull. "Don't forget, you're in my custody now, Frank," He says. "I don't want this to start off badly, but I can and will ground you."
"It ended badly," I state. "Might as well start over the same way."
"Frankie," Gerard stands up and his look is pleading me to stop before the argument goes any farther.
I feel some of my anger deflate. I push past my father in the doorway and lead Gerard down the stairs into the living room. Mom smiles sadly at me and I wrap my arms around her waist. "I love you, Mom." I say.
"I love you, too, Frankie," When she pulls away, she gives Gerard a hug, too. "Take care of my boy, Gerard."
Gerard nods, glancing my way. "Always do."
Bela and my dad come into the room then and my mom moves toward the door. I watch from the doorway as my mother climbs into her car, waving one last time, before disappearing around the curve and leaving me feeling completely and utterly alone.


Just wanted to let you guys know that I won't be updating this for a few days, at least. Honestly I love this story, so I've been working on it basically non-stop, kind of abandoning all of my other stories in the process. I'll still be working on new chapters for this, but I want to focus on my other stories, mostly My Bloody Romance, 50 Shades Of Gay (my book of one shots, some of which I've included on this site,) and Close Your Eyes (my first boyxboy non-fan fiction, posted on my Wattpad account.) Until I get those three stories updated, I Love All The Poison updates will be on hold. In the meantime, though, I'd love it if you guys could check out My Bloody Romance, Danger Days, and the Danger Days sequel Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge. Warning; they're all Frerard's and My Bloody Romance is rated R. :)
Again, this isn't being discontinued, I'm just putting it on hold until I update some of my other stuff.


I just read the first story and this all in one sitting.. It was so worth it.


I fucking love the ending. I remember reading this so long ago and begging you to update if you wanted honesty and can't believe its gone. This was an amazing story

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Goodbye *what ever your calling us*

Oh my gosh. I was not expecting that. But I love this chapter!!