So guys, things haven't been great lately, which is why I still haven't updated the story. I felt the need to tell you why I haven't, since there are 32 people who read this story, even tho it's not the greatest... or at least 32 people who were kind enough to subscribe, which means A LOT to me.
My mom and I have been fighting a lot recently and she would say the meanest things to me. Yesterday, she said that I'm a horrible person and it somehow hurt more than I thought it would. And I had a panic attack. And it was bad, like, really bad. I don't remember a time I've had such a bad panic attack, really. I realized all the horrible things I've ever done and I was in pain, even psyhically. I know I have issues, but my mother doesn't seem to see it.
Now, she acts nicely, since she feels kinda guilty (I suppose) and she thinks everything's okay, but it's not, it's not okay at all. And I feel like I'm dying inside.
But my problems don't stop here, I'm going to school tomorrow. And I don't know what I'm gonna do, my depression is killing me, and now my classmates are gonna make it even worse. I've recently dyed my hair black and I have the feeling they're gonna talk about it a lot, and laugh at me. I've had self-harm issues before, but I managed to...stop. I hope it's not gonna start all over again this school year. It would be better if I had friends, but in fact, I only have one and I'm not sure if she's still my friend, actually. Everybody else I've been friends with, have left. So I don't really believe she'll be the one to stay. In short, it's gonna be hell.
I'm sorry this is so long, I just needed to spill my heart out to someone/...somewhere, and explain why I haven't been writing. I hope you will be patient with me, because this is all I want from you. I assure you I will continue writing this story, so yeah, be patient, please.
Thank you so much for reading!
Love, zombie--