Married or Not,I Hate You
Feeling of Normality
'’I wake up to a scream.The air is filled with smoke and I can barely breath. The suffocation is killing me. I try to raise up,but I’m unable to move. I’m paralyzed. The only thing I can move is my eyes,so I open them. I see a shadow over me. A black shadow. My eyes are barely open so I try to widen them. The shadow becomes clearer and I see who it is. I try to scream,but my voice is giving in. I look at the walls,they become smaller. The room has no windows ar doors and the walls are moving closer and closer to me. I continue trying to scream or move,but I can only move my eyes. A hand strokes over my cheek,I look up to the persons face. I know who it is,but I can’t see his face. I feel suffocated. I feel crushed. My body is heavy and I can’t breath.’’
The beeping from my alarm woke me up from the uncomfortable dream. The sunlight hit my face and I closed my eyes from the brightness. «Goddamnit,stupid dreams..» I got up from bed and found some clothes. I picked some plain black skinny jeans and a Misfits t-shirt,some red converse shoes and black gloves without fingers.
«Frank,you should shower. You smell like sweat from down the hall.» I jumped and nearly squealed when Jamia walked in. Jamia was a nanny,well..It’s difficult to explain. She’s only a bit older than me. Since I was very lonely when I was a kid,my parents had her move in and become some sort of babysitter. She would follow me wherever I went exepct for the bathroom and when I was going to bed. At first she was really annoying me,and vica verse. But after a good while we became bestfriends,and she’ve been ever since.
«What if I wanna smell like sweat?» My very messy bed was now made because of her. «What if I like it?» I snorted in a very arrogant manner,just for fun. Then Jamia giggled and started sorting clothes in my drawers. She’s mostly the reason why my room is clean all the time. «Well,then I’ll have to drag you into the bathroom and drown you in the tub.» I frowned. «Sounds like a cheap horror movie, ‘the nanny who killed her master in the tub’» We exchanged giggles and I decided to walk into the bathroom and take a shower,then get ready for school.
Jamia drove me to school all the time,since I hated the bus and didn’t wanna take a limo. Taking the limo made me feel like I was showing off. Besides,few people knew that I was ‘rich’. I liked it that way,I just wanted to be normal,with normal friends and a normal life. No matter how much I hated school,I’d be lying if I didn’t say it made my day a bit better.
It just made me feel normal.
When we arrived infront of the school Jamia stopped and looked at me. «Okay,don’t get in any trouble now. And call of anything happens.» I nodded. She kissed my cheek and said goodbye as I walked out of the car. Really,she’s like a mother. She was the one who gave me the motherly love when my real mum didn’t. I walked into the schoolyard and immediatley heard Ray’s voice. My head automatically turned towards his voice’s direction and I saw Bob,Ray,Matt,Ryan,Bert and Lindsey.
They were all sitting by the bench under a big hazelnut tree. Well..Some were. Matt and Bob were wrestling it seemed like,and Ray was waving at me,so I waved back. Lindsey,Bert and Ryan were also playing or something. The big tree had alot of branches,which Ryan was climbing in,Lindsey trying to follow,but was being pulled down by Bert. This was all my friends. I walked over and greeted them. «Frankie!» Lindsey skipped over to me and gave me a warm hug,and I hugged back. «Aw,goodmorning Lyns» She then started pinching my cheeks.. «Aw,little Frankie baby are so cute,yes you’re so cute yes you are» She was babytalking to me,and the others started laughing. I laughed with them.
Me and Ryan were the little babies since we’re small. Ryan Ross was also gay,but he was flaming gay. He wore alot of makeup and always flirted with boys,except for me. He was a drag-queen to be honest.
The wind-breeze running through my hair,the green soft grass tingling under my feet,the big sun on the clear blue sky warming my skin and the sight of my bestfriends surrounding me and being happy made me feel so happy. This was how I felt normal.
The beeping from my alarm woke me up from the uncomfortable dream. The sunlight hit my face and I closed my eyes from the brightness. «Goddamnit,stupid dreams..» I got up from bed and found some clothes. I picked some plain black skinny jeans and a Misfits t-shirt,some red converse shoes and black gloves without fingers.
«Frank,you should shower. You smell like sweat from down the hall.» I jumped and nearly squealed when Jamia walked in. Jamia was a nanny,well..It’s difficult to explain. She’s only a bit older than me. Since I was very lonely when I was a kid,my parents had her move in and become some sort of babysitter. She would follow me wherever I went exepct for the bathroom and when I was going to bed. At first she was really annoying me,and vica verse. But after a good while we became bestfriends,and she’ve been ever since.
«What if I wanna smell like sweat?» My very messy bed was now made because of her. «What if I like it?» I snorted in a very arrogant manner,just for fun. Then Jamia giggled and started sorting clothes in my drawers. She’s mostly the reason why my room is clean all the time. «Well,then I’ll have to drag you into the bathroom and drown you in the tub.» I frowned. «Sounds like a cheap horror movie, ‘the nanny who killed her master in the tub’» We exchanged giggles and I decided to walk into the bathroom and take a shower,then get ready for school.
Jamia drove me to school all the time,since I hated the bus and didn’t wanna take a limo. Taking the limo made me feel like I was showing off. Besides,few people knew that I was ‘rich’. I liked it that way,I just wanted to be normal,with normal friends and a normal life. No matter how much I hated school,I’d be lying if I didn’t say it made my day a bit better.
It just made me feel normal.
When we arrived infront of the school Jamia stopped and looked at me. «Okay,don’t get in any trouble now. And call of anything happens.» I nodded. She kissed my cheek and said goodbye as I walked out of the car. Really,she’s like a mother. She was the one who gave me the motherly love when my real mum didn’t. I walked into the schoolyard and immediatley heard Ray’s voice. My head automatically turned towards his voice’s direction and I saw Bob,Ray,Matt,Ryan,Bert and Lindsey.
They were all sitting by the bench under a big hazelnut tree. Well..Some were. Matt and Bob were wrestling it seemed like,and Ray was waving at me,so I waved back. Lindsey,Bert and Ryan were also playing or something. The big tree had alot of branches,which Ryan was climbing in,Lindsey trying to follow,but was being pulled down by Bert. This was all my friends. I walked over and greeted them. «Frankie!» Lindsey skipped over to me and gave me a warm hug,and I hugged back. «Aw,goodmorning Lyns» She then started pinching my cheeks.. «Aw,little Frankie baby are so cute,yes you’re so cute yes you are» She was babytalking to me,and the others started laughing. I laughed with them.
Me and Ryan were the little babies since we’re small. Ryan Ross was also gay,but he was flaming gay. He wore alot of makeup and always flirted with boys,except for me. He was a drag-queen to be honest.
The wind-breeze running through my hair,the green soft grass tingling under my feet,the big sun on the clear blue sky warming my skin and the sight of my bestfriends surrounding me and being happy made me feel so happy. This was how I felt normal.
Those wanting the rest of this story, it's on Mibba.
Same account name, same story name. Just look it up, loves.
7/5/17