Starbucks
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When the guys and I sat down at our regular table at Starbucks, I knew what was going to happen. It was just like any other Monday morning, when we would discuss the latest show, and then get to thinking about the rest of the week. Then we would all go on and lead our lives, maybe hang out for a while.
Today when I sat down though, it felt wrong. Like we we’re just going through the motions, and that there was no ‘vibe’ anymore. Gerard looked beyond tired, Ray wasn’t even here yet, Mikey was on his phone and Frank, well Frank was being Frank.
Ray finally arrived, and it all just went downhill from there. Gerard said it first.
“I… I don’t think we’re going to make it much longer.”
I didn’t want to hear the rest. They were breaking up. I got up and walked out the door. I heard someone come after me, but I didn’t turn around. Maybe I was acting like a child, but I couldn’t help it!
I knew who it was before he caught up to me. I was sitting on the bench with my back to him when Gerard said
“Sky, you see how the guys are! We’re just going through the motions as this point. The music doesn’t mean the same thing anymore. No one wants this, but it’s best for all of us.”
I didn’t look up. I couldn’t. I had known the guys all my life, and had sat in the shadows as they rose to fame. Gerard and I were practically brother and sister, for God’s sakes! I knew he was unhappy with how the band was doing, but I saw the potential they had to be something great.
In little time I was back at the table. Frankie looked like he was going to cry. He didn’t want this either. He had a fall back though, LeATHERMOUTH. They would take him in a heartbeat. I leaned over and hugged him. I felt horrible for him, seeing as the band was his family.
Ray was staring at his hands. He knew that if MCR broke up, Frankie would have nowhere to go. He’d want to stay with the guys. His parents kicked him out of the house because he was gay. No one here had judged him when he came out, and he wasn’t the only one. Although he never straight out said it, we were all pretty sure Gerard was bi. For a while me and him had a thing, but when Frank came out, he ended it with me. I wasn’t to upset, or at least I didn't want to show it. I thought they would make a great pair. It hadn’t happened yet, though.
As for Frank though, he moved into my apartment. I had lived on my own since 16, because my parents wouldn’t accept me and my boyfriend at the time. After he left me, I went to comic-con, and meet Frank. We became very close, and within a week he was my best friend. I invited him to move in when I heard about his parents. After some persuasion he accepted, and has lived with me for over four years now. He was the sweetest little boy, and didn’t like change. He couldn’t lose all of them.
Neither could I, for that matter.
“Look,” I started, “maybe the music is over, but we’re not, RIGHT? We will still be close, no matter what happens” I looked around the table. Gerard was looking at me just like he did when he won that bear for me a year ago. That dumb smile that made my heart flip. My brain in-voluntary went back to that day.
Today when I sat down though, it felt wrong. Like we we’re just going through the motions, and that there was no ‘vibe’ anymore. Gerard looked beyond tired, Ray wasn’t even here yet, Mikey was on his phone and Frank, well Frank was being Frank.
Ray finally arrived, and it all just went downhill from there. Gerard said it first.
“I… I don’t think we’re going to make it much longer.”
I didn’t want to hear the rest. They were breaking up. I got up and walked out the door. I heard someone come after me, but I didn’t turn around. Maybe I was acting like a child, but I couldn’t help it!
I knew who it was before he caught up to me. I was sitting on the bench with my back to him when Gerard said
“Sky, you see how the guys are! We’re just going through the motions as this point. The music doesn’t mean the same thing anymore. No one wants this, but it’s best for all of us.”
I didn’t look up. I couldn’t. I had known the guys all my life, and had sat in the shadows as they rose to fame. Gerard and I were practically brother and sister, for God’s sakes! I knew he was unhappy with how the band was doing, but I saw the potential they had to be something great.
In little time I was back at the table. Frankie looked like he was going to cry. He didn’t want this either. He had a fall back though, LeATHERMOUTH. They would take him in a heartbeat. I leaned over and hugged him. I felt horrible for him, seeing as the band was his family.
Ray was staring at his hands. He knew that if MCR broke up, Frankie would have nowhere to go. He’d want to stay with the guys. His parents kicked him out of the house because he was gay. No one here had judged him when he came out, and he wasn’t the only one. Although he never straight out said it, we were all pretty sure Gerard was bi. For a while me and him had a thing, but when Frank came out, he ended it with me. I wasn’t to upset, or at least I didn't want to show it. I thought they would make a great pair. It hadn’t happened yet, though.
As for Frank though, he moved into my apartment. I had lived on my own since 16, because my parents wouldn’t accept me and my boyfriend at the time. After he left me, I went to comic-con, and meet Frank. We became very close, and within a week he was my best friend. I invited him to move in when I heard about his parents. After some persuasion he accepted, and has lived with me for over four years now. He was the sweetest little boy, and didn’t like change. He couldn’t lose all of them.
Neither could I, for that matter.
“Look,” I started, “maybe the music is over, but we’re not, RIGHT? We will still be close, no matter what happens” I looked around the table. Gerard was looking at me just like he did when he won that bear for me a year ago. That dumb smile that made my heart flip. My brain in-voluntary went back to that day.
8/21/13