Don't Cry, You Pansy
Do You Wanna Hold My Hand?
It was officially the second worst day of my entire life, second but a close first.
I was running to the park, the one where I found her two years ago, she told me there was something important that she needed to tell me. I finally got there and saw her swinging back and forth on the swing
"You know you could have waited for me to come and I would've pushed you" I said smiling
She smiled at me, but this was a fake smile, a very fake smile
"What's wrong Girlie?"
"I-I'm moving tomorrow Pansy"
Did I hear correctly, was I insane, trick question. Of course I heard her, I just wish it wasn't true. I didn't fight the tears begging to be poured down my cheeks
"Don't cry, please don't cry. Pansy, please" she said soothingly
I wrapped her in a hug and didn't release her for several minutes
"Where are you moving?"
"They didn't tell me"
"Why are you moving?"
"Well yesterday, my neighbor's niece went missing and since it was so close to our own house. They decided it was about time to move out of Jersey"
Damn it, so that was who I killed last night. God damn it, I practically drove the only girl I've ever cared for away
"So this is our last night together?"
"Yeah, unless you end up moving to where I am"
I sighed, I just held onto her, I didn't want it to end. I wanted her here, with me, and I wanted us to stay hugging, forever.
"What would you do, if this was our last night together?" I asked
"I'd want us to have a song, one we'd hum whenever we missed one another" she whispered "And I don't care how cheesy that sounded"
She had a stereo with her and turned it on
I open my lungs, dear
I took a deep breath and placed my hands on her hips, she wrapped them around my neck
I sing this song at funeral, no rush
We swayed back and forth, a simple slow dance, nothing to extraordinary. Misty eyes locked on each other
These lyrics heard a thousand times, just plush
Pale lips formed into a smile, a gaze that star struck lovers share
A baby boy you've held so tightly. This pain, it visits almost nightly.
I brought her closer, if that's even possible. Her green shining through the blue of her eyes, I smiled as I thought of her and me
Missing hotel beds, I feel your touch.
Normally slow dances are practically saying 'I love you' but this one was a way of saying goodbye, but the question still lingers in the air 'Does he/she love me too?'
I will wait, Dear. A patience of eternity, My Crush.
By on lookers, they would think we were doing this just for love, they would swoon in a wave of happiness, but to us it was a slow, crushing way to say it
A universal still, No rust. No dust will ever grow on this frame.
"Zee" she whispers
"What?" I ask quietly
"My name, it's Zee"
One million years, and I will say your name. I love you more than I can ever scream
I pondered if I should tell her mine, so she could remember me
"Don't tell me your name, Pansy. You'll remember me if I call you Pansy"
We booked our flight those years ago, I said I loved you as I left you. Regrets still haunt my hollow head, but I promise you, I will see you again.
I spun her around and quickly reached her back into the embrace, her smile shining, even if tidings were bad
I sit here and smile, Dear. I smile because I think of you, and I blush.
I grabbed her hand and pulled her towards me, a light kiss. The music was gone and replaced by fireworks. It wasn't dirty, it wasn't slimy, it was simply desperate. Loving. Delicate. It was perfect, I had my on her lower back and she was holding onto my neck for dear life. I heard the end of the song play.
I said I loved you as I left you, Regrets no longer in my head, But I promised you and now I'm home again. Again. Again. I'm home again.
The song was done and that was our final goodbye, the stars twinkled around us and our hands were still together in a tight embrace
"We should take a picture of each other" I said
"That's a good idea" she smiled
I pulled out two disposable cameras and handed her one, she put her hands up to make a heart and SNAP, picture one. I did the same and smiled at the camera before it snapped. A last hug before going separate ways. Two little whispers could be heard over the sound of unaware people sleeping
"I love you" said a boy's voice
"I love you too" said a girl's voice
I was running to the park, the one where I found her two years ago, she told me there was something important that she needed to tell me. I finally got there and saw her swinging back and forth on the swing
"You know you could have waited for me to come and I would've pushed you" I said smiling
She smiled at me, but this was a fake smile, a very fake smile
"What's wrong Girlie?"
"I-I'm moving tomorrow Pansy"
Did I hear correctly, was I insane, trick question. Of course I heard her, I just wish it wasn't true. I didn't fight the tears begging to be poured down my cheeks
"Don't cry, please don't cry. Pansy, please" she said soothingly
I wrapped her in a hug and didn't release her for several minutes
"Where are you moving?"
"They didn't tell me"
"Why are you moving?"
"Well yesterday, my neighbor's niece went missing and since it was so close to our own house. They decided it was about time to move out of Jersey"
Damn it, so that was who I killed last night. God damn it, I practically drove the only girl I've ever cared for away
"So this is our last night together?"
"Yeah, unless you end up moving to where I am"
I sighed, I just held onto her, I didn't want it to end. I wanted her here, with me, and I wanted us to stay hugging, forever.
"What would you do, if this was our last night together?" I asked
"I'd want us to have a song, one we'd hum whenever we missed one another" she whispered "And I don't care how cheesy that sounded"
She had a stereo with her and turned it on
I open my lungs, dear
I took a deep breath and placed my hands on her hips, she wrapped them around my neck
I sing this song at funeral, no rush
We swayed back and forth, a simple slow dance, nothing to extraordinary. Misty eyes locked on each other
These lyrics heard a thousand times, just plush
Pale lips formed into a smile, a gaze that star struck lovers share
A baby boy you've held so tightly. This pain, it visits almost nightly.
I brought her closer, if that's even possible. Her green shining through the blue of her eyes, I smiled as I thought of her and me
Missing hotel beds, I feel your touch.
Normally slow dances are practically saying 'I love you' but this one was a way of saying goodbye, but the question still lingers in the air 'Does he/she love me too?'
I will wait, Dear. A patience of eternity, My Crush.
By on lookers, they would think we were doing this just for love, they would swoon in a wave of happiness, but to us it was a slow, crushing way to say it
A universal still, No rust. No dust will ever grow on this frame.
"Zee" she whispers
"What?" I ask quietly
"My name, it's Zee"
One million years, and I will say your name. I love you more than I can ever scream
I pondered if I should tell her mine, so she could remember me
"Don't tell me your name, Pansy. You'll remember me if I call you Pansy"
We booked our flight those years ago, I said I loved you as I left you. Regrets still haunt my hollow head, but I promise you, I will see you again.
I spun her around and quickly reached her back into the embrace, her smile shining, even if tidings were bad
I sit here and smile, Dear. I smile because I think of you, and I blush.
I grabbed her hand and pulled her towards me, a light kiss. The music was gone and replaced by fireworks. It wasn't dirty, it wasn't slimy, it was simply desperate. Loving. Delicate. It was perfect, I had my on her lower back and she was holding onto my neck for dear life. I heard the end of the song play.
I said I loved you as I left you, Regrets no longer in my head, But I promised you and now I'm home again. Again. Again. I'm home again.
The song was done and that was our final goodbye, the stars twinkled around us and our hands were still together in a tight embrace
"We should take a picture of each other" I said
"That's a good idea" she smiled
I pulled out two disposable cameras and handed her one, she put her hands up to make a heart and SNAP, picture one. I did the same and smiled at the camera before it snapped. A last hug before going separate ways. Two little whispers could be heard over the sound of unaware people sleeping
"I love you" said a boy's voice
"I love you too" said a girl's voice
Notes
I started crying while writing that, I was so sad. Just Pansy and Zee and sadness and :(Comments? Votes? LOVE YOU PEOPLE!
~Love, Lady Torment
9/16/13