Kats POV

I spent most of the journey to Gerard’s house cuddled up on Frank’s lap, he was running his fingers through my hair and occasionally kissing the top of my head. “Woah.” Gerard said, looking through the rear view mirror at us. “It’s like nothing ever happened.” Frank looked down at me through glazed eyes, an appreciative smile appeared on his face. “I guess you’re right, Gee. I don’t know how I forgot my love like that. It just…”

Frank’s words trailed off and the smile dropped from his face, as if he had just remembered something else. Something he didn’t want to remember. I was afraid. “What is it, Frank?” Everything in the car was silent. Even Gerard kept his eyes locked firmly on the road ahead, ignoring us both. Frank continued to stare into space above my head, the look on his face becoming more distressed by the second. I embraced his head in my hands and tried to pull him back to reality.

“Frank? Frank? What’s wrong?” he gasped and adverted his gaze to mine, his eyes were welling with tears. “what is it, Frank?” he pulled me close, my head against his chest and squeezed me tight. Frank’s breath was shaky and uneven, I looked up to see his fighting back the tears as much as possible. He didn’t say anything. Neither did I. I didn’t know what to say. I was so confused.

“were here, guys. C’mon, I gotta see the damage.” Gerard’s laughed as he pulled onto the crib outside his house. Frank was still silent and motionless, apart from his right hand which was gently caressing my head. “Frank, c’mon, let’s go.” I got out of the car and reluctantly took the hand of an almost zombie like Frank, leading him to the front door.

The house was already bustling with people, I looked to the kitchen to see Mikey with his head in the fridge and Ray, who seemed to be trying to flirt with a dark haired girl. I use the world flirt sparingly because it didn’t seem to be working. I was so caught up in the atmosphere of the party I didn’t even notice Frank letting go of my hand and walking out to the garage. Mikey pulled his head out of the fridge and caught my eye across the room, beckoning me to come join him for a drink.

I walked over into the kitchen just as the dark haired girl waked away from ray and left Mikey laughing at him. “Hey Kat. Glad to hear Franks okay now, right?” I screwed up my nose and looked down at my feet. Yes, Frank could remember me but I knew something was wrong. “Yeah. He’s… okay.” I tried my best to smile back at Mikey s he took a slip from the can of beer he was holding.

“Where is Frank anyway? Didn’t he even come?” Ray asked, scanning the room for him. I quickly turned around almost knocking into a young girl. She turned around to face me, it was Brie. “Oh, hi Kat.” She smiled and placed her drink on the counter. “I’m so sorry, Brie. I didn’t see you there. I… I.. was looking for Frank.” My attention drifted from Brie as I searched the room for him.

“Let’s go look for him then.” Brie said optimistically as she grabbed my arm and led me into the corridor. As we searched the rooms she told me about how Mikey had invited her because he wanted me to have a few people around I knew since most of the guests were strangers to me. “He doesn’t seem to be in the house, Brie.” I furrowed my eyebrows at her then sighed deeply. “We’ll check outside. Don’t worry, I’m sure her hasn’t run off!” Brie was trying her best to lighten my mood but the ‘I’m sure he hasn’t run off’ comment just worried me even more.

We walked side by side out of the front door and around the side of the house, Brie walked down the lawn to see if he was conversing with anyone down there. I walked up to the garage door and peered in. there was Frank, leaning against the wall looking extremely sorry for himself. He took a drag from his cigarette and spoke. I thought he’d noticed me for a second but then I adverted my eyes to the other side of the room to see Gerard.

They seemed to be having a very deep conversation but I couldn’t make out what they were saying. I stayed outside the garage door trying not to be noticed, I stood in silence for several moments. Soon the track ended and I caught the end of the conversation. “I don’t know why I did it, Gee. I thought all of that was in the past. I can’t believe I did that… I can’t believe we did that behind Kat’s back.”

My heart practically stopped. I was suddenly filled with dread. What was happening? What had Frank and Gerard done? I slid down the wall and sat on the floor, I didn’t realise my eyes were filling up with tears as Brie rushed over to me. “Kat? Are you okay?” I sat in silence. I wanted to answer her but I was speechless. My head was buzzing with possibilities of what they might have done. What did he think he’s let go of…? What had he done without me knowing? And why did it hurt me so much?

Franks POV (from leaving Kat at the door.)


I slipped away without Kat noticing. It broke my heart to do that I just needed to clear my head and a crowded room full of people wasn’t the place to do it. I walked over to the garage, grabbing a cigarette out of an open packet on the couch before heading out to the back yard. My hands became shaky as I brought my lighter up to the cigarette. “Let me help you there, Frank” my eyes darted to the side of me to see Gee, lighting my cigarette for me.

I took a long drag to try and relieve my anxiety. “What’s going on with you? You’ve been acting strange since I said everything was back to normal. Did I jinx it or something?” Gee laughed and walked into the garage. I followed awkwardly behind.

“Gee… we did something bad, man.” I said scratching my neck anxiously. He raised an eyebrow at me as he took a drink from his beer can. Gee racked his brain for a few moments before staring at me, almost gobsmacked already. “You don’t mean…? Did you tell Kat!?” I swallowed hard as Gee marched across the room towards me, the look on his face was enough to kill. “No, no. of course I didn’t. I just… I feel different now.”

By now Gee was standing inches away from me. He was a great deal taller than I was and he could easily overpower me. “What? You didn’t like it?” a huge smirk spread across his face and with that he unexpectedly pushed me against the wall causing me to drop my cigarette. “No… I liked it.” I shouldn’t have though, my conscience muttered to me from the back of my mind. Gee glanced around the room to make sure no one was watching and placed his now empty can on the floor beside us.

I stood in complete silence, waiting what was to come next. Gee stared seductively at me as he dropped to his knees, to finish what we started a few weeks ago. I was so wrong, but it felt so right.

I dropped down to the floor in front of Gee, trying to catch my breath as refastened my belt. “Did you regret that?” he said, wiping his mouth on his sleeve and laughing. I as I came back to reality I thought of Kat, and how much I loved her. I felt a sharp pain through my heart causing me to gasp. “Actually… I do, Gee. No matter how much I enjoyed that. I love Kat and this is wrong. I don’t wanna hurt my angel.”

Gee stood up and walked to the other side of the room. I lifted myself up and proceeded to light another cigarette. “You really do love her don’t you?” Gee folded his arms and was staring at the floor. I knew I’d pissed him off but I loved Kat too much to carry on, no matter how good he was. “Yeah. I really do, man. You understand right?” I smiled as I thought of Kat, I’m so glad I can remember her, I need her, I love her so much my body physically gravitates towards her when she’s around. She’s different to all the other girls. She’s mine.

“fine.” He said, furrowing his eyebrows at the ground. “Why don’t you hook up with that girl we met at our last gig, Lindsey? You seemed to be really into her, man.” I took a drag on my cigarette and looked towards Gee. He was finally starting to smile a bit. “If you love Kat so much, why did you do it Frank? I mean, you could have stopped me.”
I held my breath. He was right, I could have stopped him. “I don’t know why I did it, Gee. I thought all of that was in the past. I can’t believe I did that… I can’t believe we did that behind Kat’s back.” I was suddenly filled with deep regret.

Notes

sorry i haven't uploaded new chapters all week. I've been so busy. and I'm back to school next week so I'll post as often as i can. sorry!