My Burning Romance
So Long and Goodnight
*Frank's POV*
"No, no she's not dead." I say out loud hitting my hands on the side of my head. "Wake up Frankie, wake up." I say hitting hard. "FUCKING WAKE UP FRANKIE YOUR MOMS NOT DEAD YOU ARE DREAMING. WAKE UP. WAKE UP. WAKE UP!" I scream. But it was no use. This was reality. I wasn't dreaming. My mom was really gone. I felt angry, heartbroken, and alone. So I did what I could do, take all of those emotions out. I ripped open the cabinets and grabbed every plate I could and one by one smashed them against the kitchen walls. I knew I would wake Gee up by I didn't care. I kept throwing and throwing until I reached down to pick up a shard and run it across my wrist. "I TOLD YOU, YOU WOULD PAY FOR NOT BEING THERE WITH HER!" all the blood starts to run down my arm it stings so much I drop all the other plates and Gerard comes bolting in the kitchen. "FRANKIE WHAT ARE YOU DOING WHAT'S WRON-" he shouted but then stopped and turned his attention to my wrist with a look of absolute horror. I had moved on to cups and was now throwing all of them at the wall. He pounced on me removed the cups and picked me up, carrying me to the living room. This was pissing me off so I was screaming and swearing all kinds of nasty things at him. He didn't deserve this though. I feel guilty doing all of this to him. "Frankie, tell me. What. Is. Wrong?" he asked cupping my face in his hands. "I-i-it's m-m-my m-m-mom." I say shaking and crying heavily. "S-s-she l-l-lost her b-b-battle." I didn't have to say anymore. Gerard cradled me in his arms and cried with me. He rubbed my head and rocked me back and forth until I finally fell asleep in his arms. When I woke up I was still being cuddled by him and my arm was wrapped up in a bandage. It must have been 1 am and he was still wide awake watching me. "w-why didn't you sleep?" I ask able to pronounce words a little better now. "I wanted to watch you every time you became scared in a nightmare so I could kiss you and tell you everything is going to be alright and that I'm never leaving you. And every time you would smile and nuzzle into me." he said giving me a smile and a kiss to the forehead. I still felt shattered but I had the strength to get up and kiss him. "T-thank you Geebear. I love you." huh Geebear, that sounds kind of cute. "I love you too. Now shut you eyes and sleep some more. Your day has been rough." And just as I began to fall asleep I knew it. Gerard was the one person I wanted to be with. Forever. He was sent to protect me just before my mom died so I wouldn't be alone and so he could be there with me. I woke up about 10 hours later. This time I was in my room. A bowl of soup by my bedside, a heating pack on my back, and an ice pack on my forehead. "This boy really does love me." I whisper giving a tiny smile. I glance over in the corner to see Gee huddled up on the recliner chair sleeping. I'm glad he fell asleep. He needed it. I got up and kissed him, then made my way back into the kitchen. Everything was clean. Not one shard of glass was on the floor. I walk over to my mom's room. ( as you know I asked Gerard if we could stay at my house the night we got home from the hospital continuing on...) I lay on her bed. Staring at a picture of me when I was about 5. "I love you Mommy." I say hushed under my breath. I turned to see a picture of me and Gerard hanging on the wall. Strange I didn't remember that ever being there before. But this was it. This is my new family. One with Gerard. I started to cry a little but I was still happy. This was the one person I want to be with more than anyone.
~~~~~~~~~~~Time Lapse~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A week later, Gerard, Mikey, Ray, Bob, and I walk into my mother's funeral. They go on to say she was a beautiful friend, lover and most of all, mother to her wonderful son, Frank. I began to tear up and Gerard pulled me into him. "So long and goodnight to this one of a kind woman." The lowered her casket into the ground and I blew a kiss at the sky. "So long, not goodnight." I whisper out.
"No, no she's not dead." I say out loud hitting my hands on the side of my head. "Wake up Frankie, wake up." I say hitting hard. "FUCKING WAKE UP FRANKIE YOUR MOMS NOT DEAD YOU ARE DREAMING. WAKE UP. WAKE UP. WAKE UP!" I scream. But it was no use. This was reality. I wasn't dreaming. My mom was really gone. I felt angry, heartbroken, and alone. So I did what I could do, take all of those emotions out. I ripped open the cabinets and grabbed every plate I could and one by one smashed them against the kitchen walls. I knew I would wake Gee up by I didn't care. I kept throwing and throwing until I reached down to pick up a shard and run it across my wrist. "I TOLD YOU, YOU WOULD PAY FOR NOT BEING THERE WITH HER!" all the blood starts to run down my arm it stings so much I drop all the other plates and Gerard comes bolting in the kitchen. "FRANKIE WHAT ARE YOU DOING WHAT'S WRON-" he shouted but then stopped and turned his attention to my wrist with a look of absolute horror. I had moved on to cups and was now throwing all of them at the wall. He pounced on me removed the cups and picked me up, carrying me to the living room. This was pissing me off so I was screaming and swearing all kinds of nasty things at him. He didn't deserve this though. I feel guilty doing all of this to him. "Frankie, tell me. What. Is. Wrong?" he asked cupping my face in his hands. "I-i-it's m-m-my m-m-mom." I say shaking and crying heavily. "S-s-she l-l-lost her b-b-battle." I didn't have to say anymore. Gerard cradled me in his arms and cried with me. He rubbed my head and rocked me back and forth until I finally fell asleep in his arms. When I woke up I was still being cuddled by him and my arm was wrapped up in a bandage. It must have been 1 am and he was still wide awake watching me. "w-why didn't you sleep?" I ask able to pronounce words a little better now. "I wanted to watch you every time you became scared in a nightmare so I could kiss you and tell you everything is going to be alright and that I'm never leaving you. And every time you would smile and nuzzle into me." he said giving me a smile and a kiss to the forehead. I still felt shattered but I had the strength to get up and kiss him. "T-thank you Geebear. I love you." huh Geebear, that sounds kind of cute. "I love you too. Now shut you eyes and sleep some more. Your day has been rough." And just as I began to fall asleep I knew it. Gerard was the one person I wanted to be with. Forever. He was sent to protect me just before my mom died so I wouldn't be alone and so he could be there with me. I woke up about 10 hours later. This time I was in my room. A bowl of soup by my bedside, a heating pack on my back, and an ice pack on my forehead. "This boy really does love me." I whisper giving a tiny smile. I glance over in the corner to see Gee huddled up on the recliner chair sleeping. I'm glad he fell asleep. He needed it. I got up and kissed him, then made my way back into the kitchen. Everything was clean. Not one shard of glass was on the floor. I walk over to my mom's room. ( as you know I asked Gerard if we could stay at my house the night we got home from the hospital continuing on...) I lay on her bed. Staring at a picture of me when I was about 5. "I love you Mommy." I say hushed under my breath. I turned to see a picture of me and Gerard hanging on the wall. Strange I didn't remember that ever being there before. But this was it. This is my new family. One with Gerard. I started to cry a little but I was still happy. This was the one person I want to be with more than anyone.
~~~~~~~~~~~Time Lapse~~~~~~~~~~~~~
A week later, Gerard, Mikey, Ray, Bob, and I walk into my mother's funeral. They go on to say she was a beautiful friend, lover and most of all, mother to her wonderful son, Frank. I began to tear up and Gerard pulled me into him. "So long and goodnight to this one of a kind woman." The lowered her casket into the ground and I blew a kiss at the sky. "So long, not goodnight." I whisper out.
Notes
Awww Frank I hope he does better. At least he has Gerard with him. Oh, and HAPPY 20TH CHAPTER! This has gone by so quickly I can't believe we are at 20 already woah! I might be coming to and end soon because I'm starting to run dry. So if you guys have any ideas in those fabulous brains of yours I want to hear em! Either in the comments or you can send them to me on twitter! @MadistTaylor I love you all<333xoxo, Nova<333
Hey guys! This is NovaVoid! Some crazy shit has happened and my account got deleted or something? Anyway I'm going to continue on with this story in a new series! Hope to see you guys there!
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4/16/14