My Burning Romance
The Hardest Part of This is Leaving You
*Frank's POV*
I wake up to Gerard mumbling to someone on the phone until I hear my name. I prop
myself up and look at him confused. He says a few more things then goes pale. Really pale. Almost like he is about to throw up too. "Gerard? What's wrong?" I ask. He shook his head, put down the phone, got out of bed and put clothes on. "Gee, really what's happening?" I ask more strict. He still looks like he is about to vomit he takes my hand and gives me some clothes I put them on and again ask what's happening. Gee shakes his hand again grabs his keys and lead us to his car and we drove off. I threw my hands in the air. "Gerard, where. are. we. going!" I protested. "H-hospital" he choked out. "Well why are we going there?" I snap back. "Y-you'll s-see."
*Gerard's POV*
I sat in the car trying to stay silent but Frank just kept asking question after question. I don't want to tell him now. He'd cry and scream, and I think he would hurt himself. I at least want to get him to the hospital before that so he can see for himself. Finally after 20 minutes of Frank's 20 questions we finally made it to the hospital.
*Frank's POV*
We finally gets to the hospital and Gerard slowly steps out of the car and takes my hand and we walk into the emergency room I wish he would just tell me what the fuck is going on. We walk into the familiar hospital (Considering we weren't here that long ago for Mikey) and walk up to the woman at the front desk. Gerard mouths "Iero" to the woman and she points us down a long hallway and says "2219" Iero? Why would my last name be at the hospital? Gerard brings us down a long hallway until we see the numbers 2219. My heart drops as I recognize the figure laying in the hospital bed. We make our way in the door and walk to the bed side. "M-mom?" I said a tear escaping from my eye. This woman was my mother, though she no longer looked like the one happy and bubbly mother I grew up with until my father... "Fr-frankie?" the pale balding woman said. I start to really cry now. She hasn't called me Frankie since I was 11 years old. I pull her into a hug. Something I didn't think I would ever get from my mother again. "W-what happened. Why are you so pale? What's wrong with your hair?" I ask bawling my eyes out. She coughs heavily and I throw my head into my hands and then look back at Gee who is also crying. "Sorry Frankie baby, I'm just a little soggy from the chemo." she says trying to smile but failing. Chemo? What does she mean by che- no. No this isn't right. My mother can't have cancer. She just can't. I look at Gee who nods at me. I mouth "You knew?" at him but he just turns his head away. "H-how did this happen. When did this happen?" I ask. "Just a little after you moved out, I used so many more drugs, some of the worst in the world. All the smoke messed up my lungs, and I ended up being diagnosed with lung cancer." she chokes out. Oh my god, this is all my fault. I left and I made everything worse. Everyone she loved turned away from her. Even her own son. I am responsible for her health. And I have to pay for it. I pull her into another hug. Planting a kiss on her cheek. "H-how long do you have to be here, or are you.. coming home?" I say but I would be surprised if anyone understood what I said. "The doctors have almost cleared me of cancer cells. I still have to go through more chemotherapy but they said there's a 96% chance of survival rate for me." she let out with a smile. "So.. you're going to be okay?" I ask trying to stop my tears. "I should be really soon Frankie!" she said with a little laughter. It was good to hear my mom laugh finally. I've missed it a lot. "I'm sorry I haven't been there for you Mom. I love you." I say giving her a hug and pulling in Gerard to make it a group hug. "Shh, Frankie, this isn't your fault none of it is. I've been a horrible mother to you and I am so sorry. I love you so much Frankie." she said crying and then with another cough. "And thank you Gerard, for being so sweet and taking care of my little Frankie when I couldn't. You couldn't have been a better blessing on this family. I love you too." my mom says. I see Gee blush and start to cry. "That's the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me, Mrs. Iero. Thank you. I love you too." Gerard says back giving he a kiss on the cheek. We spend the next hour laughing and talking about what my mom has missed. It was really nice to see her this happy. Even in her condition. We said our goodbyes and I told her I would be visiting her really soon again. She gave me a hug good bye and said "Not too soon I hope! I love you with all my hear Frankie. Be safe." and gave my a kiss and we walked out back to Gerard's car. Hm, wonder what she meant by not too soon? Does she not like me? Hahaha. As me and Gerard drive back to our house he is silent but holding my hand tightly. "Gerard, you don't have to hold my hand so hard! Everything is okay!" I say letting out a giggle. He looks back and gives me a weak smile and turns his attention back to the road. As we get home I remove my jacket and lay back down with Gerard and we fall back asleep after a tiring morning.
It's about 12:30pm when I finally wake up and I search everywhere for my phone but I can't find it. I was trying to call my phone when I remembered I left it in my coat pocket. I grabbed it and out fell a little note. I pull it out and read it's contents. Aw, it's from my mom.
Dear Frank Anthony Iero Jr, Hey sweetie, just your mom here. I just wanted to tell you that I love you so much and I'm proud of who you've become. I realize I was probably the worst mom in the world and I would never be able to apologize enough for it. Sorry I was so awful to see when you visited me in the hospital. I promise I'll never look like that again for you. The next time you see me I'll be peacefully sleeping. The doctors had diagnosed me with terminal cancer, so I won't be coming home. I didn't want to say anything because I didn't want our last moments together to be filled with tears. I hope our last moments were full of smiles. I'm writing this just a few minutes before you get here so I can sneak it in your pocket. Today was my last day in the hospital and after 3 weeks I can finally check out for good. I love you more than you could imagine I wish I could go back and undo everything so I could see you grow up and smile. But, now you have Gerard to do that. Never let him go Frankie, I can tell he is special. You two are meant for each other. The way you hold each other how happy you are together I know you are meant to be. Promise me you won't give up on this boy ever. Don't be me. Be yourself, and don't give a damn what anyone else thinks. I love you so much Frankie. I hope to see you soon. (But not too soon.) I love you honey<3 Never forget how great you really are! With all my heart, Mom <3
And just like that, my mom was gone.
I wake up to Gerard mumbling to someone on the phone until I hear my name. I prop
myself up and look at him confused. He says a few more things then goes pale. Really pale. Almost like he is about to throw up too. "Gerard? What's wrong?" I ask. He shook his head, put down the phone, got out of bed and put clothes on. "Gee, really what's happening?" I ask more strict. He still looks like he is about to vomit he takes my hand and gives me some clothes I put them on and again ask what's happening. Gee shakes his hand again grabs his keys and lead us to his car and we drove off. I threw my hands in the air. "Gerard, where. are. we. going!" I protested. "H-hospital" he choked out. "Well why are we going there?" I snap back. "Y-you'll s-see."
*Gerard's POV*
I sat in the car trying to stay silent but Frank just kept asking question after question. I don't want to tell him now. He'd cry and scream, and I think he would hurt himself. I at least want to get him to the hospital before that so he can see for himself. Finally after 20 minutes of Frank's 20 questions we finally made it to the hospital.
*Frank's POV*
We finally gets to the hospital and Gerard slowly steps out of the car and takes my hand and we walk into the emergency room I wish he would just tell me what the fuck is going on. We walk into the familiar hospital (Considering we weren't here that long ago for Mikey) and walk up to the woman at the front desk. Gerard mouths "Iero" to the woman and she points us down a long hallway and says "2219" Iero? Why would my last name be at the hospital? Gerard brings us down a long hallway until we see the numbers 2219. My heart drops as I recognize the figure laying in the hospital bed. We make our way in the door and walk to the bed side. "M-mom?" I said a tear escaping from my eye. This woman was my mother, though she no longer looked like the one happy and bubbly mother I grew up with until my father... "Fr-frankie?" the pale balding woman said. I start to really cry now. She hasn't called me Frankie since I was 11 years old. I pull her into a hug. Something I didn't think I would ever get from my mother again. "W-what happened. Why are you so pale? What's wrong with your hair?" I ask bawling my eyes out. She coughs heavily and I throw my head into my hands and then look back at Gee who is also crying. "Sorry Frankie baby, I'm just a little soggy from the chemo." she says trying to smile but failing. Chemo? What does she mean by che- no. No this isn't right. My mother can't have cancer. She just can't. I look at Gee who nods at me. I mouth "You knew?" at him but he just turns his head away. "H-how did this happen. When did this happen?" I ask. "Just a little after you moved out, I used so many more drugs, some of the worst in the world. All the smoke messed up my lungs, and I ended up being diagnosed with lung cancer." she chokes out. Oh my god, this is all my fault. I left and I made everything worse. Everyone she loved turned away from her. Even her own son. I am responsible for her health. And I have to pay for it. I pull her into another hug. Planting a kiss on her cheek. "H-how long do you have to be here, or are you.. coming home?" I say but I would be surprised if anyone understood what I said. "The doctors have almost cleared me of cancer cells. I still have to go through more chemotherapy but they said there's a 96% chance of survival rate for me." she let out with a smile. "So.. you're going to be okay?" I ask trying to stop my tears. "I should be really soon Frankie!" she said with a little laughter. It was good to hear my mom laugh finally. I've missed it a lot. "I'm sorry I haven't been there for you Mom. I love you." I say giving her a hug and pulling in Gerard to make it a group hug. "Shh, Frankie, this isn't your fault none of it is. I've been a horrible mother to you and I am so sorry. I love you so much Frankie." she said crying and then with another cough. "And thank you Gerard, for being so sweet and taking care of my little Frankie when I couldn't. You couldn't have been a better blessing on this family. I love you too." my mom says. I see Gee blush and start to cry. "That's the nicest thing anyone has ever said to me, Mrs. Iero. Thank you. I love you too." Gerard says back giving he a kiss on the cheek. We spend the next hour laughing and talking about what my mom has missed. It was really nice to see her this happy. Even in her condition. We said our goodbyes and I told her I would be visiting her really soon again. She gave me a hug good bye and said "Not too soon I hope! I love you with all my hear Frankie. Be safe." and gave my a kiss and we walked out back to Gerard's car. Hm, wonder what she meant by not too soon? Does she not like me? Hahaha. As me and Gerard drive back to our house he is silent but holding my hand tightly. "Gerard, you don't have to hold my hand so hard! Everything is okay!" I say letting out a giggle. He looks back and gives me a weak smile and turns his attention back to the road. As we get home I remove my jacket and lay back down with Gerard and we fall back asleep after a tiring morning.
It's about 12:30pm when I finally wake up and I search everywhere for my phone but I can't find it. I was trying to call my phone when I remembered I left it in my coat pocket. I grabbed it and out fell a little note. I pull it out and read it's contents. Aw, it's from my mom.
Dear Frank Anthony Iero Jr, Hey sweetie, just your mom here. I just wanted to tell you that I love you so much and I'm proud of who you've become. I realize I was probably the worst mom in the world and I would never be able to apologize enough for it. Sorry I was so awful to see when you visited me in the hospital. I promise I'll never look like that again for you. The next time you see me I'll be peacefully sleeping. The doctors had diagnosed me with terminal cancer, so I won't be coming home. I didn't want to say anything because I didn't want our last moments together to be filled with tears. I hope our last moments were full of smiles. I'm writing this just a few minutes before you get here so I can sneak it in your pocket. Today was my last day in the hospital and after 3 weeks I can finally check out for good. I love you more than you could imagine I wish I could go back and undo everything so I could see you grow up and smile. But, now you have Gerard to do that. Never let him go Frankie, I can tell he is special. You two are meant for each other. The way you hold each other how happy you are together I know you are meant to be. Promise me you won't give up on this boy ever. Don't be me. Be yourself, and don't give a damn what anyone else thinks. I love you so much Frankie. I hope to see you soon. (But not too soon.) I love you honey<3 Never forget how great you really are! With all my heart, Mom <3
And just like that, my mom was gone.
Notes
This was a really powerful chapter to write. I hope you guys all enjoyed.xoxo, Nova<333
Hey guys! This is NovaVoid! Some crazy shit has happened and my account got deleted or something? Anyway I'm going to continue on with this story in a new series! Hope to see you guys there!
xoxo Nova!
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