My Own Brand Of Heroin
Save Me From My Self Destruction
"Mikey jesus will you come this way and stop dragging me about, well be late" i demanded as Mikey giggled, he was like a little kid, i expected that from frank, but i hadnt really spoken to him yet.
Mikey stopped fooling around and started walking the right way, we hurried around the school taking the longest root in hope we'd miss the crowds in the corridors, walking down diserted departments that were yet to be done up, there was a delay in my movement as i felt a tug on my left arm, i looked down to see that Mikey had fallen flat on his arse!.
"dont fall over it gets you down" i laughed
"i didnt intend to fall over, but my feet got in the way, help me up" i continued to laugh as i attempted to pull Mikey up, when id finally managed to help him up i was going to continue our conversation about Iron Maiden, when i was interrupted by a snide comment.
"what are doing hanging around with that scum new kid?, dont get any ideas Robyn he's mine"
Beth went to grab Mikeys arm, but he pulled back.
"what is this kindergarten im not some new toy you can play with, Robyn helped me out where as you fucking ignored me and ridiculed me for my outfit, tell me why wouldnt i want to hang around with Robyn whats your problem?" Mikey demanded, i could feel the heat in his voice
"shut the fuck-" Nathan;the tall, stocky jock pushed from the crowd and scowled at Mikey as that was all he could do as Beth had stuck her arm out - Nathan was Beths Bitch.
"well shes a slut and a fucking weirdo she isnt normal, thats why" beth had this smug look about her, she cocked her head side and side in victory, Mikey picked of bits of flecking paint off the run down corridor walls and proceeded to talk "well bitch i like sluts, their my thing" mikey winked at me, which was hot and then continued "and id say normals boring, im good thanks" mikey mocked Beth as he cocked his side back and soide just as she had, i laughed as mikey was swiped from my side into dented lockers, i stopped, mikeys face was filled with shock, but nobody expected Nathans reaction. i screamed as Mikey took each blow from Nathan each time square in the face, Nathan stopped and sighed, i think he was sick of being the bully, i think he doesnt want to loose his friends or reputation.
"COME ON, DONT BE A PUSSY, IF YOUR GOING TO GIVE ME A FIRST DAY BEATING DO IT GOOD!" mikey screamed, Nathan picked up and slammed him into the floor and mikey groaned in pain.
"stop it you heartless bastard" and with my demand i was slammed into the opposing wall, so it was this again story of my life. "what bitch?" *SLAM* "what you doing this for? what do you achieve after this?" she growled "MIkey Way is such a fucking lanky bastard" i looked into the corner of my eye and with each hit mikey flinched, he was so vulnerable, this was all may fault.
"hes so weak look at you trying to replace Jay, but he was a coward and a knob so who gives a fuck" she snickered "THERE YOU GO CURSING MY DEAD BEST FRIEND, GO AND DANCE ON HIS FUCKING GRAVE AND BE DONE WITH IT BITCH" *SLAM* she let go of me and i slid down the wall, i knew what would happen the girls would stamp on me, i didnt even make a stuggle i just let them beat me up, i felt the sensation of blood stream from my nose as it mixed with my tears, my eyes were stinging, they were watering, i couldnt look weak. "OI" i heared franks voice and from the corner of my eyes i saw Gerard, Ray and Frank run at the crowd. 1, 2, 3 - Gerard, Mikey, and Frank joined me and Mikey on the floor "Hey" frank smiled, this was then turned into a frown of pain as he received a blow to his croach "well theres my kids gone" he exclaimed, it seemed he found the humour behind everything. i dont even know how long they carried on for, everything was a blur, i could hear groans coming from each one of us, but then it stop "the bell goes in 2 minutes , get to first period we were never here" beth called time on the beating and never said a thing she just left, i rolled over and closed my eyes, I just wanted to disapeare.
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none of us went to any lessons, we stayed in suporvised study as we fefused to tell anybody anything, i was sent to deliver a message to the woodwork department, i was handed the letter and limped across school. i didnt read what was within the letter, that would be completley untruthle as id promised not to read. i handed Mr Spedding the letter "go wait at the back ill send you with a replie i wont be long" He smiled. i proceeded to the back and poundered my eyes upon the array of cutting equipment, i spotted a stanley knife on the side, and i dont know what came over me but i took the blade out and placed the knife back into the exact postion that it was in, "Robyn you can take this back thanks" i took the replie and headed to the toilets and locked my self in a cubicle and placed the letter on my lap, i rumadged in my pocket untill i brought out the blade, blank faced and motionless i cut into my recently scarred wrist, this was a pain i felt comfort in, it just let out all my anger and i just kept on cutting. *BANG BANG* "hey kid your not supossed to be in here lunch and break only" Shit! "yeah im coming out now" i wiped my arm with the tissue and flushed it, i through on my jacket and walked out "sorry", "its alright". i got into to supervised study with 15 minuted till the end of the day. "here you go" I recived no reply from the Study teacher and sat down "you cold?" Ray asked "yeah Just a little"
Mikey stopped fooling around and started walking the right way, we hurried around the school taking the longest root in hope we'd miss the crowds in the corridors, walking down diserted departments that were yet to be done up, there was a delay in my movement as i felt a tug on my left arm, i looked down to see that Mikey had fallen flat on his arse!.
"dont fall over it gets you down" i laughed
"i didnt intend to fall over, but my feet got in the way, help me up" i continued to laugh as i attempted to pull Mikey up, when id finally managed to help him up i was going to continue our conversation about Iron Maiden, when i was interrupted by a snide comment.
"what are doing hanging around with that scum new kid?, dont get any ideas Robyn he's mine"
Beth went to grab Mikeys arm, but he pulled back.
"what is this kindergarten im not some new toy you can play with, Robyn helped me out where as you fucking ignored me and ridiculed me for my outfit, tell me why wouldnt i want to hang around with Robyn whats your problem?" Mikey demanded, i could feel the heat in his voice
"shut the fuck-" Nathan;the tall, stocky jock pushed from the crowd and scowled at Mikey as that was all he could do as Beth had stuck her arm out - Nathan was Beths Bitch.
"well shes a slut and a fucking weirdo she isnt normal, thats why" beth had this smug look about her, she cocked her head side and side in victory, Mikey picked of bits of flecking paint off the run down corridor walls and proceeded to talk "well bitch i like sluts, their my thing" mikey winked at me, which was hot and then continued "and id say normals boring, im good thanks" mikey mocked Beth as he cocked his side back and soide just as she had, i laughed as mikey was swiped from my side into dented lockers, i stopped, mikeys face was filled with shock, but nobody expected Nathans reaction. i screamed as Mikey took each blow from Nathan each time square in the face, Nathan stopped and sighed, i think he was sick of being the bully, i think he doesnt want to loose his friends or reputation.
"COME ON, DONT BE A PUSSY, IF YOUR GOING TO GIVE ME A FIRST DAY BEATING DO IT GOOD!" mikey screamed, Nathan picked up and slammed him into the floor and mikey groaned in pain.
"stop it you heartless bastard" and with my demand i was slammed into the opposing wall, so it was this again story of my life. "what bitch?" *SLAM* "what you doing this for? what do you achieve after this?" she growled "MIkey Way is such a fucking lanky bastard" i looked into the corner of my eye and with each hit mikey flinched, he was so vulnerable, this was all may fault.
"hes so weak look at you trying to replace Jay, but he was a coward and a knob so who gives a fuck" she snickered "THERE YOU GO CURSING MY DEAD BEST FRIEND, GO AND DANCE ON HIS FUCKING GRAVE AND BE DONE WITH IT BITCH" *SLAM* she let go of me and i slid down the wall, i knew what would happen the girls would stamp on me, i didnt even make a stuggle i just let them beat me up, i felt the sensation of blood stream from my nose as it mixed with my tears, my eyes were stinging, they were watering, i couldnt look weak. "OI" i heared franks voice and from the corner of my eyes i saw Gerard, Ray and Frank run at the crowd. 1, 2, 3 - Gerard, Mikey, and Frank joined me and Mikey on the floor "Hey" frank smiled, this was then turned into a frown of pain as he received a blow to his croach "well theres my kids gone" he exclaimed, it seemed he found the humour behind everything. i dont even know how long they carried on for, everything was a blur, i could hear groans coming from each one of us, but then it stop "the bell goes in 2 minutes , get to first period we were never here" beth called time on the beating and never said a thing she just left, i rolled over and closed my eyes, I just wanted to disapeare.
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none of us went to any lessons, we stayed in suporvised study as we fefused to tell anybody anything, i was sent to deliver a message to the woodwork department, i was handed the letter and limped across school. i didnt read what was within the letter, that would be completley untruthle as id promised not to read. i handed Mr Spedding the letter "go wait at the back ill send you with a replie i wont be long" He smiled. i proceeded to the back and poundered my eyes upon the array of cutting equipment, i spotted a stanley knife on the side, and i dont know what came over me but i took the blade out and placed the knife back into the exact postion that it was in, "Robyn you can take this back thanks" i took the replie and headed to the toilets and locked my self in a cubicle and placed the letter on my lap, i rumadged in my pocket untill i brought out the blade, blank faced and motionless i cut into my recently scarred wrist, this was a pain i felt comfort in, it just let out all my anger and i just kept on cutting. *BANG BANG* "hey kid your not supossed to be in here lunch and break only" Shit! "yeah im coming out now" i wiped my arm with the tissue and flushed it, i through on my jacket and walked out "sorry", "its alright". i got into to supervised study with 15 minuted till the end of the day. "here you go" I recived no reply from the Study teacher and sat down "you cold?" Ray asked "yeah Just a little"
9/5/13