My Own Brand Of Heroin
And Just Like Paint On Walls I Blend Into The Background
I arrive at school later than everyone else, i walk down the drive whilst thinking of ways to skip registration, could i just sign in at the main office? there were very few possibilities, Wait for first class, sign in at the main office or skip completely, its not like my mum would care.
i make a quick attempt of speed as i flit past the crowd of late comers and the smokers, i look back to see 4 unfamiliar boys trailing behind me .
"she looks cool ask her" i hear a quiet and seamlessly innocent voice mutter, i carry on walking presuming its got nothing to do with me, and im glad really, i like to blend into the background. The other kids saw this as a way for people not to know your bushiness but that ships sailed for me, considering i was a dumb bitch who saw popularity as life's handbook, it was like my head told me to blurt out shit about myself. I regret every word. "Dirty little hoe bag" "what a stupid bitch" yeah i was those indeed, but my friends didnt help me so i traded them for the harsh remarks of "emo" and "freak" but still nothing new.
"excuse me?" i look up to see a handsome boy, dark brown hair that meets his shoulders, hazel eyes and a sharp curve to his smile.
"ugh yeah?" i asked, what did he want with me?
"could you show me and my friends the - " he was cut of by some singing
"The amount of pills I'm taking, counteracts the booze I'm drinking and this vanity I'm breaking, lets me live my life like this and well I find it hard to stay, with the words you say, Oh baby let me in, Oh baby let me in" touching lyrics to a song that id never heard before
"sorry about THESE GUYS," he emphasis 'these guys' and continues, but not our conversation.
"yous lot im trying to ask this kid where to register, were late already, its our first day, pipe down, with have band practice for that shit, breath some different air" he seemed frustrated and was joined by a small boy as the others continued to sing and play air guitar.
"hey im frank!" there was no other way to described frank but as cute, and not that i like to label but quite frankly emo.
"um so you wanna know where to register?, im thinking the main office, im going there now if you want me to show you?" the taller guy signaled for the others to join, and they slowly obeyed.
"this is Ray, What the fuck is mikey doing? any way the guy who's messing with his shoes is mikey, hes my brother, AND IM SURE HE WILL JOIN US AT SOME POINT" he shouted Mikey looked up in confusion and they came towards us
"sorry" he snickered "hey"
" this small guy here is Frank"
"call me frank or frankie, what ever takes your fancie" he smiled, he seemed very pleasant; a nice boy,
"how about frankweenie?" Gerard Giggled at mikeys joke, he was quick on the mark, yet Rays reaction was delayed.
"and im Gerard, and the main office sounds good, show the way" i nodded, these 4 guys were completely mesmerizing im sure they were going to get snatched up by some pretty girl.
i heard a quiet giggle come from ray, he must have realized Mikey's joke, i smiled, he was slow.
we enter through the main doors and i walked to the receptionist
"could you sign me in please?" i asked
"Robyn Perrins and late again i see" oh fuck, it looks like she'd spotted me everyday as i arrived late.
"i was helping these new guys, its not my fault" okay so me being late was my fault but not entirely
"yeah you say that every time im afraid thats a detention with your house teacher, who i suppose you've not seen in weeks, go to him at either break or your free periods, ill let him know" *Sigh* another fucking detention "ill take the free periods slot thanks" she smirked "i thought you would, hm boys, what are your name?"
Gerard, Mikey, Ray and Frank all walked up to the counter in anticipation, it was like they thought there was something interesting but there wansnt, they gave in there names and i began to get a head start up to my first lesson
"Robyn, there in all your lessons!" great!, i had to mother a bunch i lads around school, because that bitch was too lazy to the do the job herself.
"what does that mean?" mikey asked confused yet again
"it means shes lazy, where did the others go?"
"dunno, toilets maybe, i presume so with them being right in front of us" oh they took the first opportunity to escape my presence, well that wasnt anything new.
"robyn? stick with me, they usually fuck off without me and i doubt a new school will change that, be my friend i could do with one" i smiled, i supposed it was a tragic thing, but he wanted me to be there "course Mikey, come on lets go to first lesson, them lot can find there own way there" mikey laughed and linked my arm and began to drag me into what for him was an unknown direction.
"so whats first lesson?"
"art and its this way" i struggled as i swung around to change direction with mikey still attached to my arm. i smiled as realisation hit me today was going to be okay, i had someone to talk to.
i make a quick attempt of speed as i flit past the crowd of late comers and the smokers, i look back to see 4 unfamiliar boys trailing behind me .
"she looks cool ask her" i hear a quiet and seamlessly innocent voice mutter, i carry on walking presuming its got nothing to do with me, and im glad really, i like to blend into the background. The other kids saw this as a way for people not to know your bushiness but that ships sailed for me, considering i was a dumb bitch who saw popularity as life's handbook, it was like my head told me to blurt out shit about myself. I regret every word. "Dirty little hoe bag" "what a stupid bitch" yeah i was those indeed, but my friends didnt help me so i traded them for the harsh remarks of "emo" and "freak" but still nothing new.
"excuse me?" i look up to see a handsome boy, dark brown hair that meets his shoulders, hazel eyes and a sharp curve to his smile.
"ugh yeah?" i asked, what did he want with me?
"could you show me and my friends the - " he was cut of by some singing
"The amount of pills I'm taking, counteracts the booze I'm drinking and this vanity I'm breaking, lets me live my life like this and well I find it hard to stay, with the words you say, Oh baby let me in, Oh baby let me in" touching lyrics to a song that id never heard before
"sorry about THESE GUYS," he emphasis 'these guys' and continues, but not our conversation.
"yous lot im trying to ask this kid where to register, were late already, its our first day, pipe down, with have band practice for that shit, breath some different air" he seemed frustrated and was joined by a small boy as the others continued to sing and play air guitar.
"hey im frank!" there was no other way to described frank but as cute, and not that i like to label but quite frankly emo.
"um so you wanna know where to register?, im thinking the main office, im going there now if you want me to show you?" the taller guy signaled for the others to join, and they slowly obeyed.
"this is Ray, What the fuck is mikey doing? any way the guy who's messing with his shoes is mikey, hes my brother, AND IM SURE HE WILL JOIN US AT SOME POINT" he shouted Mikey looked up in confusion and they came towards us
"sorry" he snickered "hey"
" this small guy here is Frank"
"call me frank or frankie, what ever takes your fancie" he smiled, he seemed very pleasant; a nice boy,
"how about frankweenie?" Gerard Giggled at mikeys joke, he was quick on the mark, yet Rays reaction was delayed.
"and im Gerard, and the main office sounds good, show the way" i nodded, these 4 guys were completely mesmerizing im sure they were going to get snatched up by some pretty girl.
i heard a quiet giggle come from ray, he must have realized Mikey's joke, i smiled, he was slow.
we enter through the main doors and i walked to the receptionist
"could you sign me in please?" i asked
"Robyn Perrins and late again i see" oh fuck, it looks like she'd spotted me everyday as i arrived late.
"i was helping these new guys, its not my fault" okay so me being late was my fault but not entirely
"yeah you say that every time im afraid thats a detention with your house teacher, who i suppose you've not seen in weeks, go to him at either break or your free periods, ill let him know" *Sigh* another fucking detention "ill take the free periods slot thanks" she smirked "i thought you would, hm boys, what are your name?"
Gerard, Mikey, Ray and Frank all walked up to the counter in anticipation, it was like they thought there was something interesting but there wansnt, they gave in there names and i began to get a head start up to my first lesson
"Robyn, there in all your lessons!" great!, i had to mother a bunch i lads around school, because that bitch was too lazy to the do the job herself.
"what does that mean?" mikey asked confused yet again
"it means shes lazy, where did the others go?"
"dunno, toilets maybe, i presume so with them being right in front of us" oh they took the first opportunity to escape my presence, well that wasnt anything new.
"robyn? stick with me, they usually fuck off without me and i doubt a new school will change that, be my friend i could do with one" i smiled, i supposed it was a tragic thing, but he wanted me to be there "course Mikey, come on lets go to first lesson, them lot can find there own way there" mikey laughed and linked my arm and began to drag me into what for him was an unknown direction.
"so whats first lesson?"
"art and its this way" i struggled as i swung around to change direction with mikey still attached to my arm. i smiled as realisation hit me today was going to be okay, i had someone to talk to.
9/5/13