Ivy POV: I open the journal. "Dear Gerard," I begin tapping me pencil rapidly on the paper.

"well as you already know that my name is Ivy Thorne. I don't know exactly what to write, but we'll start with my name. I was named after my sisters middle name. She-"

suddenly I don't want to write anymore. I put down my pencil. Tired I sigh, close the book and throw myself backwards onto my bed. I just stare at my ceiling for a while. And I start singing adia by avril lavigne. "Adia do you believe I failed you, adia I know I let you down, don't you know I tried so hard to love you in my way, it's easy, just let go...oh..., adia I'm empty since you left me, I try to find a way to carry on, I search myself and everyone, just to see where we went wrong, there's no one left to finger, there's no one here to blame, there's no one left to talk to, and there ain't no one to buy our innocence, cause we are born innocent, believe me adia we are still innocent, it's easy we all falter, but does it matter, adia I thought that we could make it..." I trail off as I fall into a light sleep...

Notes

Sorry I haven't updated writers block is a real bitch