Common People
Rage & Anger
((I'm feeling something but I dont know what's that is,It's making me really confused,My dad death is surprising somehow I still feel he's among us,Like he never left,I am scared))
"What are you going to do now?" Frank sighed.
"I dont know,I'm not feeling anything which makes me nervous,Am I supposed to feel that way?,I mean I should be really sad now"
"I dont know did you tell Gerard about it?"
"Yeah he said I should wait til I process all this then come and talk to him"
"I think you should go now you dont seem like you're processing anything"
"I guess you're right,You give the best advices Frank"
"Okay good luck" He smiled.
I decided I'm not gonna wait til I process all this because Frank was right I'm not processing anything,I think I'm just spinning in circles.
I walked towards Gerard's office,I really didn't know how he will help me but I knew he could.
"Hi Gerard" I sat down.
"Are you ready?"
"I dont know,I think so"
"Okay. .." he started. "Do you remember anything good you're father did to you?"
"Uhh,I dont think so"
"Come on there's must be something"
"Well,I remember this time when I was eight he took me to my favorite place in the world,The amusement park" I took a deep breath.
"How did you feel then?"
"Happy. Like he was the best father in the world" I sobbed.
"I dont want you to cry,I'm here to help you okay?" He squeezed my shoulder gently.
"Okay" I sobbed.
"Do you think he's a bad father?"
"No.He's not he's just a bad husband I guess,I remember he would buy us a toys and candy everyday,we were happy" I cried.
"He loved you,I'm sure" He handed me a tissue.
"I know he used to tell me that all the time but when I was 12 he stopped and he used to come home angry about everything and yell at my mom"
"Do you love him May?"
"I do.I really do,I cant believe my anger got me to this level I'm so sorry" I cried ans hugged Gerard.
"It was only your anger and rage,It wasn't your fault deep down without even knowing it you loved your father,But the things he have done made you feel like you hate him" He patted my back.
"He's dead" I sobbed.
"He's looking down for you now and he feels regret.It was never your fault May"
((And with that I knew exactly what I felt.I was feeling sad over my father because I loved him,He made me feel like I hated him thanks to his actions which comes out from rage and anger and I knew I should never Let my anger drive me insane to do things I regret))
"What are you going to do now?" Frank sighed.
"I dont know,I'm not feeling anything which makes me nervous,Am I supposed to feel that way?,I mean I should be really sad now"
"I dont know did you tell Gerard about it?"
"Yeah he said I should wait til I process all this then come and talk to him"
"I think you should go now you dont seem like you're processing anything"
"I guess you're right,You give the best advices Frank"
"Okay good luck" He smiled.
I decided I'm not gonna wait til I process all this because Frank was right I'm not processing anything,I think I'm just spinning in circles.
I walked towards Gerard's office,I really didn't know how he will help me but I knew he could.
"Hi Gerard" I sat down.
"Are you ready?"
"I dont know,I think so"
"Okay. .." he started. "Do you remember anything good you're father did to you?"
"Uhh,I dont think so"
"Come on there's must be something"
"Well,I remember this time when I was eight he took me to my favorite place in the world,The amusement park" I took a deep breath.
"How did you feel then?"
"Happy. Like he was the best father in the world" I sobbed.
"I dont want you to cry,I'm here to help you okay?" He squeezed my shoulder gently.
"Okay" I sobbed.
"Do you think he's a bad father?"
"No.He's not he's just a bad husband I guess,I remember he would buy us a toys and candy everyday,we were happy" I cried.
"He loved you,I'm sure" He handed me a tissue.
"I know he used to tell me that all the time but when I was 12 he stopped and he used to come home angry about everything and yell at my mom"
"Do you love him May?"
"I do.I really do,I cant believe my anger got me to this level I'm so sorry" I cried ans hugged Gerard.
"It was only your anger and rage,It wasn't your fault deep down without even knowing it you loved your father,But the things he have done made you feel like you hate him" He patted my back.
"He's dead" I sobbed.
"He's looking down for you now and he feels regret.It was never your fault May"
((And with that I knew exactly what I felt.I was feeling sad over my father because I loved him,He made me feel like I hated him thanks to his actions which comes out from rage and anger and I knew I should never Let my anger drive me insane to do things I regret))
11/30/13