"Its been almost two weeks since i've been here,Doctor Gerard is being really nice to me and Frank was my only friend here,So what other choices do i have? I have to admit i felt safe and comfort here,No one was treating me bad or calling me names,nothing,it's like all of those people here like to mind their own business,it's not like all of them were crazy fuckers,but they had problems to deal with,says Frank,anyway i miss my mom,I wonder what she's doing now,I heard my dad is getting out of the hopital in the next two days,That makes me feel sad and scared,I wish i finished him,right? Gerard told me i should stop thinking about what happened,but i just cant,if i stayed here for like a year or more,Then when i go back to school i have to face people again,Normal people then i will not be the emo kid who's always at the back of the class who's really not emo at all,I'll be a psycho bitch who tried to kill her father,Just thinking about school and people,makes me wanna live here forever" I close my diary and head outside to the garden,i look around for a place to sit,i sit next to the big tree,i glance at that tree for a second,it seems old and about to fall,they better cut it off before it kill someone. "May!" Frank snapped me out. "Oh,Hey i didnt see you there" i shook my head slowly. "What were you doing?,Girl dont tell me you went nuts too" He grabbed my shoulders. "No,i was just glancing" i chuckled. "Whoa,good i cant handle you going crazy too" He laughed. "I know you cant live without me" I chuckled then rest my head on his shoulder. "Because i love you so much" He chuckled then hugged me. Sometimes me and Frank would say things to each other that seems like we're in love,i dont know who started it but we acted like lovers many times. "Well,i gotta go i have a session with Gerard" i muttered. "Okay i'll see you later then" Frank nodded. I went to his office and knocked the door. "Hey May" Gerard smiled. "Hey" i sit down. "How are you feeling today?" "Like always,Okay...i think" "You think?" "I'm okay,trust me" i rolled my eyes. "So,would you like to start?" "Of course" "Okay,today your going to tell me stuff" "Stuff?" "Tell me,about your highschool life" "Living hell" "Have you went to any parties,proms,you know?" "Oh,well i went to this one party,Madison Heck's party,i left after an hour" "Why?" "Well,there was this guy who is the DJ but also goes to our school,they call him Jamez,I was at the kitchen looking for water because all she had was booze outside,So he came in and i poured water into my glass,then he said Hey,i nodded back,then he grabbed my waist and tried to kiss me,So.....Um...Let's just say it didnt end well" "what happened?" "I punched him" i muttered. "Oh my god,your such a badass" he laughed. "He deserved it at least" "Well,yeah he's an asshole" "I even went to a prom once" "Did it end well?" he chuckled. "Well,not for me" "Tell me more" "Well,My date ditched me,and they played awful music,no one remembered to drive me back to the house,so i got back walking when it was 11 at night" "Jinx" "Exactly" "You had some awful times May,So everybody does" "Everybody,but I'm the worst" "No just look at life from a different way,you'll see the beauty of life" "Are you kidding me? I am a murderer,psycho,ugly,awful all the bad words define me" "Are YOU kidding me?? May look at yourself, Your beautiful,you have an awesome personality,and a great taste of music" He walked around. "Did you fell on your head and lost your memory? Hello! I tried to murder my father!" i exclaimed. "You were angry,and you needed something to calm you,it's not like we all dont have issues,Trust me May,everybody on earth have issues,Your not insane,your just angry,Like i told you before,You're bright" He smiled and nodded. "Do you really think so?" i gave him a sad smile. "Yes,i've only known you for a couple of weeks but i like you like i've known you forever,I'm treating you like my friend not my patient" He sat down. "Wow" I smiled.

Notes

sorry for taking so long