So Long & Goodnight
001
Gerard Way. A simple name. One that's easy to remember. One that's, sadly, not easy to forget. I look at the clock above the fridge. I'm sitting quietly at the kitchen table, made out of a mahogany colored wood. I can feel he stares. I turn my head away, pretending that I don't notice him, but he's too smart for that.
I know that you can see me.
I look startled. It's been a long time since he's spoken to me. He mostly stands by me and watches my every movement.I turn my head back so I can sneak a peak at him. It's to late, he's caught me looking.
You can't ignore me. Just face the fact that I'm here and that I have no intentions of leaving.
I shake my head. He's not real, he's not. Mikey promised me that things were going to get better, and that he was going to leave me alone. The voices stuck in my head were bad enough for me, but then I started to see people who no one else could see. It was scaring me. My younger brother Mikey had sent me to a doctor who gave me small blue pills. The pills didn't help. In fact, not only did the pills not work, no, they made thing worse. The voices were too strong for the stupid small pills. It felt like my head might explode every time I took a pill.
He just doesn't understand you. This is who you are.
He? The man sitting in front of me stares into my eyes. The man means Mikey.
"Who are you?" I ask in a whisper, careful not to wake my brother up.
...Call me Kellin.
Kellin? A strange name. I shake my head. This Kellin was not going to trick me into talking to him. He knew what Mikey would do to me if he saw me talking to myself again.
"Go away." I mumble.
W-What?
"Go away!" I shout, slamming my fist against the table.
"Gerard?" I hear Mikey's voice float around from behind me.
"What?" I ask through gritted teeth, watching Kellin snicker.
"Did you....um...take your pill?"
"No." I say, pushing my chair away from the table. I storm out of the room and to the bathroom. My bottle of pills sit on the ledge of the sink. I open the small white container and shake a pill onto the palm of my hand. I sigh and look into the mirror in front of me. I look at the little blue pill in the hand and toss it into the toilet. I flush it down and watch it fade away. What Mikey didn't know wouldn't hurt him.
I know that you can see me.
I look startled. It's been a long time since he's spoken to me. He mostly stands by me and watches my every movement.I turn my head back so I can sneak a peak at him. It's to late, he's caught me looking.
You can't ignore me. Just face the fact that I'm here and that I have no intentions of leaving.
I shake my head. He's not real, he's not. Mikey promised me that things were going to get better, and that he was going to leave me alone. The voices stuck in my head were bad enough for me, but then I started to see people who no one else could see. It was scaring me. My younger brother Mikey had sent me to a doctor who gave me small blue pills. The pills didn't help. In fact, not only did the pills not work, no, they made thing worse. The voices were too strong for the stupid small pills. It felt like my head might explode every time I took a pill.
He just doesn't understand you. This is who you are.
He? The man sitting in front of me stares into my eyes. The man means Mikey.
"Who are you?" I ask in a whisper, careful not to wake my brother up.
...Call me Kellin.
Kellin? A strange name. I shake my head. This Kellin was not going to trick me into talking to him. He knew what Mikey would do to me if he saw me talking to myself again.
"Go away." I mumble.
W-What?
"Go away!" I shout, slamming my fist against the table.
"Gerard?" I hear Mikey's voice float around from behind me.
"What?" I ask through gritted teeth, watching Kellin snicker.
"Did you....um...take your pill?"
"No." I say, pushing my chair away from the table. I storm out of the room and to the bathroom. My bottle of pills sit on the ledge of the sink. I open the small white container and shake a pill onto the palm of my hand. I sigh and look into the mirror in front of me. I look at the little blue pill in the hand and toss it into the toilet. I flush it down and watch it fade away. What Mikey didn't know wouldn't hurt him.
Blink 182 and Green Day as opener and MCR as main in an epic getting-back-together concert!!!!!!
1/19/14