Honey, if you stay I'll be forgiven

Jess P.O.V

He kissed me, we had only known each other for under a week and he had kissed me, I cared for him a lot and could tell we had something special together, but not this soon did I think this would happen. We had kissed again and again, our lips colliding, we hugged and cuddled and when it was all over we had been sat on the edge of his bed, my head in his neck, his arm around my shoulder.

"I wont ever let you down, it will be you and I together" he said, a little to cliche for my liking.

"I know gee... I have all these feelings for you, but we only just met" I admitted

"I knew from that first moment when you saved me that-" he began to tell me

"Just stop it! It's too much, i'm scared" I got up from the bed, out of the safety of his arms and paced around at the top of his bed along the carpet.

"of what? i'm here Jess, always"

"you say that now, but what about in a few years..." I complained

"and I will say it forever because your the only hope for me" Gerard cried

"I know gee, but still my parents.. I even lied to them about being here with my sister because I know how they will act Gerard!" I pleaded

"okay, i'm sorry, it's my fault, I shouldn't of kissed you, I just couldn't help myself your beautiful and an amazing person and a great friend and a-"

"it's not your fault, I didn't have to kiss you back, but i had to because I couldn't resist you, so I will have to face the consequences" I insisted

"not alone if you don't want to" he reassured me

"thank you" I said as he grabbed both of my hands, and pulled my body towards him, he was taller than myself so I only reached his chin, but I went on my tip toes and kissed him, gently. He pulled away and held my hand to his lips pressing them against my skin.

Hit felt like he lifted me off my feet. I grabbed his hand and ran towards his bed dragging him along with me. I pulled up his sleeve revealing a hairy arm, I rubbed my hand along the other side when I felt a scar, just like a slit on his arm, looking up his arm I saw many scars. My mouth must have been open because he flinched away pulling his arm to his body and rolling his sleeves down. Ashamed.

"Gee... Wha-wh-what are these". I asked him nervously

"what do you think they are! can you not see! scars okay! fucking scars from my selfish messed up life!" he turned from me and covered his face with his sleeves.

"Gerard, i'm sorry I didn't mean to be..."

"it's not your fault" he admitted

I grabbed his face, and watched the hot tears drip down his cheeks onto my hands, then roll off of his chin. I pulled his face to mine, so our foreheads were touching and so were the tips of our noses. I blinked and felt tears roll down the side of my own face too. We were both crying together. As one, because we were and always will be as one.

"I'm here if your feeling alone, I'm here if you need to talk, I'm always here for you. But please promise me you wont hurt yourself again. Because you hurt me too."

"You don't understand, Its hard, but these scars are old"

"maybe I don't understand, but I can learn to understand you."

I rested my hands on Gerard's chest, Placing my head next to my hands. Rubbing them across his chest.

Notes

Here you go, that's what they got up to.