Everything was so very wrong, i shouldn't have yelled at Frank and Gerard, oh my god ! Gerard doesn't even know about his son, i ruined everything. I grabbed my phone and scrolled down the contacts list searching for mom, mom probably the last person who doesn't hate me. It's ringing, ringing, ringing and rin- "hello!" my mom replies. "h-hi" i mumbled. "Lita? " " Lizley " " oh right i forgot you changed your name" "yeah" i said shaking. "what's wrong honey? " she said worried. " everything, everything is wrong mom" i broke down. "honey, what's wrong? Is Arthur okay? " she said scared. " Arthur is fine mom, but i ruined it, i ruined everything " i said crying. " I'm so confused honey, do you want me to come? " " yes, please i need to talk to you " " okay I'll take the first train " I hang up, actually when i found out i was pregnant my mom didn't kill me, she actually came and took care of me, helped me around the house and Arthur loves her too. I didn't go to work today, i told Rosie to get me a two days vacation, i woke up staring at the ceiling, i didn't want to get up, though Arthur started crying," Gerard!, Gerard! " i yelled, Arthur kept crying," Gerard please Gerard " i yelled. *stop calling your son Gerard bitch * my inner voice screamed," shut up Charlotte you motherfucking bitch!! " i yelled at my inner voice i just gave her a name Charlotte. I got up and held Arthur," I'm sorry honey, I'm sorry". Someone knocked on the door, i opened the door holding Arthur, it was mom, i put Arthur down and i hug mom, "oh mommy" i sob. She sat down and Arthur sat on her lap,"so honey tell me what's wrong " I sighed and squeezed mom's hand. "it's Gerard" i looked away. "what? " " he's back, and Arthur and Frank were at the office he called him daddy, Gerard thought me and Frank have a baby, he said he doesn't know me anymore, i fought with Frank and now everybody hates me" i cried. "ohh" she rubbed my knee. "and i just don't know what to do, should i tell him" "well, he's the father " " he won't talk to me" "call him" "I don't have his num- wait! I can ask Rosie to get me his number from the company " " you should do that" she smiled.