Disenchanted - Comments

@Clockwork.Sanity
I'll have to check that one out! I started reading A Splitting of the Mind but stopped half way for some reason... hmm... must find that again...
I probably don't really relate to it at all yet can write it so maybe that's the secret... or maybe I just got lucky XD But thanks :)

@Join the Masquerade
I really love stories that explore this side of Gerard. One of my favourites is The Boy Made of Wax by gorbeecormick. She is amazing and that has to be one of the greatest MCR fanfictions. Aside from A Splitting of the Mind, of course. But everyone already knows that. XD
I envy your ability to write from this point of view. Even being able to relate to it, I have a hard time writing characters with these struggles.

@Clockwork.Sanity
Aww thank you <3

Two of my favourite things, MCR on tour and Gerard's introspection. You SLAY with oneshots!

@Sharpest_Life_B
That sounds wonderful :)

I need to remember that too. ;)

@Join the Masquerade
yeah my phone has a microphone so I can use my voice to write. For the stories I usually use a notepad program and then cut and paste edit so I don't have to use my arms and hands too much. I just try to think of it in terms of, yeah it sucks but I know there's people that are a lot worse off than me. I'm going to try to write out a lot of my doctors appointment and hospital experiences but approach it in a funny way, because believe it or not I've had a lot of wacky things happen. Looking back it is kind of funny. Not always funny at the time or when it's you but unbelievable stuff happened so I think if I write it in a certain way that it could be interesting and also other people can share their experiences too. Maybe it could be a way to help people, a focused outlet, not just bitch about problems site.

@Sharpest_Life_B
I haven't really got words for that. I'm just sorry you've had to go through so much long-lasting shit. Clean and sober though, congrats :)
You can still write I hope. I guess you have to find things you enjoy that you can still do. :)

@Join the Masquerade
Yes and no. Clean and sober for many yrs. only take the prescribed amount. :) Mostly the psych stuff is better. Have a get set of Drs, but it's still like Gee minus the drunk part. That's what motivated me to comment. But even w occasional suicidal thoughts, crying bouts, PTSD flare ups, etc it's not totally hopeless! Anyone suffering should still seek help if it's not under control. I started taking meds under drs supervision about age 16 and I'll be 40 in july. And I'm JUST now getting it together. Sometimes it takes many drs and different tries. But there's always someone out there that will care about u!

The one thing I haven't come to terms w yet is my spine has been disinigrating since i was fairly young so now i cant dance, stand at concerts, wear cute shoes, fibromyalgia, Carpal and cupital tunnal, tendonitis in my wrist. I used to play piano, guitar, write songs, my breathing and memory are affected. Pretty much everything you take for granted I stopped being able to do at 32. Hard to keep a good attitude. I have an idea for a blog or an ebook possibly if I can spin it right.

@Sharpest_Life_B
I'm so sorry to hear all that :( I have a friend who's had a similarly sort of tragic life. It's absolutely horrible watching people suffer and not being able to help them, not knowing what to do. I hope you're on the other side of that now. :)

I've never had the experience of making out w my same sex friends for this same reason, but ..... other than that, I can safely say that Gee's life was/is so much like mine it's scary. Of course I'm sure everybody on here identifies pretty strongly w these problems. Right?

If you're interested, my drama. It's long and rambling: I struggled w alcohol & RX med abuse thru most of my teens and good deal of my 20s, along w a history of just about every kind of abuse, Major Depression, Anxiety, OCD, an Eating Disorder, undiagnosed Bipolar & Borderline Personality Disorder and a spine injury at age 12. Then another illness and injury took my ability to play music away.

@Gee'sCLUELESSgirl!
Thank you :3

Sad and beautiful! X